girl81's 2011 journal

[Lifting N Tx]

Life has been really busy lately, and I'm just now catching up and taking in the last few entries. Par for the course.

Anyway ...

Friday

Last day of training/orientation tommorrow at work. Then I want to start treating myself better. My body is tired... my heart is tired. I will find peace and strength in God.

I was noting several entries where you noted discontent and unhappiness, and seemed a bit puzzled. It's risky to "diagnose" from afar, without knowing someone in person, but when has that stopped me?

You've accomplished a LOT, hit some big goals and others seem in sight. Graduating was a huge goal, which is the culmination of years of work. You're working and getting experience in your field. The brain says "Everything is going great, I've accomplished a LOT, and am continuing to make further progress." I'm a very analytical person, and if anyone could be happy based on rational calculation it would be me. But I've learned that there is always a lot going on under the conscious surface that is not very susceptible to logical argument.

You've been working so hard for so long, and this continues with little or no break since your graduation. You have conflicts about your love life, and probably feel somewhat constrained about moving forward in that area until other things (including where you'll be living) are settled. You still have uncertainty and the need to continue to perform, including a new job. The brain says "it's going according to plan", the subconscious thinks "when can I just relax". Anyway, I think that at least occasional depression is not just understandable, but predictable.

None of the above is likely much of a surprise to you, and I think the quoted entry indicates that you understand. But maybe it puts into words, somewhat more clearly, what I think you do understand about yourself. Tell my secretary to set up your next appointment in another 2-3 weeks.

Wednesday

I totally messed up and accidentally submitted an application (online) that I wasn't finished with. Any ideas how to inform the hospital withour looking like a flake?

I have no great rationale for this, but I'd probably complete and submit a new application, then contact them and say "Sorry, I accidentally submitted a partial application. Please ignore in favor of the completed one submitted later."

If it's like most businesses, it'll probably be reviewed by people in HR, then if it seems of interest passed on to the real decision makers. So the really important people will likely never see or know about the original mistake.

[girl81]

Thursday

N/m to previous post. Turns out I didn't submit; it was a hospital error.
Pretty sure I'm sick. I can't get warm.

Current Projects:
Studying for boards
Applying for RN positions
DMV issues
Acclimating to new job
Training for half-marathon
Registering for spring courses


Physical
WORKOUT: 5 miles inside, slow
SUPPS: 0g vitC, 2 caffeine, calc, mag, multi, biotin, 3fishoil, green tea, VitD
*GOALS: regain menses, training for Feb half marathon
*November BABYSTEPS: *8h sleep *10minutes speedwork 2x/week

Spiritual
*Three out of the ordinary things I'm grateful for today:
1. Teaching myself to rest.
2. A better conv with Dad.
3. A nice conv with Ben.
*GOAL:Be a strong/healthy/helpful part of God's body
*BS: let Him fill me and work through me

Intellectual/Career/Work
PCT position > staff meeting *TO DO: call AOD for more hours
RN position > studied, *TO DO: BC app, pass boards
*GOALS: *RN *BSN *NP with naturopathic beliefs
*BS: * Pass boards, Attain RN position

Social/Family
cardio with JT
hospital
phone/text: Jess, Vicki, Rachel, Dad, Ben, Rob, Allan, Tanya, Marvin
*GOALS: Start my own family (adoption)
*BS: *dinner w/friends at least once/week

Financial
-spent: $20
*GOAL:*pay off my house *adopt/raise child
*BS: *budget groceries $14 q day

[girl81]

Life has been really busy lately, and I'm just now catching up and taking in the last few entries. Par for the course.

Anyway ...



I was noting several entries where you noted discontent and unhappiness, and seemed a bit puzzled. It's risky to "diagnose" from afar, without knowing someone in person, but when has that stopped me?

You've accomplished a LOT, hit some big goals and others seem in sight. Graduating was a huge goal, which is the culmination of years of work. You're working and getting experience in your field. The brain says "Everything is going great, I've accomplished a LOT, and am continuing to make further progress." I'm a very analytical person, and if anyone could be happy based on rational calculation it would be me. But I've learned that there is always a lot going on under the conscious surface that is not very susceptible to logical argument.

You've been working so hard for so long, and this continues with little or no break since your graduation. You have conflicts about your love life, and probably feel somewhat constrained about moving forward in that area until other things (including where you'll be living) are settled. You still have uncertainty and the need to continue to perform, including a new job. The brain says "it's going according to plan", the subconscious thinks "when can I just relax". Anyway, I think that at least occasional depression is not just understandable, but predictable.

None of the above is likely much of a surprise to you, and I think the quoted entry indicates that you understand. But maybe it puts into words, somewhat more clearly, what I think you do understand about yourself. Tell my secretary to set up your next appointment in another 2-3 weeks.



I have no great rationale for this, but I'd probably complete and submit a new application, then contact them and say "Sorry, I accidentally submitted a partial application. Please ignore in favor of the completed one submitted later."

If it's like most businesses, it'll probably be reviewed by people in HR, then if it seems of interest passed on to the real decision makers. So the really important people will likely never see or know about the original mistake.

I enjoyed reading your analysis of my situation; I found it to be both interesting and insightful. I suddenly feel very transparent.
May I ask what you do for a living? I would definitely consider hiring you if I were more monetarily inclined.

[girl81]

Friday

I'm so grateful to God.

Current Projects:
Studying for boards
Applying for RN positions
DMV issues
Acclimating to new job
Training for half-marathon
Registering for spring courses


Physical
WORKOUT: 5 miles inside, slow
SUPPS: 0g vitC, 2 caffeine, calc, mag, multi, biotin, 2fishoil
*GOALS: regain menses, training for Feb half marathon
*November BABYSTEPS: *8h sleep *10minutes speedwork 2x/week

Spiritual
*Three out of the ordinary things I'm grateful for today:
1. One day at a time.
2. Hopefully not getting my license suspended; DMV issue that I still can't believe is happening.
3. Supportive friends.
*GOAL:Be a strong/healthy/helpful part of God's body
*BS: let Him fill me and work through me

Intellectual/Career/Work
PCT position > left AOD another message *TO DO: call AOD for more hours
RN position > studied, submitted another BC app *TO DO: pass boards
*GOALS: *RN *BSN *NP with naturopathic beliefs
*BS: * Pass boards, Attain RN position

Social/Family
cardio with Pauly
phone/text: Ben, Clerk's office, Collision office, Marvin
*GOALS: Start my own family (adoption)
*BS: *dinner w/friends at least once/week

Financial
-spent: $14
*GOAL:*pay off my house *adopt/raise child
*BS: *budget groceries $14 q day

[Lifting N Tx]

Well dang, sorry about the DMV issue. Like you need more complications in your life since it's not busy enough now. Hopefully you can get it worked out without a suspension. I wouldn't know what to do if I couldn't drive.

I enjoyed reading your analysis of my situation; I found it to be both interesting and insightful. I suddenly feel very transparent.
May I ask what you do for a living? I would definitely consider hiring you if I were more monetarily inclined.

Heh, thanks. Well, I'm not a psychologist or counselor.

I actually work in IT, for a large international firm that does outsourcing and consulting. Most of the time I work for one very large outsourcing customer. We host major applications for them in our datacenter, and the group I'm with does overall management of certain servers and applications (ERP systems if you know what that is), plus has technical expertise in several areas. Sometimes I also get to consult with other clients. Last week I was out at a client doing some initial technical work and also got to be the main customer contact before turning things over to one of our overseas colleagues to do the rest of the work. I especially enjoy using my technical knowledge and creativity to come up with solutions to problems or needs.

Being analytical in general is probably more a matter of my personality and nature, rather than of training or background.

[girl81]

Saturday

Attitude is everything. Its time to think positive.

Current Projects:
Studying for boards
Applying for RN positions
DMV issues
Acclimating to new job
Training for half-marathon
Registering for spring courses


Physical
WORKOUT: 4 miles inside
SUPPS: 2g vitC, 2 caffeine, calc, mag, multi, biotin, 2fishoil, vitE
*GOALS: regain menses, training for Feb half marathon
*November BABYSTEPS: *8h sleep *10minutes speedwork 2x/week

Spiritual
*Three out of the ordinary things I'm grateful for today:
1. Paychecks.
2. An eye-openning look at just how much control the government truly has over us.
3. A warm home.
*GOAL:Be a strong/healthy/helpful part of God's body
*BS: let Him fill me and work through me

Intellectual/Career/Work
PCT position > long shift *TO DO: call AOD for more hours
RN position > studied *TO DO: pass boards
*GOALS: *RN *BSN *NP with naturopathic beliefs
*BS: * Pass boards, Attain RN position

Social/Family
cardio with Val
hospital
phone/text: Ben, Val, Robbie, Tanya, Gram, Nona, Marvin
*GOALS: Start my own family (adoption)
*BS: *dinner w/friends at least once/week

Financial
-spent: $14
*GOAL:*pay off my house *adopt/raise child
*BS: *budget groceries $14 q day

[girl81]

Monday

Make your relationship with Him your first priority.

Current Projects:
Studying for boards
Applying for RN positions
DMV issues
Acclimating to new job
Training for half-marathon
Registering for spring courses


Physical
WORKOUT: 9 miles inside
SUPPS: 2g vitC, 2 caffeine, calc, mag, multi, biotin, 2fishoil, vitE
*GOALS: regain menses, training for Feb half marathon
*November BABYSTEPS: *8h sleep *10minutes speedwork 2x/week

Spiritual
*Three out of the ordinary things I'm grateful for today:
1. Got to catch up with Jess a little. I think she's a good-hearted person; I admire that.
2. Not giving up when the day wasn't going exactly as planned. God made it a good day in a way that only He can.
3. Sunshine.
*GOAL:Be a strong/healthy/helpful part of God's body
*BS: let Him fill me and work through me

Intellectual/Career/Work
PCT position > talked to boss; scheduled more shifts *TO DO: call AOD for more hours
RN position > studied *TO DO: pass boards
*GOALS: *RN *BSN *NP with naturopathic beliefs
*BS: * Pass boards, Attain RN position

Social/Family
cardio with Rob
qt with Marvin
phone/text: Ben, Val, Robbie, Tanya, Gram, Jess, Dee, Marvin
*GOALS: Start my own family (adoption)
*BS: *dinner w/friends at least once/week

Financial
-spent: $28
*GOAL:*pay off my house *adopt/raise child
*BS: *budget groceries $14 q day

[Buffycat3]

Hello

I must apologize for being absent in your journal....I haven't been to my journal either.
I am thinking of starting a new one on Saturday.
I started a new workout/diet plan with a PT whom I hired his services for building lean muscle.

I think of you everymorning and i will read your entry for the day.
I wish you well in all your efforts. You're much inspiring to me

God Bless ♥
Have a great day!

[girl81]

Tuesday


Current Projects:
Studying for boards
Applying for RN positions
DMV issues
Acclimating to new job
Training for half-marathon
Registering for spring courses


Physical
WORKOUT: 3 miles inside
SUPPS: 0g vitC, 1.5 caffeine, calc, mag, multi, biotin, 3fishoil
*GOALS: regain menses, training for Feb half marathon
*November BABYSTEPS: *8h sleep *10minutes speedwork 2x/week

Spiritual
*Three out of the ordinary things I'm grateful for today:
1. A job; the economy is so bad right now.
2. A good guy who goes out of his way to try to get me to include him in my life.
3. Online practice questions.
*GOAL:Be a strong/healthy/helpful part of God's body
*BS: let Him fill me and work through me

Intellectual/Career/Work
PCT position > long shift *TO DO: call AOD for more hours
RN position > studied *TO DO: pass boards
*GOALS: *RN *BSN *NP with naturopathic beliefs
*BS: * Pass boards, Attain RN position

Social/Family
cardio with Jamie
qt with coworkers
phone/text: Ben, Val, Robbie, Tanya, Gram, Jamie, Marvin
*GOALS: Start my own family (adoption)
*BS: *dinner w/friends at least once/week

Financial
-spent: $4
*GOAL:*pay off my house *adopt/raise child
*BS: *budget groceries $14 q day

[storm1507]

Good morning. Sorry I haven't checked in for awhile. I (and pritch) have been very busy with a huge promo for Beta-Cret.

I hope everything is going well. I found Liftin's observations interesting. I hope you are feeling OK. You are doing great from this viewpoint.

[girl81]

Hello

I must apologize for being absent in your journal....I haven't been to my journal either.
I am thinking of starting a new one on Saturday.
I started a new workout/diet plan with a PT whom I hired his services for building lean muscle.

I think of you everymorning and i will read your entry for the day.
I wish you well in all your efforts. You're much inspiring to me

God Bless ♥
Have a great day!

You never have to apologize to me; I understand.
I'm grateful for your kindness and Love. God bless. <3

[girl81]

Thursday

I'm feeling so anxious about everything. I'm scared, yet at the same time, I hear the Scripture....
"The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?" -Psalms 27:1

Current Projects:
Studying for boards
Applying for RN positions
DMV issues
Acclimating to new job
Training for half-marathon
Registering for spring courses


Physical
WORKOUT: 12 miles inside
SUPPS: 3g vitC, 2 caffeine, calc, mag, multi, biotin, 3fishoil
*GOALS: regain menses, training for Feb half marathon
*November BABYSTEPS: *8h sleep *10minutes speedwork 2x/week

Spiritual
*Three out of the ordinary things I'm grateful for today:
1. Got my ATT.
2. Think I realized why I've been so unhappy lately.
3. QT with my bff.
*GOAL:Be a strong/healthy/helpful part of God's body
*BS: let Him fill me and work through me

Intellectual/Career/Work
PCT position > got ahold of the AOD *TO DO: meet with AOD
RN position > studied, printed ATT *TO DO: pass boards
*GOALS: *RN *BSN *NP with naturopathic beliefs
*BS: * Pass boards, Attain RN position

Social/Family
cardio with T
qt with T
phone/text: Ben, Val, Rock, William, Tanya, Gram, Jamie, Marvin
*GOALS: Start my own family (adoption)
*BS: *dinner w/friends at least once/week

Financial
-spent: $33
*GOAL:*pay off my house *adopt/raise child
*BS: *budget groceries $14 q day

[girl81]

Friday



Current Projects:
Studying for boards
Applying for RN positions
DMV issues
Acclimating to new job
Training for half-marathon
Registering for spring courses


Physical
WORKOUT: 3 miles inside
SUPPS: 4g vitC, 2 caffeine, calc, mag, multi, biotin, 1fishoil
*GOALS: regain menses, training for Feb half marathon
*November BABYSTEPS: *8h sleep *10minutes speedwork 2x/week

Spiritual
*Three out of the ordinary things I'm grateful for today:
1. Ben's effort.
2. Good news about pay increase.
3. Fun budgeting.
*GOAL:Be a strong/healthy/helpful part of God's body
*BS: let Him fill me and work through me

Intellectual/Career/Work
PCT position > long shift, AOD meeting *TO DO: meet with AOD again Sunday
RN position > studied, printed ATT *TO DO: pass boards
*GOALS: *RN *BSN *NP with naturopathic beliefs
*BS: * Pass boards, Attain RN position

Social/Family
cardio with Rock
hung out with coworkers after work
phone/text: Ben, Val, Rock, William, Tanya, Gram, Jamie, Marvin
*GOALS: Start my own family (adoption)
*BS: *dinner w/friends at least once/week

Financial
-spent: $7
*GOAL:*pay off my house *adopt/raise child
*BS: *budget groceries $14 q day[/QUOTE]

[girl81]

Saturday

I officially signed up to take my state boards on Feb 14th; meaning the 15th may be a really bad day... . Whatever comes, I'm a very blessed girl and grateful to Him always.

Current Projects:
Studying for boards
Applying for RN positions
DMV issues
Acclimating to new job
Training for half-marathon
Registering for spring courses


Physical
WORKOUT: 9 miles inside
SUPPS: 0g vitC, 2 caffeine, calc, mag, multi, biotin, 1fishoil
*GOALS: regain menses, training for Feb half marathon
*November BABYSTEPS: *8h sleep *10minutes speedwork 2x/week

Spiritual
*Three out of the ordinary things I'm grateful for today:
1. A day off from overthinking.
2. Good friends.
3. Having a job.
*GOAL:Be a strong/healthy/helpful part of God's body
*BS: let Him fill me and work through me

Intellectual/Career/Work
PCT position > nada *TO DO: meet with AOD again Sunday
RN position > studied, scheduled boards *TO DO: pass boards
*GOALS: *RN *BSN *NP with naturopathic beliefs
*BS: * Pass boards, Attain RN position

Social/Family
cardio with Rock
hung out with coworkers after work
phone/text: Ben, Val, Rock, William, Tanya, Gram, Jamie, Marvin
*GOALS: Start my own family (adoption)
*BS: *dinner w/friends at least once/week

Financial
-spent: $10
*GOAL:*pay off my house *adopt/raise child
*BS: *budget groceries $14 q day

[pastorpritch]

Good luck!
I'm sure you'll do wonderfully well

[girl81]

Sunday

reminder to self: Meet with advisor to schedule classes!

Current Projects:
Studying for boards
Applying for RN positions
DMV issues
Acclimating to new job
Training for half-marathon
Registering for spring courses


Physical
WORKOUT: 3 miles inside
SUPPS: 0g vitC, 2 caffeine, calc, mag, multi, biotin, 1fishoil, vitamin E
*GOALS: regain menses, training for Feb half marathon
*November BABYSTEPS: *8h sleep *10minutes speedwork 2x/week

Spiritual
*Three out of the ordinary things I'm grateful for today:
1. The teamwork of the staff on my unit.
2. Dream-house browsing.
3. Hopefully getting more hours at work.
*GOAL:Be a strong/healthy/helpful part of God's body
*BS: let Him fill me and work through me

Intellectual/Career/Work
PCT position > long shift *TO DO: call AOD tommorrow
RN position > studied *TO DO: pass boards
*GOALS: *RN *BSN *NP with naturopathic beliefs
*BS: * Pass boards, Attain RN position

Social/Family
cardio with Nick
hung out with coworkers after work
phone/text: Ben, Val, Tanya, Gram, Jamie, Marvin, Rachel, William
*GOALS: Start my own family (adoption)
*BS: *dinner w/friends at least once/week

Financial
-spent: $18
*GOAL:*pay off my house *adopt/raise child
*BS: *budget groceries $14 q day

[girl81]

Good luck!
I'm sure you'll do wonderfully well

Thank you Pastor.

[girl81]

Tuesday


I need to figure out a better schedule. Been experiencing extreme mood swings, I think largely in part to the fact that 14 hour shifts are rough.

Current Projects:
Studying for boards
Applying for RN positions
DMV issues
Acclimating to new job
Training for half-marathon
Registering for spring courses


Physical
WORKOUT: 9 miles outside
SUPPS: 8g vitC, 2 caffeine, calc, mag, multi, biotin, 2fishoil, vitamin E
*GOALS: regain menses, training for Feb half marathon
*November BABYSTEPS: *8h sleep *10minutes speedwork 2x/week

Spiritual
*Three out of the ordinary things I'm grateful for today:
1. Hope.
2. Supportive friends.
3. God providing me patience every so often.
*GOAL:Be a strong/healthy/helpful part of God's body
*BS: let Him fill me and work through me

Intellectual/Career/Work
PCT position > scheduled *TO DO: talk to AOD Thursday and schedule an 8h
RN position > studied, praying *TO DO: pass boards
*GOALS: *RN *BSN *NP with naturopathic beliefs
*BS: * Pass boards, Attain RN position

Social/Family
cardio with Will
phone/text: Ben, Val, Tanya, Gram, Jamie, Rob, Jess, Marvin, Rachel, William
*GOALS: Start my own family (adoption)
*BS: *dinner w/friends at least once/week

Financial
-spent: $30
*GOAL:*pay off my house *adopt/raise child
*BS: *budget groceries $14 q day

[girl81]

Wednesday


I feel petty admitting that I am depressed at times, despite the knowledge that I am so blessed.

Current Projects:
Studying for boards
Applying for RN positions
DMV issues
Acclimating to new job
Training for half-marathon
Registering for spring courses


Physical
WORKOUT: 6 miles
SUPPS: 10g vitC, 2 caffeine, calc, mag, multi, biotin, 2fishoil, vitamin E
*GOALS: regain menses, training for Feb half marathon
*November BABYSTEPS: *8h sleep *10minutes speedwork 2x/week

Spiritual
*Three out of the ordinary things I'm grateful for today:
1. New lotion.
2. A day off tommorrow to hopefully kick this cold.
3. Cute/sweet doc asking for my number... but then not calling. lol.
*GOAL:Be a strong/healthy/helpful part of God's body
*BS: let Him fill me and work through me

Intellectual/Career/Work
PCT position > long shift *TO DO: talk to AOD Thursday and schedule an 8h
RN position > studied, praying *TO DO: pass boards
*GOALS: *RN *BSN *NP with naturopathic beliefs
*BS: * Pass boards, Attain RN position

Social/Family
cardio with Mark
phone/text: Ben, Val, Tanya, Gram, Jamie, Rob, Marvin
*GOALS: Start my own family (adoption)
*BS: *dinner w/friends at least once/week

Financial
-spent: $10
*GOAL:*pay off my house *adopt/raise child
*BS: *budget groceries $14 q day

[girl81]

Sunday


Headcold had me out of commission for 3 long days. Time to be gentler on my body.

Current Projects:
Studying for boards
Applying for RN positions
DMV issues
Acclimating to new job
Training for half-marathon
Registering for spring courses


Physical
WORKOUT: 9 miles outside, supersplow
SUPPS: 15g vitC, 2 caffeine, calc, mag, multi, biotin, 2fishoil, vitamin E
*GOALS: regain menses, training for Feb half marathon
*November BABYSTEPS: *8h sleep *10minutes speedwork 2x/week

Spiritual
*Three out of the ordinary things I'm grateful for today:
1. Scheduling once/week Vicki sessions.
2. Learning to be more responsible.
3. Learning to be less neurotic.
*GOAL:Be a strong/healthy/helpful part of God's body
*BS: let Him fill me and work through me

Intellectual/Career/Work
PCT position > nada *TO DO: talk to AOD and schedule an 8h
RN position > studied, praying *TO DO: pass boards
*GOALS: *RN *BSN *NP with naturopathic beliefs
*BS: * Pass boards, Attain RN position

Social/Family
cardio with Renee
phone/text: Renee, Jay, Jess, Ben, Val, Tanya, Gram, Jamie, Rob, Marvin
*GOALS: Start my own family (adoption)
*BS: *dinner w/friends at least once/week

Financial
-spent: $20
*GOAL:*pay off my house *adopt/raise child
*BS: *budget groceries $14 q day

[girl81]

Monday

I feel like I've been overthinking things.

Current Projects:
Studying for boards
Applying for RN positions
DMV issues
Acclimating to new job
Training for half-marathon
Registering for spring courses


Physical
WORKOUT: 4 miles inside, speedwork
SUPPS: 0g vitC, 2.5 caffeine, calc, mag, multi, biotin, 3fishoil, vitamin E
*GOALS: regain menses, training for Feb half marathon
*November BABYSTEPS: *8h sleep *10minutes speedwork 2x/week

Spiritual
*Three out of the ordinary things I'm grateful for today:
1. An epiphany... just chill out; .
2. Grandma's trip.
3. The flow of Love.
*GOAL:Be a strong/healthy/helpful part of God's body
*BS: let Him fill me and work through me

Intellectual/Career/Work
PCT position > double shift *TO DO: talk to AOD and schedule an 8h
RN position > studied, praying *TO DO: pass boards
*GOALS: *RN *BSN *NP with naturopathic beliefs
*BS: * Pass boards, Attain RN position

Social/Family
cardio with Renee
breakroom time
phone/text: Ben, Val, Jamie, my aunt, Marvin
*GOALS: Start my own family (adoption)
*BS: *dinner w/friends at least once/week

Financial
-spent: $17
*GOAL:*pay off my house *adopt/raise child
*BS: *budget groceries $14 q day

[girl81]

Tuesday

I had a bad reaction to something I ate. I may have to call off work tommorrow and I'm afraid to do so. I'm in the running for that job with them and absences look very bad.

Current Projects:
Studying for boards
Applying for RN positions
DMV issues
Acclimating to new job
Training for half-marathon
Registering for spring courses


Physical
WORKOUT: 8 miles inside, speedwork
SUPPS: 0g vitC, 2.5 caffeine, calc, mag, multi, biotin, 3fishoil, vitamin E
*GOALS: regain menses, training for Feb half marathon
*November BABYSTEPS: *8h sleep *10minutes speedwork 2x/week

Spiritual
*Three out of the ordinary things I'm grateful for today:
1. A roof over my head.
2. Humility; I know I'm not always right.
3. Forgiveness.
*GOAL:Be a strong/healthy/helpful part of God's body
*BS: let Him fill me and work through me

Intellectual/Career/Work
PCT position > nada *TO DO: talk to AOD and schedule an 8h
RN position > studied, praying *TO DO: pass boards
*GOALS: *RN *BSN *NP with naturopathic beliefs
*BS: * Pass boards, Attain RN position

Social/Family
cardio with Nick
phone/text: Vicki, Tanya, Marvin
*GOALS: Start my own family (adoption)
*BS: *dinner w/friends at least once/week

Financial
-spent: $11
*GOAL:*pay off my house *adopt/raise child
*BS: *budget groceries $14 q day

[MuscleMom]

I hope you are feeling better this morning!!!!

[girl81]

Wednesday

I enrolled and start classes Monday. I feel like there aren't enough hours in a day. School, work, studying for boards, gym, family, friends... everything is great, I just need to find a way to manage it all better.
As is always the case lately, I am blessed and stressed.


Current Projects:
Studying for boards
Applying for RN positions
DMV issues
Spring courses (Gov't, Humanities, Comp 2)


Physical
WORKOUT: 8 miles inside, speedwork
SUPPS: 6g vitC, 2.5 caffeine, calc, mag, multi, biotin, 2fishoil
*GOALS: regain menses, training for Feb half marathon
*November BABYSTEPS: *8h sleep *10minutes speedwork 2x/week

Spiritual
*Three out of the ordinary things I'm grateful for today:
1. Remembering my priorities.
2. Even though I called in sick, I feel some peace in that I feel I made the right choice for me at the time. I am aware that my boss will probably find me less reliable, at the same time, things happen.
3. Jeremiah. .
*GOAL:Be a strong/healthy/helpful part of God's body
*BS: let Him fill me and work through me

Intellectual/Career/Work
PCT position > scheduled shift *TO DO: practice 8h shift with GITA
RN position > studied, praying *TO DO: pass boards
*GOALS: *RN *BSN *NP with naturopathic beliefs
*BS: * Pass boards, Attain RN position

Social/Family
cardio with Steven
phone/text: Rob, Rock, Ben, Rachel, Tanya
*GOALS: Start my own family (adoption)
*BS: *dinner w/friends at least once/week

Financial
-spent: $20
*GOAL:*pay off my house *adopt/raise child
*BS: *budget groceries $14 q day

[girl81]

I hope you are feeling better this morning!!!!

Thanks Luv.
I'll be ok.

[Lifting N Tx]

I feel like I've been overthinking things.

I don't know much about nursing, but I'm really good at that one. If you decide to really give in to your inner overthinker I can probably give you some tips.

BTW I spent about 3 hours at a DMV station today with my son, who was getting his learner's permit. It didn't really contribute to the waiting time, but the clerk didn't know the rules for ID to bring that are posted on their own web site until I argued with her and she finally got the ok from her boss about what I'd brought. Made me think of your DMV issue, whatever it is. I hope it gets/is getting resolved.

[girl81]

Thursday



Current Projects:
Studying for boards
Applying for RN positions
DMV issues
Spring courses (Gov't, Humanities, Comp 2)


Physical
WORKOUT: 6 miles outside
SUPPS: 6g vitC, 2.5 caffeine, calc, mag, multi, biotin, 2fishoil, vitamin E
*GOALS: regain menses, training for Feb half marathon
*November BABYSTEPS: *8h sleep *10minutes speedwork 2x/week

Spiritual
*Three out of the ordinary things I'm grateful for today:
1. A nice kudo from Michael to my boss.
2. Sunshine.
3. QT with Nick.
*GOAL:Be a strong/healthy/helpful part of God's body
*BS: let Him fill me and work through me

Intellectual/Career/Work
PCT position > 9 hour shift *TO DO: GITA
RN position > studied, praying *TO DO: pass boards
*GOALS: *RN *BSN *NP with naturopathic beliefs
*BS: * Pass boards, Attain RN position

Social/Family
cardio with Nick
break with Danielle
phone/text: Rock, Ben, Rachel, Tanya, Jason, Jess, Vicki, Val, Marvin
*GOALS: Start my own family (adoption)
*BS: *dinner w/friends at least once/week

Financial
-spent: $14
*GOAL:*pay off my house *adopt/raise child
*BS: *budget groceries $14 q day

[girl81]

I don't know much about nursing, but I'm really good at that one. If you decide to really give in to your inner overthinker I can probably give you some tips.

BTW I spent about 3 hours at a DMV station today with my son, who was getting his learner's permit. It didn't really contribute to the waiting time, but the clerk didn't know the rules for ID to bring that are posted on their own web site until I argued with her and she finally got the ok from her boss about what I'd brought. Made me think of your DMV issue, whatever it is. I hope it gets/is getting resolved.

Thanks for your support and concern Steve. The DMV issue has taken a back burner; thanks for the reminder.
How long do kids have to have their learner's permits for now?

[Buffycat3]

HI

So sorry for being absent in your journal.
I've been absent from bbing.com as well.....I've been doing a lot of work on ********.

I have hired a PT to help me with my goal of building lean muscle.
Ruben Sandoval is a nutritionist, who also sets up speicailized workout/diet plans for people (all kinds of people) (not just bbers).
Iam excited to work with him....so far he and his team of FTBIYK (Fit To Be In Your Kitchen) has been soooo wonderful.

I am not journaling at the moment....but I did recenly post in the Female Section of Female Bodybuilding General Chat Forum under "First Time Bulkers".
this expains a bit more of my goals : http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showth...#post824866801
so with that being said about me......now You

Busy Busy you are
I applaud your super efforts, very inspiring.
I am stilll in thought of pursuing a new line of work (carreer?)
but its only thought at this time.
My main focus is putting Emily through college the fall.
We recently vistied her school last week....she had a tour of the school and dorms...and she brought home Many applications for scholarships to apply for.
She took a scholarship test that day we visited *crosses fingers*
Emily is Soooo Excited to begin her schooling this fall.
she will be job shadowing at out local Veterinarian Hospital next week....she will have hands on (or eyes on) experiacne with what She will be doing once she graduates from Veterinarian Tecnician School.

Much respect to you and your contnued effort of the love of your carreer and all of your lifes experiances!!
♥
God Bless You, Always!
♥

[girl81]

Joan,

I'm so glad to hear you are doing well. I truly believe Emily will do great in her studies.
Sending you a PM. God bless.