Been under some medical stress.
I MAY have lupus. *sigh*
I am just starting adult ADD medicine (had known it was coming a long time, got myself to the point where literally everything else in my life was maxxed before starting Adderall a few days ago, can't get any further without it[srs]).
Got my first ultrasound regarding cancer today and am awaiting results on Friday. (It is either cancer or some really nasty cysts, either one I can't really afford to have removed)
On one level I have had tremendous success. Redefining my body going from here to here.
But in the middle I had more mass/better composition before I got sick.
I feel like I lost a little ground over the last couple of weeks due to medication change which is causing a bit of water retention, ruining my definition, and binge eating the first two days (seems to be getting better as I understand my body better in relation to the meds).
What should I say to myself? How do you reach down and find the motivation to go forward when the wall just seems to be getting higher?
I know I'm going to be alright, but I can't stop "hitting it hard" like I have been for the last few months. Guidance.