I posted this in the embarrassing moments thread... but I felt it deserved its own thread
I suffer from Maladaptive Daydreaming
Basically its a ****ed up form of day dreaming and you can't control it (srs)
"Maladaptive Daydreaming is often characterised by pacing around (often to music) whilst in a profound daydream. Furthermore someone with the condition may uncontrolablly move their hands or find and hold an object to use in a semi unconscious state. The daydreaming is often triggered by a type of media for example a movie or a song.Maladaptive Daydreaming is reported to make it difficult to concentrate on everyday tasks. Not everyone with the condition sees it as a bad thing but as a gift of vivid imagination"
So basically I pace back and forth playing out random scenarios in my head. I do this if the house is empty or I know if I have a low chance of being caught. Any type of media can trigger it, so for example, someone on the MISC posts a 10/10.
if it sets off a trigger, this is what happens
I get off the laptop
I fantasize about seducing this 10/10
I approach her, run game on her, basically something out of romantic comedy where I play the lovable loser
while doing this I will pace back and forth and PHYSICALLY act everything out, hand movements, laughter, dialog, whatever
this can get to the point where im unaware and completely lost in my fantasy word I created for the moment and I can be going for 2 or more hours.. completely oblivious to the outside world
my cousin caught me once and watched, unbeknownst to me, for like 30 mins..it was the longest bert stare in history.
trying to play it off was like fighting for my life in murder trial... to this day I still don't know if she bought my bull**** story ( i told her i was practicing for a play at my college)
I also have a fake family I created, they have plot lines, motivations, drama, everything.. basically a soap opera
i know damn well I CAN'T be the only mother****er that has this... if you have any questions ask away