CHOOSE's Log 2.0

[CHOOSE]

Hello to any readers.

Normally I would try to start a log with some profound or motivational quote that I could look back at, and that would inspire me to do my best. In this case, I cannot think of anything that quite fits how I am feeling. All I know is that certain things in my life have not been good, whereas others have improved. Bottom line, I need to fix the things that have not been good and continue to improve on the things I am excelling in. That's what I hope to do in this log- just... improve.

Right now, I am 5'8", weighed in at 217lbs. yesterday, (no idea what my bodyfat is, but 25% is a good estimate), and I don't know what lifts are like. My goal right now is just to get lean and muscular.

This log will become a smattering of workouts as well as my personal life and any other thoughts I might have.

Progress pics and more coming soon.

[xvicknumber7x]

Let's gooooo!

[CHOOSE]

Thanks, xvicknumber7x.

11/17/12

Walking, fast pace: 55 mins


Comments:

This felt good. Have spent the past week getting a heavy load of schoolwork out of the way and getting my diet in order. Current pics will be added on Monday after I do my weekly weigh-in. I will also begin lifting Monday morning (11/19).

[CHOOSE]

11/21/12

1 hour walking, fast pace.


Comments

I've been getting sicker and sicker since I first started this log. Just my body's way of reacting to the pre-Thanksgiving school workload. I did a bodyweight workout on Monday, was off on Tuesday, and decided not to do a "real" workout today. This will be a slow-going process. Pic(s) will be up once I can find a computer that will manage my camera (my laptop sucks).

[CHOOSE]

11/26/12

2.5 mile run/ walk, untimed.

Comments

It was about 25*F for this one. I felt like **** right after it, but I feel high as the sky right now. Weighed in at 218 this morning (pre-workout). The Thanksgiving holiday was good to me in terms of rest and recovery. I feel pretty good right now.

[xvicknumber7x]

Keep hitting it man. You gunna lift again?

[CHOOSE]

Keep hitting it man. You gunna lift again?

Yes.

[CHOOSE]

11/27/12

1 hour walking, fast pace

Comments:
It was 16*F when I went on this walk, with a wind chill making it 10*F. I was coooolllld. I want to get a lifting session in tomorrow to see where I am at with my main lifts.

[CHOOSE]

11/28/12

Squat
135x5
185x5
185x5

Bench Press
95x5
135x5
135x5

Deadlift
135x5
185x5
185x5

Comments
It felt strange to be back at the weights, like I forgot I ever did this before. I woke up fairly sore just from the above workout. I'll do something similar tomorrow. The goal is to start a "real" routine on Monday.

[CHOOSE]

11/29/12

45 mins walking, medium pace

Comments
Just took a walk around the outside of my school for a little bit between classes. Feels good man.

[CHOOSE]

11/30/12

Front Squat
135x5
135x5
135x5

Pushups
BWx10
BWx15
BWx20

Deadlift
135x5
185x5
185x5


55 minute walk, fast pace

Comments:
Good session.

[CHOOSE]

Should've weighed myself in the morning but didn't. Snapped a different pic than the ones that were on my camera.



I have a lot of work ahead of me:
-Stop boozing (I have resources to help me now).
-Start eating right.
-Start talking to people and being open.
-Start valuing my life a little more.
-Continue to place emphasis on education, despite the recent slip-ups. Relief is right around the corner.
-Get another/ an additional job that would be beneficial to a future career.
-Be more cleanly and neat in appearance.
-Start organizing my time better.
-Stay positive.
-This is my life. Time to take control of it for myself.

[CHOOSE]

12/5/12

45 mins walking, fast pace

Comments

Breathing a little heavy after this. That's sad.

[CHOOSE]

12/6/12

Deadlift

135x5
155x5
185x5

Bent Over Row

45x5
65x5
75x5

Pullups

BWx2
BWx2
BWx2

Anticipated 45 mins - hour walk this evening.

Comments

Deads were relatively easy, just kind of forgot how to breathe. I probably could have gone heavier on rows but I watched my form. Pullups... lol it's a start.

Feeling good right now.

Conquer the weakness
Work through the pain
I can't be defeated
I will remain
I will not quit
So stand up, up, up

[CHOOSE]

12/7/12

45 mins walking, medium pace

Comments
This felt really good.

[CHOOSE]

12/8/12

45 mins walking, fast paced

Comments

Felt good, but I need to lift/ do a little bit harder cardio. Weaning off of alcohol and no sleep/ bad dreams is no help.

[CHOOSE]

12/9/12

Everything is standard oly bar in my log unless otherwise indicated.

Flat Barbell Bench Press

45x5
95x5
135x5

Seated Overhead Barbell Press

45x5
55x5
65x5

Dips

BWx3
BWx3
BWx3

Comments:

135 actually felt a little heavy. Pressing was not difficult. On dips my arms were shaky as hell and I felt incredibly weak. I'll be walking later on after I get out of work.

The world's done shaking
The world's done shaking
The world's done shaking me down

[CHOOSE]

12/12/12

Flat Barbell Bench Press

45x5
95x5
135x5

Seated Overhead Barbell Press

45x5
55x5
65x5

Dips

BWx2
BWx5
BWx5

Comments:

Slept like sh*t last night. Got into bed at ~9:45, actually fell asleep at ~11, woke up at 2am and couldn't get back to sleep. Squats on Friday.

I want to heal,
I want to feel,
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long(erase all the pain 'till it's gone.)
I want to heal,
I want to feel,
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

[CHOOSE]

More for today:

40 mins walking, fast pace

Comments:

Was kind of chilly out. The dog was ready to go and so was I after a final exam. GPA went up by 0.24 points after my first one on Tuesday. Hoping for a similar result after this one and the two I have tomorrow. I've already picked out classes for next semester and it looks like they will make for a fun/ stressful semester but it will be my last semester at this college.

[lajoo]

I like this log,sub'd.

Keep going at it bro,you won't be disappointed.

[CHOOSE]

I like this log,sub'd.

Keep going at it bro,you won't be disappointed.

Thanks man. Glad to have you.


12/13/12

Walking: untimed.

Comments:

I couldn't sleep. Got up at ~3am, woke up my dog and just walked around aimlessly for an hour, maybe more. Got back home and crashed for a little longer.

[CHOOSE]

I've been falling apart physically and mentally recently. Haven't been sleeping, random bouts of puking, not eating right, alcohol. I cared about a person more than I've ever cared about a human being and they left me. I have a break from school so I hope that helps. I just feel crippled lately, hence the lack of workouts. Funny enough, I know that eating right, lifting and lack of booze would make me feel better.

I need to turn it around.

/diary

[CHOOSE]

12/18/12

Went for a jog/ walk today, untimed.

Comments:
The whole route is about 3 miles. I jogged about half and walked about half. Didn't sleep well last night- about 3 hours. Push day tomorrow, cardio on Thursday, legs on Friday.

No time for losers, you make the call
Believe in yourself, stand tall
Another day it's in your hand
You can be the winner in the end

[lajoo]

How is the weight loss going?

[CHOOSE]

How is the weight loss going?

Not good at all. Weight is stagnant. Too much booze and junk food, not enough lifting, cardio, and haven't been taking care of myself. It's a slippery slope. I just need to get back into things, heal emotionally from some stuff.

[CHOOSE]

12/19/12

Flat Barbell Bench Press

45x5
95x5
135x5
140x5

Seated Overhead Barbell Press

45x5
55x5
65x5
70x5

Dips

BWx5
BWx5
BWx8

45 mins walking, medium pace

Comments:

Not sure if I am getting stronger or just more confident in myself. Either way, I'm happy. No giving up. Stoked for squats on Friday.

How many times can it change
How long will I be restrained
It's appalling to think that
All my time seems to be wasted
Will it stop or is it only beginning

Here on the inside
My life is not over
I'm down again

Fake Smiles surround me all day
No More can I tolerate
These excuses or all this
Constant Pressure overloading
Make it stop, the fire's always burning

[CHOOSE]

12/20/12

50 mins walking, fast pace

Comments:

Really low energy today so I just walked. Felt good. I can't wait for squats tomorrow.

[CHOOSE]

12/21/12

Cycling warmup

Squats

135x5
155x5
185x3
205x1
225x1

Hack Squats

135x5
135x5
135x5

Comments

Squats felt good. My right knee was bugging me a little bit, like it needed to be cracked or something. I like the idea of working with triples, doubles and singles on squat/ dl and I think I will be using this in future workouts. 225 wasn't a huge biggie for me. I'm gonna need to start adding weight to the bar if I want to make any progress. Also not sure what else I could throw in on leg days except isolation exercises or barbell lunges.

[xvicknumber7x]

As long as you keep overloading, you will get there. What routine are you on? I feel like you would really like mine. It's centered on explosive lifts via a Push/Pull scheme. Keep up the good work and just stay consistent. Fight through the stagnation and know that it will end and you will come out of your little rut. I felt the same way no more than two weeks ago.

[NorwegianGuy92]

In on new log brah