I've honestly never met someone I was so compatible with, but since I'm not a devout Christian, she won't date me. I'm not an atheist, but I don't believe in the literal interpretation of religion. I think there is value in all religions, and I'm influenced by many in different ways. I don't have a problem with her religious beliefs. I would accept her as she is, and I told her this.
We talked on Friday night and brought it all out, and this is what it comes down to. It is upsetting to me, because we're otherwise so compatible and similar, and I'm wholly tolerant of what she wants to believe.
As we were talking and letting each other (finally) know how the other felt, she did nothing but praise my character, tell me what she respects in me, etc.. It's just the religion thing. She was brought up in a hardcore religious family.
It was interesting to listen to her, because it sounded so much like she was wrestling with her beliefs and trying to convince herself that she cannot be with me. There was and is such a strong connection between us.
I would never sacrifice my integrity, or try to put on a facade of being a christian for the sake of a relationship, as it would end badly for both of us, but it still is unfortunate. I feel we could have complimented each other really well.
I ended it explaining that I don't think there's much of an opportunity for friendship between us, as that was never the premise of our relationship. We're both attracted to each other, and I think a friendship (at least for now) is out of the question. Especially when she finds another guy/I find another girl. Still, even if I feel like that is the best choice, she is a great person and there's a lot I'd like about keeping her in my life - in some regard. I told her we can still talk if she'd like to, and that I'm here if she changes her mind. Still I think its better for me to not try to maintain anything with her.
I've never in my life been hit so hard with emotions over one girl. I don't really believe in a soulmate, but If I did - it would probably be her. Naive thought for a 24 year old though, I'm sure.
Basically just looking for thoughts on this, I feel I did the right thing, as hard as it is right now.