I am 15. Weigh 185 currently. And am 5"10
2 Years ago I started putting on alot of weight. After 1 year I had gained a good 40 pounds. Then I had realized it, and started trying to lose weight.
After failing at every challenge I put myself too I started october 1st. P90X . I last about 17 days eating correctly on the nutrition guide and following the workouts.
I lost 15 pounds doing that then hit a wall with schedule problems. I have sleep apnea and chronic insomnia. No excuses tho. I tryed to get through it but I just couldn't do it.
I am generally active. I go to a trampoline park twice a week and jump on trampolines for 1-2 hours each time constantly, also I skateboard anywhere I go which is usually 1-3 miles everyday.
Nobody in my family has ever been in completly ripped before no matter how hard anyone has worked. If you were to see me you'd guess I weigh 150. When people guess my weight and say 150 I feel terrible because I weigh 185.
I also drink Whey protein every morning as a meal replacement and eat decently.
It seems like either I eat normelly and be active and gain weight. Or work out hard and stay the same.
So some days I look in the mirror at night (usually around 2-3AM cause I NEVER sleep) and get very angry at the body I am looking at in the mirror. Which then causes me to work out for 2 hours that night and usually continue doing that for the next 2-3 days. Then I stop. And a couple weeks later it happends again.
I feel like i'm going in circles here... I have a gym membership and stuff like that
I NEED CONSTANT MOTIVATION