Hi
Really need to vent my anger here misc. I can't post pics now, as I deleted all of them off my pc, but in about 24 hours i will post pics of her. Basically have been in LDR with this girl for a few years now. Everything was fantastic. I only get to visit her once a year, but we would talk for literally 3-4 hours every day on the phone. First thing in the morning we would skype, and we would fall asleep together on the phone. Every night for three years it was like this.
A couple months ago she started being more distant. She wanted to go to sleep earlier at night and I started noticing little lies like where she's been, who she's texting ect. I ignored them. In the entire time we've been together, we've only had like 3-4 fights. I never yelled at her or called her names, I white knighted her so hard I feel sick.
So a couple weeks ago I arrived in India. Was planning on being here for a month, but I knew things were up. She's in exam period, so she had an exam a couple days ago, and said she wanted to go over to a friends house to study for a few hours. I kind of sensed that things were weird for a few days now. She was very hesitant to be physical with me (though still rawdogged her, growing to regret that now). She would always want to sleep early, though when I was here last year we were up till 1-2 am every night talking and spending time together. Her phone has a broke screen where you can only see the lower half, and unless you knew how to use it in a specific way, it was always impossible for me to check her text messages. One day when she got out of the shower, we were going to go buy some bread and as we walked out I looked at her and said "i know everything, so tell me right now what's going on and don't try lying". Obviously when I said that I knew nothing, but she was dead silent. After about 10 minutes she finally said "i don't love you". After another few minutes she said she loved her professor. This guy is a sleazy, fat, indian manlet who is also married and has a 1 year old kid. Me being the beta ******* that I am asked her if she wanted to work through it, that I could forgive her. She said she wanted to be with him, and I raged. Got up, ran back to the house and packed all my **** and am now at her aunt's house until my (had to buy a new one) flight out of here tomorrow. Last night was the ****tiest night in my life, I only slept 2-3 hours, and dreamed constantly of trying to win her back. When I woke up I had such a strong panic attack I thought i was having a heart attack (I have NEVER had anxiety or panic attacks in my life). She came back later that night and admitted that she had slept with him, and told me that he was going to get a divorce and all this ****. I didn't show her any emotion, and in fact laughed at her at one point when I realised how ****ed her life was. I was her ticket off that continent and she knew it (we met in HS in Texas). Her professor is probably going to get fired, all her friends know what happened and think she's a total slut (this is a HUGE deal in India). Her parents are coming back from out of town tonight and I will tell them everything. Talked to them a bit on the phone and they were uber supportive of me and really mad at her. Offered to pay for my ticket ect.
Sorry for the rant, but I'm alone in this country and its so depressing. Never going to deny misc advice again: all women are sloots and will only stay with you until they can find somebody better (in their eyes).
tldr:
gf of 3 years ****ed 30 year old married, with child professor.
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