I took Friday, Saturday, Sunday off. I was feeling drained.
ATG Squats
135x10
225x2
245x1
265x1
275x2x5
280x5
Pullups
BWx11,9,7,7
GHR's
3x10
HS row
3x10
Finished up with a bunch of bicep work.
Workout was amazing and everything felt light.
Mental
I'm learning to just accept the fact that whatever happens with my girlfriend, happens. I'm just going to continue to be there for her. I can't worry about it though, I need to live my own life. If it doesn't work out, it won't be b/c of me. Overall, feeling great today. Good workout, and trying to adopt a new atitude.
Strict OHP
135x5
155x3
175x2
195x1
225x0....It has been a goal of mine for a while. I wanted to try it.
Finished up with lateral raises and rear raises
Mental
I'm tired of putting in all of the work into the relationship. I feel like its 100% me. I'm going to stop doing that now. If shes not willing to put in the effort, then I shouldn't be in this relationship. Failing that 225 taught me that its okay to fail. Its going to be okay if this relationship doesn't work. Its not healthy mentally to feel like this about it.
Mental
It hasn't been the same between my girlfriend and I lately. She just doesn't text as much or show as much interest. I confronted her about it last night and all she said was that she was sorry. No real resolution to the matter. I'm beginning to wonder why I'm even in this relationship and why she is even in it. I'm going to stop texting her as much. If she doesn't start pulling her weight, then I guess it'll be over. Maybe that is for the best.
Monday
ATG Squats
135x10
225x2
245x1
265x1
280x3x5...felt heavy
Pullups
BWx12,9,7,7 (+1) from last week
GHR's
3x10
HS Row machine
3x10
Finished up with bicep and trap work.
Mental
My girlfriend is going through a lot of stuff right now. No matter what I say, I'm not able to help her. I really don't even know what to do anymore. Sometimes I feel like a failure b.c. I'm not making her happy. I know its not be thats causing her problems, but its still hard. I just want us to be happy together. Somedays I wonder why I'm even still dating her. I just see a light at the end of the tunnel, and that is what I'm hoping for. I'm caring less and less everyday b/c she is not giving me anything in return. I can't keep giving her everything, while she gives me nothing.
Mental
I'm at peace with myself. I know that I am worth something. I'm not going to let things get me down. I'm worth something. If others can't see that, they don't need to be in my life. Feeling awesome today.
Mental
Feeling okay today. Slept like crap Tuesday night. I'll probably be breaking up with my girlfriend soon unless something dramatic happens. She has 3 kids and is really busy. I'm understanding of that. But when she makes time to hang out with other people, and not me, well that makes me feel like crap. I can't date a girl that wants me there emotionally, but doesn't want to put in the effort.
I don't know if I said before, but taking this week off of squats. Backs been bothering me.
Strict OHP
135x5
155x2
175x2
190x1
205x3
135x18
Standing LR
15x10
20x10
25x10
30x10
20x12
Finished up with rear delt work.
Mental
When I text my gf, its like I'm talking to myself. I ask her how she's doing, how her day is going, etc. All I get is answers, she never reciprocates the question or takes an interest. Maybe I need to start thinking that if its not working now, its not going to work. It would be a whole lot less stress for me.
Mental
I know its for the best that my gf and I broke up. I was constantly stressed during the relationship, and she didn't really value it or me. I don't know why I feel like I miss her, maybe it was just having someone there that I miss. She never made me a part of her life. I've cut all contact and I'll be okay in a few weeks.
I'm currently going to school and working part time. I didn't take any classes this summer b/c I thought I'd be hanging out with my gf and friends a lot. Its looking now like I'm going to have very little to do this summer. I wish I had taken a class to take my mind off things and get me out of the hosue for the day.
Some days I feel like I'm not really living. Like I'm just going through the motions of life. I feel like I'm waiting to start living. I don't know whats going to make me feel like I am.
Mental
I know its for the best that my gf and I broke up. I was constantly stressed during the relationship, and she didn't really value it or me. I don't know why I feel like I miss her, maybe it was just having someone there that I miss. She never made me a part of her life. I've cut all contact and I'll be okay in a few weeks.
I'm currently going to school and working part time. I didn't take any classes this summer b/c I thought I'd be hanging out with my gf and friends a lot. Its looking now like I'm going to have very little to do this summer. I wish I had taken a class to take my mind off things and get me out of the hosue for the day.
Some days I feel like I'm not really living. Like I'm just going through the motions of life. I feel like I'm waiting to start living. I don't know whats going to make me feel like I am.
you will get through it bro. Everything happens for a reason. Least since your not taking summer classes have tons of time to lift and eat and rest. Im not taking any summer classes til the second session. Last summer I just did nothing except lift, and had lots of recovery.
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