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Im very afraid right now.
Firstable, there will be no cliffs so if you cant bother to read a few paragraphs to help me, then i suggest you to leave this thread now
Here is why:
I've always had a good attitude towards life, you know, like always having a smile, whenever life has hit me hard and brought me down i've just stand up again, but srlys this is just too much, as emo as it sounds, i feel like everything fukin happens to me and honestly i hardly deserve it. Im one of the nicest guys youll know, funny, laid back, etc.
I've had a very hard past, like pretty much from 13-17 my life was hell. Had SEVERE acne at that age, my older brother died when i was 15, my sister turned into a drug addict, pretty much my self steem was 0/10 (srs). After i cleared my acne, i had a little of my self steem back and got a very hot girlfriend, started socializing a lot, pretty much had a great year... until i started balding. Yes, at age 18, i had a very bad widow peak and that fuked up again my self steem. But thats ok, i kinda got over it now and i was finally starting to get my shiet together again.
Even with all that stuff happening on my life, i've always been on the right path. im a great son IMO, i've never done drugs, never done bad things, always had choosen my friends with wisdom and intelligence, never been on the wrong path. I've always been the good kid.
But one thing i've always cared A LOT about is my health. I just enjoy life no matter what, so most of my life i've taken care of myself pretty good, as eating right, never drink acohol, never have smoked a cigarrete (srs), exercise daily, avoid things that could somehow be bad for my health. All this overprotective stuff i do, is just so in 30 years i dont have to worry about my health, my lungs, liver, kidney, etc. I just want to be healthy and live a long life.
Well, somehow, even if i dont drink alcohol(dont even remember the last time i had a beer), even if i dont smoke, even if i've never done drugs, well somehow my body found a way to screw it all.
Sunday i woke up and as all of us do, i went to pee and noticed my pee was darker than usual. Well, i thought it was probably just a food i ate or something so i didnt think much of it. But as the day passed, i kept peeing darker and darker everytime until the end of the day i just peed brown. I was peeing blood. Today in the morning i woke up and the same, bloody urine. Of course i did some analysis, expecting it to be some minor infection or something but no, its not that. The doctor didnt even knows what i have and he ordered a shietload of more analysis for tomorrow. And i may even need a biopsy. God knows what the fuk is wrong with me, one thing im sure is that my kidneys are bleeding and i've peed blood for the last 2 days and my pee doesnt have a sing of clearing out.
So once i got home, my mom asked me how i felt about all this whole stuff and i almost broke down. I told her that it wasnt fair that while all the kids my age are doing drugs, drinking everyday, partying, not exercising, etc they dont have to worry about shiet like this happening to them, but me, a supposedly healthy 19 yo with a healthy lifestyle and with only good intentions in life, is having such a hard time...
I dont know, i guess life doesnt care if you deserve it or not. It just hits you and you either take it with a good attitude or with a bad attitude. This time i dont know if i can have a good attitude towards it. Its just fukin unfair
/emo
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12-06-2010, 06:17 PM #1
Ok, misc,i just broke down into tears (srs, help a fellow miscer out)***UPDATE***
Last edited by Ken-O; 12-07-2010 at 06:24 PM.
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12-06-2010, 06:21 PM #3
I wouldn't get upset yet, could end up not being a big deal.
If it is a big problem, then just look at this as a new challenge to overcome just like any other challenge in life (I.E. fitness goals). You'll have more character and be a stronger person afterwardsCivilize the mind but make savage the body
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You don't know what it is yet. Could be kidneys, could be bladder/urethra/prostate etc. I know its hard to keep calm when its your own health but the best thing you can do right now is to stop with the 'What ifs?" Wait until the tests come back and then get treated. Think positively brah.
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12-06-2010, 06:22 PM #6
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12-06-2010, 06:23 PM #7
Best thing you can do OP is stay optimistic, Highly doubt your in kidney failure or some **** like that. Worse than you can do is freakout. I had something similar happen to me and they ordered a **** ton of tests. The end result wasnt the greatest but ya know it wasnt as bad as I thought and still isnt. SO I have to take better care of myself, than I had planned but Im not dead.
Keep your head up, stay positive. You might just have an infection.
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12-06-2010, 06:23 PM #8
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12-06-2010, 06:24 PM #9
Hey Ken, I'm sorry to hear this bro. Take it one day at a time and just be thankful for all the positive things in your life. These kind of things happen and all you can do is grow stronger from these experiences(emotionally). I wish you a speedy recovery and I'll pray for you tonight srs. Feel free to PM me if you ever need advice or to just talk.
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You don't know what it is yet brah, try to stay as positive as you can. Like you said it's probably just some kind of infection or something, they'll give you an antibiotic and it will clear up.
Appreciate the things you have and you'll get through it no matter what it is. Sounds like you have some solid friends and family to help you through and worse case scenario there's always some MISC brahs here to at least give you some encouraging words.
Keep your head up bro. Hope for the best. Keep doing good things and you'll get paid back for it in life eventually.--WVU Crew--
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Just stay tough, brah.
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12-06-2010, 06:26 PM #16
Hey, i'm sorry to hear that is a terrible situation. When you started mentioning how bad your life is I started thinking alot have it worse but I generally feel for you.
-being healthy and living your life avoiding things that can damage you is very respectable, coming from someone who's been abusing his own body for quite some time (and I don't mean jacking off). Don't change this or have the attitude like we are all lucky or more respectable.
-Having acne and balding is ****. But with confidence you just embrace it. The tricky and hardest part is making the necessary changes in your life so that you are indeed confident. Buy proactive if it's still bad and use it religiously, also shave your head.
-You mention your got a hot girlfriend but nothing else. Beauty is desired by all I would think but this shouldn't be the most important or notable.
Good luck and I hope all works out for you and this passes. Keep living the healthy lifestyle don't give up.
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12-06-2010, 06:26 PM #17
I'm pretty sure blood down there can sometimes be either be from strenuous activity or possibly your own bacteria, which an antibiotic would take care of...among many other possibilites.
don't worry too much. just work with the doctor to find out what it is and do what you need to do to get it taken care of. best of luck
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Bad **** happends to everybody. Your condition isn't life-threatening, at least it shouldn't be especially since you got medical attention. Think about the kids that get hit by drunk drivers on the roads and die, or think about kids born with extreme medical conditions which will never even give them a chance to live a "normal" life. Sometimes you just gotta take the hits on the chin, and focus more about the positive things in your life instead of the negative. We are all blessed, that's what people forget so just be grateful that you have what you have.
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