I graduated school with honors, and was given a scholarship to the university I always wanted to attend. I finished my first year and was offered a career job making $12/hr starting. I worked my way up to shift supervisor close to my 2 year mark and was making $54,000 annual salary. Life was good.
Shortly after my 22 birthday, my life took a turn for the worse. Everything that could go wrong happened. I lost my job. I lost my girl. I had no place to live. All my friends were nowhere around because I had abandoned them to acquire currency. So to try and up my spirits, my family threw me a bonfire party.
Everything was going well at first. Some of my old friends showed up. We were all drinking and having a good time. Then it happened. I can remember it like yesterday. My drunk ass stumbled backwards and fell into the fire. I had 2nd degree burns along the right side of my body, with 2nd and 3rd degree burns on my ass and lower back.
Due to my injuries, I lost the minimum wage job I needed to get back on my feet. I couldn't do anything besides sit in a chair for 4 weeks while my wounds healed. Looking back, I believe this is the point where my depression set in. I did nothing but pop a lot of ******** and lortab, drink heavily, and smoke pot. This trend continued for years.
I finally got tired of being a piece of **** and kicked the pills and slowed down tremendously on the pot and alcohol. Things were still the same so I kicked all drugs. Even sober I felt down and out all the time. Next I go to the doctor and get put on medication. The meds gave me more energy, but the cloud was still over my head. At this point I am a 25 year old loser with no friends who lives with his Mom.
I took a long look into the mirror and did not the reflection. I went from an active 195 pounds to a fat, lazy slob at 280+ pounds in only three years. I can not think of one productive thing I accomplished in this time. It is all a big blur. I had to change.
I started lifting and slowly cleaning up my diet. It was very hard at first. I had zero motivation and was out of shape to say the least. I slowly started gaining some of my motivation back. I fell off the wagon a couple of times but I always jumped back on. I refused to fall back to my old ways.
Fast forward to today and I feel like a brand new person. I have only lost around 30 pounds, but I have come a long way. When looking at photos from when I first started lifting and now, I can tell a huge difference. The biggest difference is in my confidence. Lifting is slowly getting my life back on track
I started setting goals. The goals were small and basic at first, but every goal I met made me feel a little better about myself. My goals started getting more difficult and I did something I had not done since that dark, cold night I fell into the fire. I planned for the future.
I set yearly strength and conditioning goals for myself. I made career goals and financial goals. I started doing everything for a reason. Most of everything I do now is planned and I am no longer coasting through life with no purpose. I look forward to my next workout and meeting my goals. I look forward to waking up and breathing fresh air. And most importantly, I do not look back.
I woke up and realized I had no one to blame but me. Only I could make life better. And this is what I'm doing. I look back at where I started and am very thankful I decided to make a change. I am now walking that long road of life and enjoying every second.
If you want to change, you have to do it for yourself. If you fail, you have no one to blame but yourself. If you want something bad enough, you will find a way to get it. Stop making excuses. Do not give up. It will not happen overnight. But if you put in the time and hard work to reach your goals, good things will happen.
My change started when I picked up the barbell. Thank you Brother Iron.
Good luck on all of your future goals,
Dwayne
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04-11-2012, 07:10 PM #1
Lifting is curing my depression (Long)
☆☆☆Time to cut; My road to 210☆☆☆ ***January 1: 274.0***
Started Weight Training On ---------> March 19: 264.6 / March 26: 260.4
April 2: 257.8 / April 9: 263.8 / April 16: 257.8 / April 23: 255.8 / April 30: 253.4
May 7: 253.8 / May 14: 249.0 / May 21: 250.0 / May 28: 248.0
June 4: 249.2 / June 11: 249.4 / June 18: 244.0 / June 25: xxx.x
July 2: xxx.x / July 9: xxx.x / July 16: xxx.x / July 23: xxx.x / July 30: xxx.x
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04-11-2012, 07:26 PM #2
I dont suffer from depression but i feel for you man. I somewhat understand that feel brah with only you can make life better. I started lifting cause I hated being a twig and now ive been lifting for a month and am loving it. Love seeing the gain, its a huge confidence boost. Anyways good luck on you lifting goals in 2012. CYEA
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04-11-2012, 08:29 PM #3
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Props to you for overcoming the obstacles you've faced. It's a long hard journey but the path and the little accomplishments are worth it. And you're right, it does help to relieve depression.
I know bb.com is full of haters and people that want to neg you and see you fail. But there are members that really do care about your progress and want to see you succeed. Good luck to you my friend and keep it going strong.*I live for heavy music*
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04-11-2012, 08:59 PM #4
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I feel your pain, a couple years back I went through something similar. I graduated school with honors, and was given a scholarship to the university I always wanted to attend. I finished my first year and was offered a career job making $12/hr starting. I worked my way up to shift supervisor close to my 2 year mark and was making $54,000 annual salary. Life was good.
Shortly after my 22 birthday, my life took a turn for the worse. Everything that could go wrong happened. I lost my job. I lost my girl. I had no place to live. All my friends were nowhere around because I had abandoned them to acquire currency. So to try and up my spirits, my family threw me a bonfire party.
Everything was going well at first. Some of my old friends showed up. We were all drinking and having a good time. Then it happened. I can remember it like yesterday. My drunk ass stumbled backwards and fell into the fire. I had 2nd degree burns along the right side of my body, with 2nd and 3rd degree burns on my ass and lower back.
Due to my injuries, I lost the minimum wage job I needed to get back on my feet. I couldn't do anything besides sit in a chair for 4 weeks while my wounds healed. Looking back, I believe this is the point where my depression set in. I did nothing but pop a lot of ******** and lortab, drink heavily, and smoke pot. This trend continued for years.
I finally got tired of being a piece of **** and kicked the pills and slowed down tremendously on the pot and alcohol. Things were still the same so I kicked all drugs. Even sober I felt down and out all the time. Next I go to the doctor and get put on medication. The meds gave me more energy, but the cloud was still over my head. At this point I am a 25 year old loser with no friends who lives with his Mom.
I took a long look into the mirror and did not the reflection. I went from an active 195 pounds to a fat, lazy slob at 280+ pounds in only three years. I can not think of one productive thing I accomplished in this time. It is all a big blur. I had to change.
I started lifting and slowly cleaning up my diet. It was very hard at first. I had zero motivation and was out of shape to say the least. I slowly started gaining some of my motivation back. I fell off the wagon a couple of times but I always jumped back on. I refused to fall back to my old ways.
Fast forward to today and I feel like a brand new person. I have only lost around 30 pounds, but I have come a long way. When looking at photos from when I first started lifting and now, I can tell a huge difference. The biggest difference is in my confidence. Lifting is slowly getting my life back on track
I started setting goals. The goals were small and basic at first, but every goal I met made me feel a little better about myself. My goals started getting more difficult and I did something I had not done since that dark, cold night I fell into the fire. I planned for the future.
I set yearly strength and conditioning goals for myself. I made career goals and financial goals. I started doing everything for a reason. Most of everything I do now is planned and I am no longer coasting through life with no purpose. I look forward to my next workout and meeting my goals. I look forward to waking up and breathing fresh air. And most importantly, I do not look back.
I woke up and realized I had no one to blame but me. Only I could make life better. And this is what I'm doing. I look back at where I started and am very thankful I decided to make a change. I am now walking that long road of life and enjoying every second.
If you want to change, you have to do it for yourself. If you fail, you have no one to blame but yourself. If you want something bad enough, you will find a way to get it. Stop making excuses. Do not give up. It will not happen overnight. But if you put in the time and hard work to reach your goals, good things will happen.
My change started when I picked up the barbell. Thank you Brother Iron.
Good luck on all of your future goals,
DwayneiRep Training Systems Sponsored Athlete
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04-12-2012, 12:15 AM #5
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04-12-2012, 12:55 AM #6
There certainly is neuro-chemical benefits from lifting which help combat depression. The "high" from the endorphins can temporarily snap you out of depression and set a positive tone for the day. However, I believe the real benefit to lifting is the parallels between life and the gym. To be successful in the gym you need to set long goals; you can't be put off by temporary set backs; you must be consistent; you have to push yourself beyond your comfort zone. All of these skills you learn you slowly begin to apply to your own life. Your life begins to mirror your approach to training. That is what starts to lift you from depression, from being "stuck".
Keep at it. Apply yourself in the gym. Apply yourself in your life. You have one life to live -- if you let that sink in, it changes your approach to everything.PATH OF IRON:
"Inspiration for the Neo-Renaissance Weightlifter"
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04-12-2012, 08:08 AM #7
Keep pushing brah. You will be jacked before you know it.
Thanks man. I just ignore all of the negative and smart ass comments on this forum. They are not worth my time. Although few and far between, I do appreciate the help and feedback members such as yourself give.
I believe the reason why it helps is even subconsciously the mind knows the body is changing for the better. And a healthy body = a healthy mind.
You are correct good sir. Good post.☆☆☆Time to cut; My road to 210☆☆☆ ***January 1: 274.0***
Started Weight Training On ---------> March 19: 264.6 / March 26: 260.4
April 2: 257.8 / April 9: 263.8 / April 16: 257.8 / April 23: 255.8 / April 30: 253.4
May 7: 253.8 / May 14: 249.0 / May 21: 250.0 / May 28: 248.0
June 4: 249.2 / June 11: 249.4 / June 18: 244.0 / June 25: xxx.x
July 2: xxx.x / July 9: xxx.x / July 16: xxx.x / July 23: xxx.x / July 30: xxx.x
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