So my gym closed at 2 today and that left me going to the gym here in town.
A quick background info, I didn't like going to my high school, I missed out on a lot of opportunities and chances to join in some great memories because everyone was racist and mean, I never went to any of my dances and only played football for them my freshman year and never played anything else, everyone hated me and after time it once I was out of that place and was my own I grew to hate that place.
I go to a gym thats in another city thats about half an hour away and I've grown into that and everyones grown into me, I have lots of people there that are nice and are motivating and overall really just great people. I can see myself being part of that gym for my whole life because of all the people and the atmosphere I dont know how to explain it but you know when you're in that one place and you feel great and nothing can go wrong and everything just goes perfect and everything makes you happy there? That's my gym to me.
But today I had to go to the gym in town because mine was closing early and I had stuff to do, well I go and the people in there are just really mean and disrespectful towards me, I don't know what it is or what I did but it just seemed like no one in there likes me and its times like these that ruin my day and affect me for the whole week and really just put me down.
I've tried to make friends with some people but everytime I smile at them they look away and I get a negative feel from them, if I try to make small talk they simply just ignore me and walk completely the other way. I mean its like this with 8/10 people in this town and some of the old people are really sweet but most of the youngsters and teengers are some real jerks, is this how your usually small country town is?
I need some help to get me just mentally out of my past and forget about these people completely and everything tied to it, I don't go there or don't affiliate anything with anyone from this place because they are just *******s but sometimes they get to me and its getting to me more than it should and I don't want it to affect my life anymore.
Thanks to everyone in advance, happy new year.
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