So anyway after years of being made fun of, and after the bar fight that took place months ago. I lost it, told myself i would not accept natural order. so i went into isolation with one thing on my mind "get big behind closed doors"
I told myself i would get organized and that is just what i am doing. I quit my job at the zoo with no real plan in mind, cause lets face it a plan is just a list of things that dont happen. I now work at giant eagle surviving off the very minimum, just enough to self-sustain. I do the same thing everyday I lift, work, and sit around on the computer. Pretty much iam just waiting for a change.
But after a few months with no contact with family or friends. I lost track of everything. All i care about is gaining muscle. however no matter how in shape i get i am only as healthy as i feel. I have developed a strong hate for society. I am sick of the scum. By scum i am talking junkies, gangsters, pimps, ****s, rapists, robbers, dealers. I am fed up the crime and want to bring some justice to this sick world.
All i ever wanted was to a be a normal person just like everyone else, but no not me natural order wouldn't allow it. i understand what iam doing is unhealthy, but very few men actually stand up to the filth.
I have this bad idea in my head, might be a good idea in the long run. I have realized i will never be with a girl, i will never be the man my parents want. But what i can do is bring some good to this sick world. So if i goes well i hope to train hard in isolation for the next 5-10 years get huge, then go out to the slums of America and make my stand. Ill be that man who stood up and i will die alone.
Don't freak out misc, iam a good guy, i have good intentions. this is just a fantasy and a way to vent.
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06-26-2010, 12:17 PM #1
Been in isolation for months (changed the way i think) i got some bad ideas
no Mclovin
I will raise above it all
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Ok.....
Kickass"Knowing others is wisdom;
Knowing the self is enlightenment."
"Limitations are for people who set them, excuses are for people who need them"
"I just have this thing inside me that wants to eat and conquer. Maybe it's egotistical, but I have it in me. I don't want to be a tycoon. I just want to conquer people and their souls."
**Misc Strength Crew**
**Would be in an Albanian crew if Albanians got along crew**
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