The Dark Side of us all.. Srs

[Jalexander1994]

We all have it. We all have that perverse, dark, morbid, maybe even violent side of us.
I've had thoughts and dreams, that after I was ashamed and scared of myself for it.

Share some dark thoughts you all have had.

Lets keep this thread 100% srs.
(Btw.. The title of this thread would make an awesome album name.)

[tallntoned]

I can confirm. I am dark side

But seriously i wanted to kill some guy at my school once... actually brought the knife to school and everything.

[BigStewTheJew]

I can confirm. I am dark side

But seriously i wanted to kill some guy at my school once... actually brought the knife to school and everything.

Oh Canada, what have you done, you silly country.

[KilluaTheKid]

not going to talk about the monster living inside me






































wut

[Jalexander1994]

I can confirm. I am dark side

But seriously i wanted to kill some guy at my school once... actually brought the knife to school and everything.

Dang.. Why?

[tallntoned]

Oh Canada, what have you done, you silly country.

[Bradonis]

**Tried to strangle a guy Crew**

[tallntoned]

Dang.. Why?

Just bought brand new phone on 3 year contract, stupid racist kid stole it from me

[TheAquila]

in4 red lightsabers

[Jalexander1994]

Just bought brand new phone on 3 year contract, stupid racist kid stole it from me

What stopped you?



And guys. Tell the story too,

[tallntoned]

What stopped you?
And guys. Tell the story too,

Didnt feel like getting arrested and shiz... nomsayin?

Plus im bulking and dont wanna waste the calories..

[Darknightbegins]

I've thought about eating a bullet a few times in my life. Chambered the round and stared at the pistol and stared at the barrel a few times. Depression of Peace

[igregie]

There was a girl that was about the same age as me in front of my house, selling something as a fundraiser.
She was smoking hot! I was going to attempt to grab her by the arms and drag her to my room.
I was the only one in my house and it was when I was a Freshman.

[LaudyBrah]

Everybody has the monster inside them man... Soldiers who come back from war talk about the rush you get when you kill someone... My cousin who came back from a tour in Afghanistan tried explaining as best he could, he said it was a feeling of power and the best rush you could ever get better than coke even

[Jalexander1994]

I've thought about eating a bullet a few times in my life. Chambered the round and stared at the pistol and stared at the barrel a few times. Depression of Peace

Dang.. Glad you're ok now. Wait.. Are you? What was going on?

There was a girl that was about the same age as me in front of my house, selling something as a fundraiser.
She was smoking hot! I was going to attempt to grab her by the arms and drag her to my room.
I was the only one in my house and it was when I was a Freshman.

What stopped you?

[bwbraves70]

In middle school i was bullied a lot. I brought a police baton to school hoping someone would hit me so i could cave their skull in. Ive moved on and i havent had thoughts like that in a while, except when i think about the kids that phucked with me.

Edit: appeciate this thread. Helps me realize i am sane not the only one that has these thoughts.

[igregie]

Everybody has the monster inside them man... Soldiers who come back from war talk about the rush you get when you kill someone... My cousin who came back from a tour in Afghanistan tried explaining as best he could, he said it was a feeling of power and the best rush you could ever get better than coke even

True. I could imagine.

[Jalexander1994]

In middle school i was bullied a lot. I brought a police baton to school hoping someone would hit me so i could cave their skull in. Ive moved on and i havent had thoughts like that in a while, except when i think about the kids that phucked with me.

Edit: appeciate this thread. Helps me realize i am sane not the only one that has these thoughts.

That's the point of this thread.
Venting, realizing we're all human, we've all felt these ways.

[Aerojh]

wrestling my nephew accidentally hurt him and for some reason when i did i wanted to hurt him even more and for some reason when i seen him in pain/suffering i enjoyed it


that was the only time, id then reality hit me and i stopped immediately and i thought "what the **** am i doing" and he was still crying
dude i dont know i felt like a psycho
never have done anything like that before nor have done anything like that since

[ericd8]

Honestly I don't like to think about some of the thoughts I've had, thoughts that I really have no control over and would never act on. Occasionally a thought will roll through my mind, I'll be disgusted that I even thought it, and it will haunt me for a day or two. Key is to know that you'll never act on those thoughts. I've found that I can exhibit a great amount of control over those thoughts with practice, and I can use those thoughts to my advantage in lifting and school.

Back in middle school I had the urge to severely injure myself, I wasn't depressed or anything, I just had urges. Weird chit.

Thank god I'm not the only one who's had these thoughts, I thought I was going schitzo

[surfsnow12]

I was bullied a lot at my first high school and literally one day snapped and was going to run someone over. Like I was waiting for them and everything. I didn't do it though. I really don't think a lot of dark things now but when I think back to those years I get so much rage from what all they put me through even though I did nothing. Those were some of the most depressing years of my life. My dad was having and affair and all sorts of other stuff was going on at home. There is just only a certain amount of stuff that a person can take...

and now let the "your beta" comments fly

[Jalexander1994]

wrestling my nephew accidentally hurt him and for some reason when i did i wanted to hurt him even more and for some reason when i seen him in pain/suffering i enjoyed it


that was the only time, id then reality hit me and i stopped immediately and i thought "what the **** am i doing" and he was still crying
dude i dont know i felt like a psycho
never have done anything like that before nor have done anything like that since

Dang..

Lemme tell you guys this dream I had last night.


I was at my dads mothers house. In real life I don't see them at all. They're horrible people., and I just about hate them all. They hurt my dad growing up, and me. In too many ways.

So in my dream I snuck into the house in the late afternoon.. Had a knife and stabbed one of my uncles in the head.

My others family members saw and tried to stop me. One had a gun so I ran up to him and slashed his throat open. Grabbed his gun and shot up another person in the house.two to the chest, and one to the head, splitting it open.

I then went up to my dads mom and yelled/cried at her for what she did to my dad and me. I stabbed her in the chest. She started to run do I stabbed her in the back and neck. And ran away.. Crying the whole time..

Hate the feelings I had in that dream..

[ericd8]

Dang..

Lemme tell you guys this dream I had last night.


I was at my dads mothers house. In real life I don't see them at all. They're horrible people., and I just about hate them all. They hurt my dad growing up, and me. In too many ways.

So in my dream I snuck into the house in the late afternoon.. Had a knife and stabbed one of my uncles in the head.

My others family members saw and tried to stop me. One had a gun so I ran up to him and slashed his throat open. Grabbed his gun and shot up another person in the house.two to the chest, and one to the head, splitting it open.

I then went up to my dads mom and yelled/cried at her for what she did to my dad and me. I stabbed her in the chest. She started to run do I stabbed her in the back and neck. And ran away.. Crying the whole time..

Hate the feelings I had in that dream..

My dreams get bad dude. The worst part is I don't even wake up for them anymore, I sleep right on through. I've killed myself in my dreams multiple times (occasionally as a method to get out of a lucid dream), and I remember one particular time I went on a killing spree killing bums in my dream. That was after watching an episode of Breaking Bad however.

[Jalexander1994]

My dreams get bad dude. The worst part is I don't even wake up for them anymore, I sleep right on through. I've killed myself in my dreams multiple times (occasionally as a method to get out of a lucid dream), and I remember one particular time I went on a killing spree killing bums in my dream. That was after watching an episode of Breaking Bad however.

I slept right through it too..

[AspLode]

when i was very little...my mom and dad used to fight alot...even hit each other sometimes it was usually my dads fault...

i try not to think about it because when i do i start to want to kill my dad... srs lol

[tallntoned]

Had lots of dreams about kill family members... pretty disturbing

[Nomza]

back in 7th grade this teacher really picked on me for no ****ing reason and decided to grade me as low as possible. Ultimately I didn't want to get chit grades for something that I worked really hard for so I decided to burn the room which had all the examination papers locked up because I knew he was going to grade me lower again. It was the final exams and based on that exam we were going to be promoted to our next grade.

Brought a jerry can full of gasoline at midnight all alone and broke into the school. Doused the entire room with gas and burnt it down. lol *******s thought it was a faulty wiring that caused the fire.

[Jalexander1994]

back in 7th grade this teacher really picked on me for no ****ing reason and decided to grade me as low as possible. Ultimately I didn't want to get chit grades for something that I worked really hard for so I decided to burn the room which had all the examination papers locked up because I knew he was going to grade me lower again. It was the final exams and based on that exam we were going to be promoted to our next grade.

Brought a jerry can full of gasoline at midnight all alone and broke into the school. Doused the entire room with gas and burnt it down. lol *******s thought it was a faulty wiring that caused the fire.

Wow..

[surfsnow12]

I slept right through it too..

Maybe its the brains way of keeping you from doing something like that in real life? By letting you live out the in a dream instead, just a theory. Kind of lends itself to the whole Plato and Aristotle argument of violence and release.

[Jalexander1994]

Had lots of dreams about kill family members... pretty disturbing

Any reason why?