positive/negative bulletpoints of myself and my life so far, how bad is this?
Negatives:
20 years old
virgin i've had girlfriends, but i've never taken it as far as sex because i would have to take off my shirt and i couldn't do that because of my acne.. read under acne and see why
compulsive overeating disorder
extreme social anxiety just started at a community college and the first day/first class i almost passed out due to the social anxiety, and i spent the first 30 minutes of the class wanting desperately to just run out the door and forget it.
negative self-esteem (ie: ashamed of myself)
literally never hangout with anyone i never hung out with people growing up because of lots of different reasons, but mainly because of my acne. i couldn't allow myself to be a in a position where i'd have to take off my shirt.
very dry facial skin cracks and dries up even if i eat because of opening my mouth wider than usual and chewing etc
unbelievably horrible body acne honestly probably one of the worst cases in the world. i've seen not yet seen a picture of skin worse than what i had. it was EVERYWHERE and they were all huge and disgusting. I could not allow myself to be a position where i might take off my shirt. ie be drunk and take off the shirt or something like that, or be with a girl and she takes off my shirt.
no real friends/life experience basically secluded myself from everyone, and spent life alone.
man boobs i used to be in decent shape, but because of the compulsive overeating disorder i've developed man boobs. i hate it
gotten pretty disgusting/fat my weight is old, now i think i weigh like 260 or so
live at home
family relationships are not good/don't talk
literally no one to even talk to
pretty bad depression
feel utterly clueless in the world
damn. do i need to even include any positives? lol should i just kill myself now misc?
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^ yea that would've worked before probably, but now it's a little different. i have no real support system, and i'm in a self-consuming cycle where it's literally torture every waking moment to try to get out of. i dunno hard to understand.
it's like i've dug the hole so deep.
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We, privileged few, who won the lottery of birth against all odds, how dare we whine at our inevitable return to that prior state for which the vast majority have never stirred.
- Dawkins
Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who has said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense.
- Buddha
Last edited by shadowwalker021; 10-29-2009 at 09:09 PM.
Why look at the negatives? There's no point in looking at what is negative in your life; focus on the positive things and work on improving the negatives. Go see a dermatologist for your skin and start working out. Your self esteem will go up from less acne/better physique and in turn you will feel less anxious in society.
You'd be surprised at your negatives being the norm in the world. To me that list is no different than half the world's youth. If you'd quit downing yourself you would see that your positives list dwarfs that one.
My advice, go to the gym and improve yourself physically. The mind and body are linked and when one feels good so does the other. Being healthy equates to being confident in many ways so instead of sulking do something about it and look back in disgust on how you used to sit around feeling sorry for yourself.
Last edited by InvidGurab; 10-29-2009 at 09:15 PM.
^ yea that would've worked before probably, but now it's a little different. i have no real support system, and i'm in a self-consuming cycle where it's literally torture every waking moment to try to get out of. i dunno hard to understand.
it's like i've dug the hole so deep.
There is nothing wrong with you, you only think there is
Just take things one step at a time bro.
Tomorrow your going to schedule an appointment with a dermatologist, I'm not suggesting you do this, I'm TELLING you to do this. Once you got that first step, we can work from there, got it?
I don't like it when others rely on others for support. Only person I can truely rely on is myself and that includes motivation. Then again-- my family is full of pessimists so it's kind of the only way to go. haha
Sefl-motivation ftmfw
Kind of coins the term "believe in yourself before others believe in you"
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There is nothing wrong with you, you only think there is
Just take things one step at a time bro.
Tomorrow your going to schedule an appointment with a dermatologist, I'm not suggesting you do this, I'm TELLING you to do this. Once you got that first step, we can work from there, got it?
this. OP, your 20. Some people are late bloomers, its really not that bad. Get rid of the acne, get the self esteem, and the ball will roll from there. If you were 40+ and telling me this, then I'd be worried.
(srs, you have to start changing things. Despite your depression telling you there's no way out, there are avenues to improve or fix out-right every problem you listed.)
Why look at the negatives? There's no point in looking at what is negative in your life; focus on the positive things and work on improving the negatives. Go see a dermatologist for your skin and start working out. Your self esteem will go up from less acne/better physique and in turn you will feel less anxious in society.
good advice. thanks.
things have been getting better recently actually.. i've been getting straight a's in my classes, and i've been the most active in all my classes despite being scared out of my mind. a girl elected me to speak because she said i was the most well spoken (this secretly made me feel awesome), and i became friends with some guy from classes. he asked for my number (strong no homo) to hangout i guess. felt good despite it being a guy (no homo again)..
i guess the next (very hard step) and the reason why i posted the thread is because tomorrow i plan (again) to break my compulsive overeating eating disorder, and i wanted some motivation from the misc since my only motivation is intrinsic. thought i'd try something different.
and okay. pic of my boobs is coming. obviously i don't have any of my acne when it was really bad, and my face actually doesn't look too bad, but i'm definitely not posting a face pic here. brb
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- Dawkins
Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who has said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense.
- Buddha
wow i'm surprised at the really good advice and support in here. i expected flaming and people making fun. thanks to everyone for the solid advice, will put it to good use + rep everyone in the thread.
here is the pic:
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We, privileged few, who won the lottery of birth against all odds, how dare we whine at our inevitable return to that prior state for which the vast majority have never stirred.
- Dawkins
Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who has said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense.
- Buddha
right now it's mostly on my arms and back, but it's not nearly as bad as it used to be. and yes lots of fat lol
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We, privileged few, who won the lottery of birth against all odds, how dare we whine at our inevitable return to that prior state for which the vast majority have never stirred.
- Dawkins
Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who has said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense.
- Buddha
everything will fall in place, but you have to fight for it.
true. thanks misc brahs
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We, privileged few, who won the lottery of birth against all odds, how dare we whine at our inevitable return to that prior state for which the vast majority have never stirred.
- Dawkins
Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who has said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense.
- Buddha
wow i'm surprised at the really good advice and support in here. i expected flaming and people making fun. thanks to everyone for the solid advice, will put it to good use + rep everyone in the thread.
here is the pic:
yeh brah just eat 1200 cals for like 4 months and you'll be mr slim jim
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Don't have stats I'm just a gas, sorta like gastly but with the attitude of ditto.
Every day is a new day. A new day to change your perspective, a day to make a small choice that will create an avalanche of effect in your life. It's not about just wanting it, it's about pushing yourself mentally to take what you want, and to take the hard steps to get there. Nothing worth having is easy, or fast.
Take the time to work on your attitude.
Go to the gym, go on a diet.
Don't be that guy that gets stomped on by life and his circumstances, lets his past dictate his future, and gives up, and wallows in a puddle of self created misery. Everyone has their obstacles, and in life there are the people who have the strength to push through every obstacle that comes to them, and there's the people that are scared, and let them build up, creating a mountain ahead of them that they fear and avoid.
Conquer mountains. Be the king of your life, not the prisoner.
Every day is a new day. A new day to change your perspective, a day to make a small choice that will an avalanche of effect in your life. It's not about just wanting it, it's about pushing yourself mentally to take what you want, and to take the hard steps to get there. Nothing worth having is easy, or fast.
Take the time to work on your attitude.
Go to the gym, go on a diet.
Don't be that guy that gets stomped on by life and his circumstances, let's his past dictate his future, and gives up, and wallows in a puddle of self created misery. Everyone has their obstacles, and in life there are the people who have the strength to push through every obstacle that comes to them, and there's the people that are scared, and let them build up, creating a mountain ahead of them that they fear and avoid.
Conquer mountains. Be the king of your life, not the prisoner.
excellent and inspiring post. thanks for taking the time man. repped on recharge
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Originally Posted by hellasx44
ok just from the amount of times i saw acne thats obv ur problem. have u ever seen a dermatologist?
i guess acne was my problem from which all of my current problems have sprung. it isn't really the problem anymore, but it was the foundation on which my social seclusion began etc.
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We, privileged few, who won the lottery of birth against all odds, how dare we whine at our inevitable return to that prior state for which the vast majority have never stirred.
- Dawkins
Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who has said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense.
- Buddha
you are not morbidly obese, it looks fixable if you have the dedication to change. you are in anxiety because you think too much about the situation instead of letting it flow all around you. you need to just relax because if you fail or suceed it all works out in the end because life keeps going. dont think about the moments so much, just react to moments, with a little guidance from your mind.
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