I know that feel.
I had friends once but they became lame. I mean I have a lot of acquaintances you could call friends I guess, but we barely talk, barely hangout, so not really.
I only really had 3 best friends, I mean the kind of friends you're with almost every day/night doing stupid ****, from trying to jump BMX bikes off the top of sheds, driving around doing hits of salvia, to getting wasted and chasing after my friend as he jumps on a moving train and jumping on after him and rolling off the other side into the ditch.
Now idk they are gay. One got a chick pregnant, moved to a new town, now he's in treatment, the other either works out of town all the time or hangs out with some new phaggots that listen to lil weezy and drake and jack each other off or whatever they do.