I've been busy with study and work. I haven't yet found the balance between these two.
Health/Workout is my first priority, but I cannot stop feeling like I'm running away from some obligations as an adult.
Many people at my age work full time and don't find time to go to the gym, but I make sure I have time to go to the gym and get my workout done.
Both enjoying and having this kind of luxury made me think as if I was not a fully independent person. Maybe it is a cultural thing.
Many people at the gym have asked me why I was training. They thought I wanted to compete or get "big".
At first, I wanted to look like a bikini competitor. I admired Jaime Baird and Dianna Dahlgren. I used to think " I wish I could look like them, but it is almost impossible because I'm Asian."
I came to the point where I really truely started to take care of myself and stopped comparing myself to other women. In other words, I lost the "goal". Initially I felt a bit embarrassed for not aiming for anything specific.
This is what I think :I don't care if I am getting close to those competitors looks,all I care now is whether I am a first rate version of myself.
My goal is to get my bootie rounder and lose extra fat on my legs and arms. My waist is getting tighter everyday even my weight has been fluctuating.
Looking forward to some improvements by spring!!