Depression Discussion and Support Thread [srs]

[KayronF]

vent man, what's going on today?

I'm not going to vent but for starters my job was just really annoying me and time was going slow af. People kept asking whats wrong and I didn't want to talk. I also don't want people to worry about me but I knew they were anyways. I just couldn't wait to get the **** away from people.

[KayronF]

Don't worry man, your not alone. Just try to hang in there. You just have to believe that things will get better, and they likely will just have to give it some time. That's what keeps me going knowing I'm not alone & that I say to myself that eventually things will get better.

I'm starting to not believe that. There are people that have been fighting depression for 10+ years. The phuck man?

[mordei]

I'm starting to not believe that. There are people that have been fighting depression for 10+ years. The phuck man?

Alot of those people refuse to help themselves or don't stay consistent with what would eventually help them.

I'm about 99 percent sure I won't ever beat this completely, but I still put effort into myself to make it more tolerable. 10 years from now you can be depressed or you can be absolutely miserable, there's a world of difference between the two

[Beachbum1546]

I've started to spiral into an alcohol addiction and I started smoking weed constantly. I'm beginning to lose my friends because of it.

Simultaneously I also am developing a sex addiction. I have begun seeing woman more and more as objects after I have sex with them.

When I'm alone I'm not happy with myself.

I'd avoid the alcohol and just smoke up. You can develop a physical dependence from the alcohol abuse, which can ruin your life and even kill you. However, that can't happen with weed, so toke up when feeling blue. It's best to stop drinking now because it will only get harder to quit as you continue to drink.

[Bushmaster]

Don't worry man, your not alone. Just try to hang in there. You just have to believe that things will get better, and they likely will just have to give it some time. That's what keeps me going knowing I'm not alone & that I say to myself that eventually things will get better.

I'm starting to not believe that. There are people that have been fighting depression for 10+ years. The phuck man?

Circumstances in your life - work, money, relationships can and will get better, but that won't automatically cure the depression. I've been dealing with it for 15+ years... it's chemical shiit in your body that gets out of whack and sometimes the best that you can do is recognize it and deal with it as it comes along. Sorry.... I know that's not what anybody wants to hear but it is what it is....

[SeymourCake]

My dog just died and I can't stop shedding tears. I don't know if I want to go lift today.

[Bushmaster]

My dog just died and I can't stop shedding tears. I don't know if I want to go lift today.

No, mourn your dog.. the gym isn't going anywhere.

[BigTimePlayer]

Circumstances in your life - work, money, relationships can and will get better, but that won't automatically cure the depression. I've been dealing with it for 15+ years... it's chemical shiit in your body that gets out of whack and sometimes the best that you can do is recognize it and deal with it as it comes along. Sorry.... I know that's not what anybody wants to hear but it is what it is....

Yeah, that seems to be the case. If it's been going on for a long time, it's likely some sort of chemical imbalance issue. A lot of people refuse to take medication though due to the ****ty side effects.

[KayronF]

Circumstances in your life - work, money, relationships can and will get better, but that won't automatically cure the depression. I've been dealing with it for 15+ years... it's chemical shiit in your body that gets out of whack and sometimes the best that you can do is recognize it and deal with it as it comes along. Sorry.... I know that's not what anybody wants to hear but it is what it is....

Yeah I pretty much figured that ..I've been dealing with this going on 2 years now and its getting worse. I don't want to live with it anymore.

[Flexish]

Had a few depressed moments last week but doing better. A switch in perception and seeing things/people for what they are really helps a lot in certain situations... It's amazing how "gold" becomes granite overnight. Thats actually a positive for me.

The problem is...I'm in quite a bit of pain and the medication they gave me carries a warning of increased depression and risk suicidal thoughts (how does this even...???). I don't even know what to do at the point. It's getting worse but I'm a bit concerned. It's sitting there and I want relief already but I don't even know what to do.

[BigTimePlayer]

Man I seriously have to stop going on the relationship thread on this site. And the other threads about women. It really ****s me up bad. Like someone said a few days ago on here, the misc can be a really ****ty place to be if you have depression/anxiety.

[dash_riprock]

Man I seriously have to stop going on the relationship thread on this site. And the other threads about women. It really ****s me up bad. Like someone said a few days ago on here, the misc can be a really ****ty place to be if you have depression/anxiety.

a woman will help you get through your anxiety/depression issues brah… just maybe lower your standards and look for a nice chick.

[BigTimePlayer]

a woman will help you get through your anxiety/depression issues brah… just maybe lower your standards and look for a nice chick.

It's not that simple. It's hard to have a serious relationship with someone if you feel like **** a lot of the time.

[hidingwithmusic]

It's not that simple. It's hard to have a serious relationship with someone if you feel like **** a lot of the time.

I relate to this. I can never snap out of it. I feel so ugly.

[War Machine]

My dog just died and I can't stop shedding tears. I don't know if I want to go lift today.

sorry bro

[Mcfreako]

you're all going to make it

if anyone needs a random miscer to talk to pm me

[Bushmaster]

you're all going to make it

if anyone needs a random miscer to talk to pm me

x2.

[War Machine]

Feeling overwhelmingly sad.

[Heych1995]

Feeling overwhelmingly sad.

did you get dumped by christy mack btw

[BigTimePlayer]

Don't know how much longer I can do this. I ****ing hate the predicament I'm in right now with my health & life in general. And it's not just as simple as saying make changes. Feel like I'm supposed to be in the prime of my life yet I just don't feel good. Probably would have had a girlfriend by now & gotten a bachelor's degree instead of only having an associate's if it wasn't for my problems. I feel like the way I am now wasn't the way I was meant to be since before my teen years I was a really happy positive person. Than when I moved in the late 90s things just took a turn for the worse.

[KayronF]

Don't know how much longer I can do this. I ****ing hate the predicament I'm in right now with my health & life in general. And it's not just as simple as saying make changes. Feel like I'm supposed to be in the prime of my life yet I just don't feel good. Probably would have had a girlfriend by now & gotten a bachelor's degree instead of only having an associate's if it wasn't for my problems. I feel like the way I am now wasn't the way I was meant to be since before my teen years I was a really happy positive person. Than when I moved in the late 90s things just took a turn for the worse.

I'm right there with you pal ..still thinking about killing myself on my bday srs.

[hidingwithmusic]

Don't know how much longer I can do this. I ****ing hate the predicament I'm in right now with my health & life in general. And it's not just as simple as saying make changes. Feel like I'm supposed to be in the prime of my life yet I just don't feel good. Probably would have had a girlfriend by now & gotten a bachelor's degree instead of only having an associate's if it wasn't for my problems. I feel like the way I am now wasn't the way I was meant to be since before my teen years I was a really happy positive person. Than when I moved in the late 90s things just took a turn for the worse.

Can you call me and we can have a talk? I sound so much like you and I bet we could really vent out frustrations.

[Flexish]

Don't know how much longer I can do this. I ****ing hate the predicament I'm in right now with my health & life in general. And it's not just as simple as saying make changes. Feel like I'm supposed to be in the prime of my life yet I just don't feel good. Probably would have had a girlfriend by now & gotten a bachelor's degree instead of only having an associate's if it wasn't for my problems. I feel like the way I am now wasn't the way I was meant to be since before my teen years I was a really happy positive person. Than when I moved in the late 90s things just took a turn for the worse.

Same boat. Had someone basically made me feel like chit for not being where I should be in life...spelling out all my faults and what I wasn't doing to "make things" better. There are so many things I have no control over that have hindered me. Being made to feel like I'm not doing anything when Im trying so hard and have been screwed over so much in so many ways...
I used to be positive as well...still am but I hate how I'm so worn down, so sad. Give so much to others, but I seem to just...be easily replaced. Sometimes all you want is to be told you matter.

[BigTimePlayer]

I'm right there with you pal ..still thinking about killing myself on my bday srs.

Don't do that brah. It ****ing sucks not having a normal functioning brain, but for some reason I still have hope for myself even with all this ****. Basically I just have to believe I'll be better one day since this is the only life we get. It's just really crazy to me that I'm in the position I'm in now. I also have to probably get a bunch of MRIs done in a few weeks to try to find out about an unrelated issue from depression that I've been having for a long time. Might be something with my ear, jaw or sinuses. **** ****ing sucks. Wish I had a girlfriend or something at least who could support me in such a ****ty time in my life. But I guess others on here are likely right that no woman wants to deal with a depressive guy who's so ****ed up. It really annoys me since girls do find me attractive, but I'm a ****ing mess.

[hidingwithmusic]

Don't do that brah. It ****ing sucks not having a normal functioning brain, but for some reason I still have hope for myself even with all this ****. Basically I just have to believe I'll be better one day since this is the only life we get. It's just really crazy to me that I'm in the position I'm in now. I also have to probably get a bunch of MRIs done in a few weeks to try to find out about an unrelated issue from depression that I've been having for a long time. Might be something with my ear, jaw or sinuses. **** ****ing sucks. Wish I had a girlfriend or something at least who could support me in such a ****ty time in my life. But I guess others on here are likely right that no woman wants to deal with a depressive guy who's so ****ed up. It really annoys me since girls do find me attractive, but I'm a ****ing mess.

We literally sound just alike

[Nameless15]

in, always sorta been a downer, its like everyday i wake up not knowing what to do bored the hell out of my mind and just wondering what i'm doing with my life, i fuaking hate it! and not to mention i over analyze everything and always come to a conclusion that my friends secretly hate me etc **** back when it was worse i used to think about suicide.... would post screenies but i use cannabis as an anti-depressant, dont know if it'd be appropriate to post...

[BigTimePlayer]

We literally sound just alike

In what way?

[BigTimePlayer]

Same boat. Had someone basically made me feel like chit for not being where I should be in life...spelling out all my faults and what I wasn't doing to "make things" better. There are so many things I have no control over that have hindered me. Being made to feel like I'm not doing anything when Im trying so hard and have been screwed over so much in so many ways...
I used to be positive as well...still am but I hate how I'm so worn down, so sad. Give so much to others, but I seem to just...be easily replaced. Sometimes all you want is to be told you matter.

Yeah, it really sucks. I don't even have any friends anymore. There's a few people I chat with online & once or twice a year I hang out with my past co-workers. But that's really it. All I do basically at the moment is go on internet, to the gym, or watch TV.

[hidingwithmusic]

In what way?

Everything you say, I go through. Except for the fact that I am in a bed all day fatigued and you are able to goto the gym. I took antipsychotics that slowed down my metabolism and turned me fat. Im off them but I still feel weak. I wish I can have a girlfriend but I am really ugly now. I see a horrible future in me.

[smitty2250]

been very angry and aggressive
hate everything so much
i cant sleep
im working 9 hours then sleeping for 2 or 3 at night. im ready to crack.