I get a text from a friend of mine that turned down my advances to her in May. We went on a trip together to another city a few hours away for a fitness expo, something we are both interested in.
I've known her for two years and I've been her first friend since moving here. I was always very physically and mentally attracted to her, but she was married. I had to keep my distance at one point because I knew she was someone I could never have.
So time passed and she later tells me that she is getting a divorce and she wanted me to go on this trip. A hotel room by myself with her.
Long story short I make an advance and she turns me down.
It got awkward driving back with her. I told her that she gave MANY physical and verbal cues to me. I wasn't upset but I felt I shouldn't have had to tell this to an adult on how to behave. I have not been the only man who made these comments, but I was her closest friend.
She apologized and I'm not mad but I don't think she understands where I'm coming from.
I don't have much animosity towards her, but I'm not certain if I can just be "friends" with her considering that I'm sexually attracted to her and I CANNOT control it. It also ties me up emotionally when I should focus on meeting other women.
Any thoughts on what I should do?