Bursted out crying in the middle of class as I realized everything I do is pointless

[revolutionbrah]

My life has been a waste of 20 years and it seems all efforts I put into girls and getting a social life are useless. Ended up embarassing myself today at school as I cried heavily in the middle of class so I just ended up leaving, seeing people with their friends and girls who care about them and I can't get any of that.

Somethings I have done:
- Joined sports teams in high school - still end up foreveralone as I could not relate to any of my teammates
- Joined a couple school clubs last semester - Felt so out of place people were laughing and joking around adn already had their social circle in place and since I have nothing to offer I get pushed aside once again
- anti-depressants and therapy - useless, depression still exists and my therapist is a dumb bish who does not know anything
- Getting numbers from girls and attempting to go out - can't get girls attracted and get friendzoned (not even the good friendzone, the kind were they don't ever want to talk to me again) since I do not have a personality other than when I am in the gym talking with guys.
- Lifting heavy and following a good diet - brb sacrifice a lot and achieve a good body only to see it backfire and my efforts go to waste as girls still don't give a fuk

Thinking of dropping out of school, fuking useless, I can't motivate myself to study anymore since I probably will be living alone for the rest of my life.
brb getting a job
brb getting money, car and my own place

and all that hard work for what? Just so I can sit in a house by myself with no one wanting to be around me???

Also lol @ people who claim success = girls, ya when I am working and have a job the only people who will know about my success are the people I work with and you can not date coworkers if you are serious about the job, and anyways any girl has quite a few options and I have nothing to offer so the odds of that happening and me even getting a coworker interested is like me winning the lottery.

Even if I managed to get lucky which is nearly impossible with my genetics, I live at home and commute 1 hour to school and do not have my own car so basically life has screwed me over

[NoFXN]

[John$Galt]

after reading some of your sh*t, I'm convinced you'd be best off taking some serious anti depressant meds. you try *****?

you have to do and act how you want and stop caring what people think of you. that's your problem. do what the fuk you wanna do and it will draw people to you. say what's on your mind. say what you want.

i know, way easier said than done, but you're at a pretty low point, so you really should say fuk it to everything and everyone and just do whatever the fuk you want.

[Punisher1012]

[iabs]

major depression, seek professional help (srs).

[b0ngman]

you should try taking some oxycontin OP. When I take it I dont give a **** what I say and beleive it or not I talk a lot more and people are attracted to what I say. I hear a lot of people just feel "right" when they take it and the world suddenly seems OK. Give it a try bro. Maybe you will see the light.

Also one time I took a **** load of mushrooms when I was 16 or something. I used to have pretty low self esteem because my father and mother both molested me. Anyways, I tripped so hard and lost my ego and I saw the world was beautiful and that I was fuking fantastic even though I had been violated by those closest to me (they even let the dog get in on it )

[NoFXN]

you should try taking some oxycontin OP. When I take it I dont give a **** what I say and beleive it or not I talk a lot more and people are attracted to what I say. I hear a lot of people just feel "right" when they take it and the world suddenly seems OK. Give it a try bro. Maybe you will see the light.

Also one time I took a **** load of mushrooms when I was 16 or something. I used to have pretty low self esteem because my father and mother both molested me. Anyways, I tripped so hard and lost my ego and I saw the world was beautiful and that I was fuking fantastic even though I had been violated by those closest to me (they even let the dog get in on it )

I am sorry but I just had to laugh at the last paragraph lol I think it just made the thread a 5 star thread. Sad if it is real maybe I send you some H4...

[IMG]http://gifsforum.com/images/image/fuk%20you/grand/kill_yourself.jpg[/MG]

You know if he does it you are gonna be all over the news lol

[Trigger543]

Also lol @ people who claim success = girls, ya when I am working and have a job the only people who will know about my success are the people I work with and you can not date coworkers if you are serious about the job, and anyways any girl has quite a few options and I have nothing to offer so the odds of that happening and me even getting a coworker interested is like me winning the lottery.

Even if I managed to get lucky which is nearly impossible with my genetics, I live at home and commute 1 hour to school and do not have my own car so basically life has screwed me over

Edit: nvm OP is a troll

[NoFXN]

OP make friends with bonetana

[manletgenetics]

And what if that 'will' itself was predetermined? What then?
Oh, what folly!? Humans are just primitive life forms that have no such things as free will...
Mankind has merely been allowed to live in an imperfect state... "as is", "as will be"...
It is for this very reason... because humans have this wretched 'will' or whatnot... that humans must experience sadness and loss.
For someone to gain something means another must lose it... It is impossible to make humankind share limited "things" and "affections"...

[niosh]

OP negged on sight

[Ruby3]

[Kaptn Krunch]

I think your main problem is that you don't have a beard.

Grow a beard and all of your problems will be solved.

[NoFXN]

[Casser12]

Please read this.

"The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place... and I don´t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently, if you let it. You, me or nobody, is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit... It's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward... how much you can take, and keep moving forward. That´s how winning is done. Now, if you know what you worth, go out and get what you worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits. And not pointing fingers saying: You ain´t what you wanna be because of him or her or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain´t you! You´re better than that!"

OP. I think you should join the Military. You'll meet tons of people and friends for life, it will change you as a person too. Have you ever thought about the Military?

[MEDITATE]

i think your main problem is that you don't have a beard.

Grow a beard and all of your problems will be solved.

bahahahahahhahahahahahahaha

[LOGfan]

Stop being so dramatic OP. That's the first step.

[Evilthief]

OP is a confirmed troll

[aggieman122]

Quit talking to yourself negatively in your head. The brain has trouble distinguishing what you say to yourself from reality at times. If you keep talking to yourself negatively, the mind will adapt to make it seem true.

[Uncle Bob]

1. Mental health is no different than finding a primary care physician. Sometimes you have to try a few therapists before you find one that works with you. Your mindset seems very ingrained and it will take a lot of work to get out of it, perhaps with the help of a different antidepressant or even ECT as a last resort.

2. Stop assuming everyone is happy but you. Just because that girl in class was all smiles doesn't mean she hasn't been through serious issues and periods of sadness in her life.

[Trigger543]

I think your main problem is that you don't have a beard.

Grow a beard and all of your problems will be solved.

yeah but what kind of beard??

[Rouhanibrah]

since no one has said it yet..

age:20
status: high school

[frankenstein78]

OP is stuck in his head all day. Probably thinks about something 5 times before he does it, when only once was necessary. OP, go seek professional help. Srsly. You may have a combination of factors going on here, possibly 1 or more personality disorders. You're stuck in a self-reinforcing cycle here.

[JellySausage]

It's "burst" out crying, not "bursted".

Dumb kunt, it's probably why you have no luck with women. They don't want to feel like they're dating a retard.

[BCRich]

after reading some of your sh*t, I'm convinced you'd be best off taking some serious anti depressant meds. you try *****?

you have to do and act how you want and stop caring what people think of you. that's your problem. do what the fuk you wanna do and it will draw people to you. say what's on your mind. say what you want.

i know, way easier said than done, but you're at a pretty low point, so you really should say fuk it to everything and everyone and just do whatever the fuk you want.

this

anti-depressants arent harmful and will help you out. dont give up brah you will find that niche in life

you seem like you already had some anxiety to start with and some anti-depressants will take the edge off of it and eventualyl you will adapt and come off of them.

OP is stuck in his head all day. Probably thinks about something 5 times before he does it, when only once was necessary. OP, go seek professional help. Srsly. You may have a combination of factors going on here, possibly 1 or more personality disorders. You're stuck in a self-reinforcing cycle here.

this could be the case although I wouldnt go off thinking you have a disorder or something. its something you will heal trust me. your still in a pretty good spot. talk to a doctor and finish school

seriously. sometimes your mind needs medicine for its wounds just like any other part of your body.

[roronoa3000]

[latetext]

My life has been a waste of 20 years and it seems all efforts I put into girls and getting a social life are useless. Ended up embarassing myself today at school as I cried heavily in the middle of class so I just ended up leaving, seeing people with their friends and girls who care about them and I can't get any of that.

Somethings I have done:
- Joined sports teams in high school - still end up foreveralone as I could not relate to any of my teammates
- Joined a couple school clubs last semester - Felt so out of place people were laughing and joking around adn already had their social circle in place and since I have nothing to offer I get pushed aside once again
- anti-depressants and therapy - useless, depression still exists and my therapist is a dumb bish who does not know anything
- Getting numbers from girls and attempting to go out - can't get girls attracted and get friendzoned (not even the good friendzone, the kind were they don't ever want to talk to me again) since I do not have a personality other than when I am in the gym talking with guys.
- Lifting heavy and following a good diet - brb sacrifice a lot and achieve a good body only to see it backfire and my efforts go to waste as girls still don't give a fuk

Thinking of dropping out of school, fuking useless, I can't motivate myself to study anymore since I probably will be living alone for the rest of my life.
brb getting a job
brb getting money, car and my own place

and all that hard work for what? Just so I can sit in a house by myself with no one wanting to be around me???

Also lol @ people who claim success = girls, ya when I am working and have a job the only people who will know about my success are the people I work with and you can not date coworkers if you are serious about the job, and anyways any girl has quite a few options and I have nothing to offer so the odds of that happening and me even getting a coworker interested is like me winning the lottery.

Even if I managed to get lucky which is nearly impossible with my genetics, I live at home and commute 1 hour to school and do not have my own car so basically life has screwed me over

meditation

[jamestown0101]

I heard one of the saddest posts from a forever aloner the other day about dead family, scars, acne, and contemplating suicide every minute. His willingness to not give up I credit. Its pathetic that some of you guys have so much going for you and give up. Some have so little and persevere through thick and thin.

[poundfive2]

honestly brah.

i actually felt kinda bad after reading this. if ur that depressed whats stopping u from traveling somewhere and doing something u aspire to do? i maen, if ur life is that bad where u are, what would make it worse if u left it all behind?

[YoungNSwolen]

My life has been a waste of 20 years and it seems all efforts I put into girls and getting a social life are useless. Ended up embarassing myself today at school as I cried heavily in the middle of class so I just ended up leaving, seeing people with their friends and girls who care about them and I can't get any of that.

Somethings I have done:
- Joined sports teams in high school - still end up foreveralone as I could not relate to any of my teammates
- Joined a couple school clubs last semester - Felt so out of place people were laughing and joking around adn already had their social circle in place and since I have nothing to offer I get pushed aside once again
- anti-depressants and therapy - useless, depression still exists and my therapist is a dumb bish who does not know anything
- Getting numbers from girls and attempting to go out - can't get girls attracted and get friendzoned (not even the good friendzone, the kind were they don't ever want to talk to me again) since I do not have a personality other than when I am in the gym talking with guys.
- Lifting heavy and following a good diet - brb sacrifice a lot and achieve a good body only to see it backfire and my efforts go to waste as girls still don't give a fuk

Thinking of dropping out of school, fuking useless, I can't motivate myself to study anymore since I probably will be living alone for the rest of my life.
brb getting a job
brb getting money, car and my own place

and all that hard work for what? Just so I can sit in a house by myself with no one wanting to be around me???

Also lol @ people who claim success = girls, ya when I am working and have a job the only people who will know about my success are the people I work with and you can not date coworkers if you are serious about the job, and anyways any girl has quite a few options and I have nothing to offer so the odds of that happening and me even getting a coworker interested is like me winning the lottery.

Even if I managed to get lucky which is nearly impossible with my genetics, I live at home and commute 1 hour to school and do not have my own car so basically life has screwed me over

PM me bro, I have been there and am just now getting out. We are the same age and everything man. i want to help you through this but you gotta listen. The best way out of this is to realize it will not happen NOW. It will be years before you can live a normal life.

Sounds depressing but it's true. You are more than likely very sheltered and don't understand the world. It's likely you do have a personality disorder. My adivice to you is to quit the medications unless it is anxiety relieving like Klonopin or *****.

This is the hardesr part, letting go off life as you know it and venture out into something new. You have got to learn to not live in your head man. You gotta allow yourself to feel the things you are going through. It's easily to detach from reality and think all day and come up with 100's of different answers for the same solution, none of which are truth.

You have to go through life and live it. Don't focus on women, do not focus on attention, right now you need to focus on why you can't enjoy life and get out of your head. However you need to expand your world at the same time. Stop using the gym as a crutch. Take some time off or lessen the load, give yourself a reason to go and explore and get out of routine.

Instead of sitting inside and going to the gym. How about you find a hobby and pick it up somewhere else. Music, art, design, something that you can use to put those thoughts and emotions into and work, until at the end you feel you have made something of it instead of no SOLUTION. Honestly, it is the hardest thing, but what you need to realize is the problem is you.