Cliffs of circumstances:
- meet freshman sloot at college
- get to be friends
- declare only friends
- get drunk on halloween, hook up
- start coming over ,watching movies, smashing regularly
- make lots of jokes, have lots of fun, are close
- declare that no relationship is gonna happen and things are to be kept casual, sloot understands
- rawdogged twice, had to buy two plan B's in 72hours, she was mad about that
- left for xmas break, only talked a little bit in which i was being distant because i was seeing my family and was far away
events leading up to pics:
- sloot texts me when shes back on campus yesterday, asks to see me
- come over to her dorm
- meets me at door, hands me bag full of 3 items: old shirt i gave her, birthday present i gave her (teddy bear from walmart), pint of my favorite ice cream (ben and jerrys cinnamon buns)
- says to me "goodbye forever, this is over" and leaves me with the bag
- naturally, leave bag on sidewalk, delete #, go back to dorm to continue unpacking. Sloot had gotten a little clingy lately and it was making me uncomfortable anyway
Fast forward an hour
- calls me twice, i don't answer
- calls me a third time, i pick up, "what?" sloot says NOTHING on active phonecall for over two minutes
- i hang up
And then this:
Ignored all of it.
Hour later, come back with my laundry from laundry room, SLOOT IS IN MY GOD DAM ROOM
- says i'm an ******* for not caring about this
- feels ****ty because of me
- it's my fault
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pulls out bloody hankerchief, drenched in blood, rolls up sleeves, cuts all over wrists, gets up, walks out, says "thanks for helping me do this"
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no, not done
Two hours later, get this on fb
Full text:
Hi. I know you probably will not be happy seeing that I messaged you but i can't just let this end. I am laying in bed feeling like absolute ****. I got blood all over my sheets and had to use peroxide to get it out and I spilled like half the bottle on my sheets and now I have to change them lol. It kinda was a funny scene but no one was there to experience it. I know I went crazy and I am sorry that I flipped out on you a lot this past two weeks. I guess I just was fighting myself because I don't want a relationship but I ended up liking you more which I didn't expect any of this. I never even thought we would ever hookup or anything. Needless to say I wasn't prepared for this. But I can't let you just walk out of my life. All I am asking for is to remain friends. We had an amazing friendship and I want to go back to that. No sex, no flirtyness, just be friends. I miss that so much. Things got way to complicated and I was unsure of you felt about me. I say I miss you and you reply soon. That doesn't make me thing that you miss me at all. I guess the reasoning for my freaking out is because so many times things just fade. It seems as if a person just wakes up one day and then just don't like a person anymore. That is what happened with Ridley and same thing happened with my parents. So I think my feelings for you grew and I was scared and when you call me man or ***** instead of like babe.. I don't think youre interest in me. And I think part of me probably was wanting to push you away because I was afraid that things had moved so fast. I have been in an abusive relationship before so dating really freaks me the **** out. I am so stubborn and guarded and took everything out on you. I was wrong. I messed up. No I ****ed up real bad. Also the pregnancy thing really drove me insane and I was putting most of the blame on you. I was scared every day about it. I guess I should stop rambling on but the point I am trying to make is if you could give me a second chance. All I want is a friendship and I understand that we wont be as close as we used to be but honestly I don't think I can have you not in my life. I really am so sorry and I don't know what I can do to make it better. I ****ed up big time and I'm sorry but you are way too important to me to let it just end this way. I really don't know what else I can say and I'm scared to send this but I can't just let you leave my life. We don't have to talk 24/7 like we used to but I can't last weeks or months without talking. Please just try to remember how it used to be and how much fun we used to have. I miss that. You don't know how bad I want to just go back to that and start fresh. My heart has been racing for hours now, I feel sick to my stomach.. I really don't want to feel like this every day. I can't say sorry enough jake.
Cliffs of cliffs: what the fukc.
Edit: forgot pics jesus christ
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