tell the saddest truth about yourself.

[Workhard20]

I go to the gym around 4 o'clock just to see the really hot women. When I could go anytime before that I refuse. Hot women give me more motivation at the gym. I want to impress them....

[Wisdom187]

Well, i can't really pin down the saddest factor because its all been terrible:

- Had to live with Uncle because parents didn't want me. Abused by my adult cousin from age 5-10. **** like being locked in a room from walking in from school (i finished school at 3.30pm everyday and was locked in the room when i got back home), being choked, being hit.
- Beaten by my Dad when i moved back in with my parents. Spent life as a child moving from town to town. I still remember being being beaten with the belt and the metal cord used to hold the curtains.
- Was bullied in school from ages 13-16. Pretty bad bullying. Went home one day, and my Dad told us all he had a brain tumour, i was 14, the next 2 years were hell, i supported him and he treated my cousin like his son, saying he was the son he wish i was. Shouted at me for **** like burning my hand and my hand not being steady when i picked up a dish because it was boiling hot. So you can see, throughout my life i have very dark memories.
- Was deeply in love with a girl who strung me along, saw her get messed around by this hipster guy, amplified my pain. Then she ****ed one of my best pals. Was broken, felt suicidal.
-For some bizare reason after that one of my lungs gave out, i was in depression in days wanting to die and my body responded to that i guess, funny how the body responds to the mind.
- Had operation to fix lung at 18, was in hospital for a month and on suicide watch. Relapsed, had to have another operation. Life was in pieces at this point. No one there for me.

Got out of hospital, thought '**** that, i'm going to become strong and great, i will never be beaten again by anyone'. All throughout my life the books were a release from the b.s. in my life, some of the teachers seriously kept me alive with the inspiration they gave me. Acquired the top 5 grade in the country in English Literature/Language at 16. I had something to live for, so it kept me alive. Got into the top 3 Law school in the country at 19 (British brah here).

Fast forward to today, i'm 20 and in the second year of law school. Everything rests on this year, i ****ed up last year. But this year, do well and i have a dream start to my career, **** up and i'm 30k in debt with no where to live and scraping by on a dead end job. I'm also dedicated to becoming strong and jacked, i literally love bb'ing, it feels amazing.

My life has been genuinely terrible and i genuinely can't really remember many good moments at all, its just been full of suffering and sometimes i just wish i felt no more pain anymore and it'd be better being asleep forever because then i won't feel anything.
But i fight on because i want to win, i don't want these ****ers to have the satisfaction of killing me.

pretty much exactly the same here minus the lung problem and the being awesome in college ****. i could add some more but **** it.

[myfacewhen]

I'm very emotionally unattached from my whole family. They weren't bad parents but they never showed me much affection when I was little (mostly my dad and others, my mom always showed me love). I guess I really never learned to love them much.

Also I don't think I have ever been myself around anyone ever. I always feel like they're gonna judge me for who I really am so I just put up a mirror act. It's become 2nd nature to me now.

[TB23]

I rage when family members ask me why I don't have a gf and wanna kill them on the spot.

Strong this, but maybe not as extreme...I just want to flip **** and start yelling at them

I put myself in stressful situations just to feel alive again.

^^^

[Flying414]

Strong this, but maybe not as extreme...I just want to flip **** and start yelling at them

I think everyone has experienced this at some point, maybe not everyone but I have lol.
My mom did it to my cousin a few weeks ago, I was like mommmm nooo :\


moar that are sad I suppose:
both parents are alcoholics and its really affected my relationship with them
I have PCOS and may never be able to have kids/ had a period that last 12 weeks
I have an infection of tuberculosis, its chronic and I can never give blood etc
I have gotten panic attacks about cleanliness regarding my roommate

[AdamantMajority]

All I know is war and it has broken me.

My most predominate emotion is fear.

I rarely sleep and my sleep is full of nightmares.

I have lost all of my compassion for human beings.

I haven't been home in 5 years. My family has no idea.

[lift_heavy20]

I have a small dick.

[Saedeas]

"Heard a joke once: Man goes to doctor. Says he's depressed. Says life seems harsh and cruel. Says he feels all alone in a threatening world where what lies ahead is vague and uncertain. Doctor says "Treatment is simple. Great clown Pagliacci is in town tonight. Go and see him. That should pick you up." Man bursts into tears. Says "But, doctor...I am Pagliacci." Good joke. Everybody laugh. Roll on snare drum. Curtains. Fade to black."

-I feel like Pagliacci sometimes. I put up a good front, but ugh. I just don't care about things anymore. I'm blessed in that my bull****, bitter, uncaring work can still get me by with what are considered good marks by society, but I'm not doing things with any real effort. I'm also in love with a girl who won't even consider a relationship with me (cultural and religious reasons, along with what I think is general non-attraction on her part). The sad thing is she's totally worth my desire. Smart, attractive, and very compatible with me. The worst part is I didn't even think of her as a candidate for my affection until I had established a strong friendship with her (friendzone, woo). I like to think I'm making progress on these issues, but if I'm honest with myself, I'm totally stuck in a rut.

Fortunately, I'm a good freaking actor. Nobody knows how depressed I am haha, nor will they (except you misc, woohoo).

[pumplikecuming]

Had an epiphony while stoned that I needed to go back to school and change my life.

Srs, mary j lit the way.

[CobaltB12]

I wasted my first 3 1/2 years of highschool being shy, anti-social, boring, and having no sense of fashion. Honestly this website has helped me out a ton. Also I had a chance to get laid and didn't make a move, it eats at me everyday.

[AE7]

Had an epiphony while stoned that I needed to go back to school and change my life.

Srs, mary j lit the way.

strong spelling to return to school ratio.

[PanzerMK1]

All I know is war and it has broken me.

My most predominate emotion is fear.

I rarely sleep and my sleep is full of nightmares.

I have lost all of my compassion for human beings.

I haven't been home in 5 years. My family has no idea.

Yes sir. I distance myself from people. I only seem to see the bad in people. 99% of people I know are only out for themselves.

I am jaded toward women due to past relationships. I have tried dating the past couple years but I do not let myself get close to anyone anymore.

[jawnzer]

Not the best in bed, and it makes it worse that I beat my self up about it and do nothing. Also anxiety that I have when trying to meet new people, would rather not. If I am approached it's a different story.

[pumplikecuming]

strong spelling to return to school ratio.

I actually googled how to spell it correctly. Srs. Blame google not my competence.

[DormForm]

Okay, so here's my story.

-so i had to do presentation for class
-awkward as ****
-start working out
-not so awkward
-zyzz is my inspiration
-presentation again
-trembling
-just keep telling myself "i'm fawkin zeez bruh"
-get confident
-my turn
-i get up there
-start shaking uncontrollably
-start telling myself "i'm fawkin zeez bruh"
-teacher says I can start anytime
-I start off with "i'm fawkin zeez bruh"
-at this point I'm so nervous I blackout
-"i'm fawkin zeez bruh"
-repeat at least 4 more times
-look around the room, people are saying "why does he keep saying that?"
-girls start laughing
-I pass out
-hit head on the corner of teacher's desk
-minor concussion
-teacher thinks I was on drugs
-classmates call my zeezprah
-nickname eventually turns into zebra
-i haven't heard my real name in months
-haven't been this depressed since high school

[AE7]

I actually googled how to spell it correctly. Srs. Blame google not my competence.

just kiddin man.

[jayohthatman]

I havent succeeded at anything ive ever wanted to do. im also ugly, short, and not very bright

[GimpBoy]

I am the laziest person on the planet. People expect me to succeed because i was a great student, but I have zero motivation to do anything. I don't have a passion for anything. Not one thing.

[lnels]

majored in biology... dropped out
majored in philosophy... dropped out
majored in physics... dropped out

srs... im 23 with no degree/diploma and dropped out of 3 courses lol because i hate going to class. fuk my life.

[chiefnz]

I thrive on chaos. I love pushing peoples 'buttons'. I love getting negative reactions out of people.

Good luck with your getting punched by somebody goals in 2011.

I let my insecuritys spill over into my life and effectively take over when in reality they are based on nothing.

I care far to much about what other people think of me.

[AdamantMajority]

Yes sir. I distance myself from people. I only seem to see the bad in people. 99% of people I know are only out for themselves.

I am jaded toward women due to past relationships. I have tried dating the past couple years but I do not let myself get close to anyone anymore.

sh*t bro, what are we gonna do? are they going to forget about us like they did the gulf war boys? i dont wanna turn out like vietnam vet. im scared.

[_grape]

i cant seem let anyone get close to me and when someone does, i find a way to sabotage it.

[Imurhuklbery]

Okay, so here's my story.

-so i had to do presentation for class
-awkward as ****
-start working out
-not so awkward
-zyzz is my inspiration
-presentation again
-trembling
-just keep telling myself "i'm fawkin zeez bruh"
-get confident
-my turn
-i get up there
-start shaking uncontrollably
-start telling myself "i'm fawkin zeez bruh"
-teacher says I can start anytime
-I start off with "i'm fawkin zeez bruh"
-at this point I'm so nervous I blackout
-"i'm fawkin zeez bruh"
-repeat at least 4 more times
-look around the room, people are saying "why does he keep saying that?"
-girls start laughing
-I pass out
-hit head on the corner of teacher's desk
-minor concussion
-teacher thinks I was on drugs
-classmates call my zeezprah
-nickname eventually turns into zebra
-i haven't heard my real name in months
-haven't been this depressed since high school

Sorry brah, but this is fuking hilarious if true

[TopStarUSA]

I have severe depression and probably should get help

[Captain22]

Sorry brah, but this is fuking hilarious if true

It's a copypasta brah, the ******* thinks it's funny to post it in a srs thread

[FeetMayn]

Have awful scarring across my back and shoulder which has caused me to be some what of a recluse, im still social but sometimes just become absent around people randomly no matter what the situation and start feeling like **** because i know the scarring is there but i know it will go with time in the end.
Distance myself from females and have rejected them for sex a few times even though i have never put any effort into getting it, makes me feel like **** even more (srs, have been straight up asked to go and fukc)

I have no other problems or insecurities and sometimes wonder how miscers can be so depressed even though they have no major physical deformities, where does it all stem from if they dont look like freaks

[Darthn3ss]

me too. i kinda gave up.


you can read all about it here

http://psychcentral.com/lib/2007/sym...lity-disorder/

brb seeing a psychologist.

[jovotovo]

- dont know how to interact with people, especially women
- dont have any real freinds
- havnt had a job so far, but i started handing out resume's yesterday
- hardly ever even talk to girls let alone kiss, smash or even hug
- Think too deeply about the world, makes me suicidal
- I wish i could just leave society and live by my self in a bush or forest and never see another human being again

[Usuibro]

The only thing that really bothers me is my lack of skill when dealing with women in a romantic way, sometimes I'm like not a single fawk was given that day, sometimes I care because I feel I'm missing important experiences of human life. I believe I just have to step my game up slowly, but that snowball efect seems so hard to start. I'm happy nonetheless, there are a lot of positive things going on in my life, and feel hopeful that I'll overcome my problems (which are nothing compared to some things posted in this thread), but there is always that thought in the back of my mind, awaring me of the possibility of not being able to change. At least the challenge has been accepted.

[chrisjohnsonlsu]

I wasted my first 3 1/2 years of highschool being shy, anti-social, boring, and having no sense of fashion. Honestly this website has helped me out a ton. Also I had a chance to get laid and didn't make a move, it eats at me everyday.

This. started working out and misc'n in college. helped my confidence tremendously. love you misc.