I hear this place isn't as ghey without me?

[SPACECLOWN]

Thanks for the emails, texts (btw texting is uber ghey), phone calls, IM's, smoke signals and the anal toys I got in the mail. I knew you all liked me but the sybian one member sent me was to much.. not to much to take but to big of a gift

So where the fawk have I been and what's going on. First off someone mentioned a certain company may have shut me up.... LOL FAWK NO!

So the economy blows and those of us that are salary employees are getting our asses handed to us on OT and such. To top it off I had a review that did not rate me above average. That to be honest set me off. I know my job well and do it well. No I am not stating I am the perfect employee but technically I can teabag most. So just like bb'ing, forums, drinking, whatever I stepped up the game. I busted my balls easily clocking 70 hr weeks and researching on my own time. Yeah my supervisor busted my balls even when working like a slave. Anyway on top of that my marriage was shakey to be honest and just alot of other aspects where falling apart. I was overwhelmed to be honest and had to let something go and that my online personal time. Family first I always say and stating employed and working came first. In the meantime I let my site die, let my Labrada log flop (really sorry guys) but something had to give. In the meantime I seen a shrink to help me out. Even though I think shrinks are well douche bags with ears I wanted to fix my life. So as things are starting to right.........

Father's day morning I woke up about 5am. Not sure if discomfort woke me or I actually just woke up but my chest wasn't right. Not major pain so I toss and turn to go back to sleep and well that wasn't happening. What's a geek to do? Google dat **** off course. Anyway about 1 min after sitting down and being cold I started feeling odd. I went upstairs and woke the boss lady up and told here something isn't right and we need to get he kids and take the family wagon to the hospital. At this point I feel like major **** and hurting. On the way I went from freezing to sweating then dizzy then the kicker tingles down my arms to the fingers. Awe **** I thought I was a goner. I told the wife I loved her and honestly thought it was over. We pull up to the ER and the wife races to a parking spot. I walk about 10 steps and my vision was gone. I was trying to open my eyes which where open and the nurses run "don't move!" and put me in a wheelchair and straight to an EKG. My heart rate was in the 30's. Well that's not good. It's should be above 60 or even 50 for such a stellar athlete like me LOL. Anyway no heart attack but still no clue what's up. The next days where more EKG's, CT Scan's, blood work like a mofo and well about anything you can think off. All they know is I have Bradycardia. Oh funny part for you bitches that like to be vascular they had nursing students use me as a guinea pig since I had veins popping like crazy LOL. So anyway I was discharged with no results. Work supervisor showed no sympothy and was more worried about project deadlines and not my health. Oh I was pissed.

All was okay, went on vacation on Disney cruise to the Bahama's with wife, 3 kids, brother-in-law, his partner, mother-in-law and step-father-in law. The cruise was fine but the weather sucked. Why didn't people tell me the Caribbean is humid and hot? I hate that **** so I didn't go outside. So anyway that didn't go well. Then spent the 4th in Orlando with the wife's brother and partner. I snapped and the partner... yep I was hot and tired of well everything.

Back to work and busting balls. Starting to catch up and about 12 days ago fever starts and last 10 days. Doc a couple days ago said I "sound like ****" and sounded like a person who had an asthma attack. Oh did I mention breathing was not well during the fever? So yesterday I had more chest Xrays and no word yet.

So moral of the story is I am falling apart mentally and physically. I trying to get my **** straight. I am waiting for the x-ray results to come back and then back to it. I shriveled down to 210 even with cruise food. I have Krispie Kremed up to 220. No real goal now but to get my diet in check and hit the gym.

As for the home front all is good and we celebrated 15 years of marriage last week. Well not to much celebration I was sick but still I am amazed she still puts up with me.

I am sure there is more but who really wants to read all this ****? Oh and progress pics



































I won't be on nearly as much as I was. Hopefully at some point in the future. Thanks again all you wad gobblin homo's.

[purts]

1st! Glad to have news from you man.

[Illadelphia]

Who the fuk are you?




Missed you son

[Kernkraft]

in b4 40yard?








Jesus man aside from the butt pic - hang in there, hope you feel better.

[cut.copy]

3rd?

[Surive123]

I really hope your health turns around man.

Good to see you post.

[VaughnTrue]

i want to be on you.

[SPACECLOWN]

Okay what the fawk with all these noobs. Been looking around and don't know anyone. Oh nice name thar Illa. Oh did I mention to go with my geek wear I have a fashionable inhaler now. Man the chicks are going to did me

[MBSowards]

I repped you assuming the positive feelings that came along with being repped would cause you to stay.

[RatherBeLifting]

crazy man, I hope everything turns out ok.

[SPACECLOWN]

[Drexx]

Oh did I mention to go with my geek wear I have a fashionable inhaler now. Man the chicks are going to did me

Shiiiiiiiit, I've had an inhaler since I was 8.. Nose spray too

Where you trainin' these days?

[WIULifter]

good to hear from ya man

[SPACECLOWN]

Okay much better song. Sing along whores!

[TinyMan]

Welcome back Space... not a lot to say, because there's not a lot I can say . The least I can say is good luck... so, good luck (wo)man.

[MBSowards]

Okay what the fawk with all these noobs. Been looking around and don't know anyone. Oh nice name thar Illa. Oh did I mention to go with my geek wear I have a fashionable inhaler now. Man the chicks are going to did me

That...is...hot.

[SPACECLOWN]

Shiiiiiiiit, I've had an inhaler since I was 8.. Nose spray too

Where you trainin' these days?

Hampton St. Louis Workout

[Drexx]

Hampton St. Louis Workout

Same place that had the Scivation demo?
Gave up on the Powahaus?

[_Smitty_]

OH, SH!T!

good to hear word from you, tim...

my thoughts are with you, man, i sincerely hope you target this and squash it... hope you'll poke in from time to time, too. at least to visit "home" and keep us updated.

you sexy, sexy bitch, you...

[yourname2221]

so weird, i was checking out MST stuff on bb.com today and they got those who use it and you were there and i was gonna write on your bodyspace. But wtf that would have been gay

[MattyH7688]

I missed you(yes very homosexual)

hopefully life gets better so i can see your sexy ass on here more again

[-KTA-]

wow, hopefully that all works out... Nice ass SC, but I think this place is plenty ghey. I got an offer yesterday to be in the runnings to jerk off on camera for 1900 dollars (serious)

Please note I thought this was just a modeling gig hahaha.

Hi Jake,

Glad to hear you might be interested. The projects my division recruits for is strictly solo work. In short, a solo film is just you (rubbing one off). The shoot pays $1900.00 plus your round trip flight to Sunny San Diego, 4 Star Hotel, Limo Service to/from the San Diego airport to your hotel, and we also reimburse up to $50.00 per day towards meals.

The website is a membership based site called seancody.com. As mentioned, I work for the solo division and the other work you?ll see isn?t what I recruit for. Around 80% of the guys I work with are straight and only do the solo films, yet your sexual preference isn?t important to me.

If you?re interested, I?ll need 8-10 pictures showing your face and physique to determine what you currently look like today. I can email you a guide that goes over the kind of shots I would need in order to get you approved for work.

Give me a call if you get a chance or leave me your number. I work Mon-Thurs 9-5 and Fri 9-3 off weekends, though today I'm leaving in about 20min or so. Were located on the West Coast, our time zone would be Pacific Standard Time. (619) 276-8000 ext 114. My AIM and Yahoo Chat: stevencodymedia

Take care,
Steven

So check out steven if you wanna crank it for the gheys.

[SPACECLOWN]

OH, SH!T!

good to hear word from you, tim...

my thoughts are with you, man, i sincerely hope you target this and squash it... hope you'll poke in from time to time, too. at least to visit "home" and keep us updated.

you sexy, sexy bitch, you...

PM me teh home.

so weird, i was checking out MST stuff on bb.com today and they got those who use it and you were there and i was gonna write on your bodyspace. But wtf that would have been gay

very gay. Speaking of I looked up and they still have the lawsuit going. Oh the thoughts that are going through my mind Watching a cool video reminiscing old times.

I missed you(yes very homosexual)

hopefully life gets better so i can see your sexy ass on here more again

Ah my lil ghey love doll. You still up for some DP?

[fitnfirm]

I love you LONG time

[ATHLETIC EDGE NUTRITION]

Sounds like you've been going though a very intense time, sorry to here that. Main thing is, you're alive, you're family is there for you and your wife is still by your side. You can only get stronger from going through times like this. Just keep plugging ok, clawing away and create some light at the end of the tunnel.

[nano.ix]

don't know ya ... but in for bum shex

[Country Mike]

So glad to hear from ya homie......If ya need "ANYTHING" I'm just a PM away

[sobelik]

Good seeing you back man! I took a hiatus from the forums as well...work keeps me insanely busy.

[SPACECLOWN]

I love you LONG time

You still haven't sent me those boobie pictures!

Sounds like you've been going though a very intense time, sorry to here that. Main thing is, you're alive, you're family is there for you and your wife is still by your side. You can only get stronger from going through times like this. Just keep plugging ok, clawing away and create some light at the end of the tunnel.

Seb you are one of the VERY few supp owners/companies worth a ****. I appreciate your kind words.

I have noticed with my health turning to **** and reflecting back on the amount of cash I have used on products that most of them out there are literally **** and ones that look good you never can tell wtf is ins them. I can tell you I will be very selective on anything I use or endorse. Here comes the honest ******* clown like never seen before. Oh but I have to go to bed first

[~~Aries~~]

I actually read all that cause I wanted to. I'm really sorry to hear about all those issues you've been dealing with. You have been in my thoughts periodically. I hope they find out what's causing all your health issues and it's nothing serious. That trip to the ER had to been really frightening. I'm sorry about the marital issues, but coming from someone on their second marriage I can relate. Good to know things are doing better. Every couple has their ups and downs and it takes a really strong and committed person to not give up and try to work it out. Glad to see you are doing that and I hope it continues that way. In 15 yrs people are bound to change and drift so it's important to tether yourselves together and bring that closeness back. Keep your chin up and your head held high and just keep doing what you need to bring order back to your life.

Nice ass homo Looks tighter than I thought it would.