Running with the Demon- my long, long journey to the stage.

[demonwareltd]

Hang in there, you will succeed I know it! U have been cutting for quite some time so I am sure it gets harder and harder to stay the path. Surround yourself with positive influence and thoughts. Tell your wife to make you feel guilty as hell if you wanna cheat on your diet. My wife is so good at it when I am prepping that even if I wanna have a little cheat I can't do it with her around. Accountability not only to yourself but to others will help with this.

Also, u have us! . If u r having a hard time of things, read some logs here for inspiration, look at some pics or hey, email me. I can give you my cell # too so u can reach me even quicker if a situation comes up and u need support or guidance.

We will win this!

[curjo]

Thanks for the support guys. It does get harder the longer you do it. The catch 22 of it is seeing the scale go down is the biggest motivation I have and I'm ruining my own motivation making it even harder. I feel like I've been stuck in the 250's to 260's for forever!

Anyway. I was not motivated at all to hit the gym today but I did it anyway and hit 225 on squat for six reps which is what I finally consider a decent starting weight.

Squat
155x12
185x10
205x8
225x6

Hack squat
140x10
140x10
140x10

Stiff leg db deadlift
85'sx8
85'sx8
85'sx8

Leg extension
110x15
110x15
110x15

Leg curl
115x12
115x12
115x12

Standing calf raise
135x15
185x12
185x12
205x10
205x10

Seated calf raise was being used for like 15 minutes straight so I just left. Glad tomorrow is an off day because(get ready for a shameless plug) tomorrow is my platinum birthday. At least that's what I'm calling it. 12/12/12 baby 31 years old. Yikes!

[curjo]

Weight:256.4 +1.6

Well I knew I was gonna be up after this weekend. Hopefully by Saturday I'll be back down to where I was before my dells trips.

[curjo]

So for my birthday today my wife made me a "birthday cake" of sugar free jello with sugar free cool whip. And my mom brought over a "birthday cake" of cauliflower and broccoli lol. Had a small dish of jello and two heads of broccoli and just one small piece of cauliflower with walden farms calorie free ranch dressing. So glad everyone is supporting me. Here's a pic of my birthday treat.

[demonwareltd]

So for my birthday today my wife made me a "birthday cake" of sugar free jello with sugar free cool whip. And my mom brought over a "birthday cake" of cauliflower and broccoli lol. Had a small dish of jello and two heads of broccoli and just one small piece of cauliflower with walden farms calorie free ranch dressing. So glad everyone is supporting me. Here's a pic of my birthday treat.

That is awesome! Very creative and glad they are supporting. During my birthday during a past prep I think I had a cake constructed of grilled chicken breasts with candles stuck in them. Little things like this show how much your family cares!

[curjo]

That is awesome! Very creative and glad they are supporting. During my birthday during a past prep I think I had a cake constructed of grilled chicken breasts with candles stuck in them. Little things like this show how much your family cares!

Ya it definitely helps, although in feeling the bloat from all that raw broccoli!

[Keyboardsmasher]

Jello birthday cake, nice touch hahahaha!!!

[curjo]

Yesterday was arm day and I always love training arms. Threw in a set to failure at the end of the routine to really get a good pump.

Seated db curl
35x10
35x10
35x10

Superset with lying db extension
20x10
20x10
20x10

Ez bar curl
75x10
75x10
75x10

Superset with rope extension
55x12
55x12
50x12

Ez bar skull crushers
55x10
55x10
55x10

Wide grip bb curl
50x12
70x10
70x8
20x35

It was a good workout overall. Had my daughters school Christmas program to go to right after so I wasn't able to get any cardio in besides my 10 min treadmill warmup.

[Ccm644]

Sorry Curjo I missed your birthday

Happy Birthday, sorry it is late

Your family were really thoughtful, its nice when they are by your side.

Keep up the hard work

[curjo]

Sorry Curjo I missed your birthday

Happy Birthday, sorry it is late

Your family were really thoughtful, its nice when they are by your side.

Keep up the hard work

Thanks, it is nice that they're supporting me. I can always see it in their faces though that they're waiting for me to fail, especially my brothers. It's just the way my family is, and I've given them no reason not to think that with all the yoyoing that I've done over the years.

[Ccm644]

Thanks, it is nice that they're supporting me. I can always see it in their faces though that they're waiting for me to fail, especially my brothers. It's just the way my family is, and I've given them no reason not to think that with all the yoyoing that I've done over the years.

Your do it, your sure making everyone proud! With your determination and Demons help your doing great

My brother doesnt see why I lift, he eats a take away at least once a week and eats crap 24/7 still looks really good.

Keep it up

[offroadatv200]

Thanks, it is nice that they're supporting me. I can always see it in their faces though that they're waiting for me to fail, especially my brothers. It's just the way my family is, and I've given them no reason not to think that with all the yoyoing that I've done over the years.

Noone understands the work it takes to be so discipline and noone will ever understand why we do what we do. Just imagine what there face is going to look like when youre shredded on stage flexin on them

It wasnt until i brought pre packed meals to family gatherings that people knew i meant business.

Happy belated birthday.
I would smash that little dessert. Healthy or not it looked pretty dang good!

[curjo]

Noone understands the work it takes to be so discipline and noone will ever understand why we do what we do. Just imagine what there face is going to look like when youre shredded on stage flexin on them

It wasnt until i brought pre packed meals to family gatherings that people knew i meant business.

Happy belated birthday.
I would smash that little dessert. Healthy or not it looked pretty dang good!

Oh I smashed it alright! Ya it's going to be interesting when I show up at Christmas parties with my meals. I'm not looking forward to the questions and looks that I'll get. Oh well, that's the life we choose.

[TakedaShingen]

Oh I smashed it alright! Ya it's going to be interesting when I show up at Christmas parties with my meals. I'm not looking forward to the questions and looks that I'll get. Oh well, that's the life we choose.

You get used to it lol.
My family expects it now.
And those who truly care and want you to succeed, will promote it and it feels good. Good to do it. Good to have others notice hard work. Good to be alive man!

[offroadatv200]

You get used to it lol.
My family expects it now.
And those who truly care and want you to succeed, will promote it and it feels good. Good to do it. Good to have others notice hard work. Good to be alive man!

He hit the nail on the head.

Now my grandparents ask me if I am dieting before I come. (Or as they say "starving myself") They know I love my sweets and they won't bake them if I'm coming. Support is key!

[demonwareltd]

Oh I smashed it alright! Ya it's going to be interesting when I show up at Christmas parties with my meals. I'm not looking forward to the questions and looks that I'll get. Oh well, that's the life we choose.

You get used to it like others said, but it does get tedious. My parents are always like, "you on that 'diet' again?" Yes, mom....again

My first prep I would carry around ziploc bags of boiled chicken breast and almonds and pull them out every 3 hours or so to eat. Many times in the middle of meetings. Strange looks for sure. For all the sacrifice and crap we have to deal with, I promise you that the feeling of achievement at the end of the road is more than worth it and will stick with you forever.

[curjo]

Shoulder workout was the first one I have done in over a month, things kept coming up and I didn't make it a priority. It won't happen anymore.

OHP
85x10
85x10
75x10

Superset with side db lateral raises
10x10
10x10
10x10

Barbell shrugs
140x10
140x10
140x10

Superset with rear lateral raises
15x10
15x10
15x10

Front db raises
15x10
15x10
15x10

Barbell upright row
60x10
60x10
60x10

[curjo]

Weight: 255.8 -0.8

Ironically that's my exact weight 2 weeks ago. So 2 weeks down the drain because I could t control myself , not to mention that the Saturday before thanksgiving I was 250.8. So I'm still 5 away from my low.

[curjo]

Once again here is my last set of deads. 235x6 this time. That's up 50lbs from last time for all of you who said I was dogging it!
http://i1304.photobucket.com/albums/...ps81b8a8d8.mp4

[Ccm644]

Once again here is my last set of deads. 235x6 this time. That's up 50lbs from last time for all of you who said I was dogging it!
http://i1304.photobucket.com/albums/...ps81b8a8d8.mp4

Nice, They look better and harder

Good work


With photobucket if you want, you can copy and paste the IMG code of your video and it will be shown on your log

[curjo]

Nice, They look better and harder

Good work


With photobucket if you want, you can copy and paste the IMG code of your video and it will be shown on your log

Thanks, I had some more in me but I'm still going easy on my lower back. For some reason when I do the image code it doesn't work for me. Not sure why.

[curjo]

Today's back workout felt really solid. Upped the weight on pretty much everything but my db rows. I did 48 minutes of cardio today to make up for the last two days of not getting any cardio in. I also took a page out of Stan's play book and did several different types of cardio.

10 minutes treadmill 15 incline 4.0 speed (warm up)
12 minutes elliptical level 13 fat burn program
14 minutes recumbant bike level 10
12 minutes treadmill 15 incline 4.0 speed

Wide grip lat pull down
110x10
110x10
110x10

Superset with db rows
65x10
65x10
65x10

Bent over row
70x12
80x10
90x8
100x6

Dead lift
135x12
185x10
215x8
235x6

Straight arm pulldown
50x12
50x12
50x12

I also did a few sets of the back extension thingy where it holds your heels and you bend over and raise back up. Anything to strengthen my lower back.

[demonwareltd]

Today's back workout felt really solid. Upped the weight on pretty much everything but my db rows. I did 48 minutes of cardio today to make up for the last two days of not getting any cardio in. I also took a page out of Stan's play book and did several different types of cardio.

10 minutes treadmill 15 incline 4.0 speed (warm up)
12 minutes elliptical level 13 fat burn program
14 minutes recumbant bike level 10
12 minutes treadmill 15 incline 4.0 speed

Wide grip lat pull down
110x10
110x10
110x10

Superset with db rows
65x10
65x10
65x10

Bent over row
70x12
80x10
90x8
100x6

Dead lift
135x12
185x10
215x8
235x6

Straight arm pulldown
50x12
50x12
50x12

I also did a few sets of the back extension thingy where it holds your heels and you bend over and raise back up. Anything to strengthen my lower back.

Solid, solid work today! Great job on the deads too. Looking much stronger!

We just gotta make it through the holidays and all the crap food that tempts us on an hourly basis and we'll be golden!

[curjo]

Solid, solid work today! Great job on the deads too. Looking much stronger!

We just gotta make it through the holidays and all the crap food that tempts us on an hourly basis and we'll be golden!

Tell me about it. I told my brother today that I wouldn't be eating anything but the food I bring with me and he got mad at me. I've always been the fat one in the family and he's always been the smallest. Well I'm only 20 lbs away from him now and he's not happy about it. All the more reason for me to push past him even quicker!

[demonwareltd]

Tell me about it. I told my brother today that I wouldn't be eating anything but the food I bring with me and he got mad at me. I've always been the fat one in the family and he's always been the smallest. Well I'm only 20 lbs away from him now and he's not happy about it. All the more reason for me to push past him even quicker!

That's the spirit, a little sibling rivalry never hurt anyone. That's unfortunate though if he was truly mad about you bringing your own food. I understand that to some extent it can hurt other people's feelings by not eating food they take the time to prepare, so I always make it a point to be as outgoing and pleasant at such gatherings so to make people forget about the food and show them you can have just as good a time by eating healthy, prepared meals and still enjoy time together.

[curjo]

That's the spirit, a little sibling rivalry never hurt anyone. That's unfortunate though if he was truly mad about you bringing your own food. I understand that to some extent it can hurt other people's feelings by not eating food they take the time to prepare, so I always make it a point to be as outgoing and pleasant at such gatherings so to make people forget about the food and show them you can have just as good a time by eating healthy, prepared meals and still enjoy time together.

He doesn't prepare anything, he brings up huge doughnuts, and probably 5 boxes of Frango mints. Just pure crap.

[demonwareltd]

He doesn't prepare anything, he brings up huge doughnuts, and probably 5 boxes of Frango mints. Just pure crap.

Gotcha. Well a little tip, coming from experience, is definitely don't make others feel bad for stuffing their face with crap. My wife's side of the family are alot of big people and yeah, they eat poorly majority of the time. They rib me now and again for my diet when I'm prepping, but I always take the high road and don't throw it back in the face, pointing out the horrible food they are eating and their large waistlines.

[curjo]

Bleh! Just did my measurements and nothing has changed in over a month. Very disappointed to say the least. I know my weight hasn't changed much inthat time but I was really expecting to see some size difference from the lifting.

[demonwareltd]

Bleh! Just did my measurements and nothing has changed in over a month. Very disappointed to say the least. I know my weight hasn't changed much inthat time but I was really expecting to see some size difference from the lifting.

If it makes you feel better I have been bulking for over a month and my size hasn't increased at all, just got fatter it seems. Adding muscle is a crazy slow process. It's also extremely difficult to build muscle when eating in a caloric deficit most of the time. I wouldn't expect to see any size gains so long as you are continuing to cut, it's just not going to happen.

[curjo]

If it makes you feel better I have been bulking for over a month and my size hasn't increased at all, just got fatter it seems. Adding muscle is a crazy slow process. It's also extremely difficult to build muscle when eating in a caloric deficit most of the time. I wouldn't expect to see any size gains so long as you are continuing to cut, it's just not going to happen.

Not looking for size gains at all, I'm looking for size loss! Was still hoping I was recomping a little. Figured I should still be shrinking up. Oh well.