I just came from rehearsal right now:
I can't believe what I found in my bed. Somehow my ex or probably sent the kid to my room and left pictures of her with hearts, and a another letter. She also made a DVD with all the happy moments, etc.... and a Spanish song asking for forgiveness. I know everything sounds cute and all, but now I remembered something I saw once at her house and popped in my head (when she asked me to put songs in an ipod a friend gave her). This DVD with happy moments she made in the computer. When she was "forgetting" her old guy from a 3 year relationship, she also made a "movie maker" video for him, that I found in the ipod, saying she knew he would come back, that she missed him, etc.... Now this came to mind... I am not sure if this is a pattern she follows, but this is getting to scary for me. I am starting to think she has done this in the past!!! With other guys.... She also sent me a picture of her and me for the 14th, Valentine's day :S
I am not really understanding her at this moment. In the letter she talks about how she made a "stupid mistake" that cost her the relationship. She also says that she has no one and that I am the only one. Get this, she says that: Translating from Spanish (best of my ability, sorry) It's long, so I will summarize:
"Love, I am playing my last card here and it's not that your love is not worth it to be trying, but my heart doesn't need more rejection from you and for my own good, I will have to move on. Let me only ask you to think please and hear your heart. The only thing that is accusing me are those stupid ******** posts, and from a guy that doesn't exist, and never existed. I gave you proof baby, that he was fake, even like that you refuse to believe me and to forgive me. It hurts deep in my soul that more than 3 years together are ending here because of a stupidity. If there are any responsible people for this, it's us, you for leaving me alone. I accept my fault and that's why I want to recover our relationship, and have the opportunity to show you that I love you and what you are worth in my life. I swear that if you give me one more chance, this time I will not be the same. I will be the most transparent person that I can be. I am just asking you to forgive my mistake and that you take my love and that together will discover what life has to offer for us. I love you and I will always love you. "
I hope if makes sense, since I translated from Spanish. This what I got today and a stuffed animal with sad puppy eyes. :S
I can't believe girls really like to dig deep when they are trying to get you back. I am really not moved much by this, but hell....I wish I could get into her mind and understand her. In other little posters she made with her pictures, she goes that "This is only a test and that this suddenly WOKE UP THE LOVE THAT WAS THERE, DYING".
WTF mannnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!
In before people saying I am giving in, or giving it too much importance if I am not going back with her. I just want the opinion of you guys that see it from the "outside". Those that are in sentimental situations can't see it and you know it!! What you make of all these?
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