I'm not sure if this is the right section, so forgive me for being a total newbie. I'm searched everywhere I could on Google, talked to as many people as I could and no one really seems to have an answer for me, so I figured that i'd give this forum a try.
Ever since I hit puberty. I was 130 lbs. I would eat nothing but deep-fried food, TV dinners, bags of potato chips, etc and everyone would tell me that they hate me because i'd never put on a pound. Well, when I turned 17, I got mono and dropped 10 lbs. . .so I was 120. After I got better, I noticed just how skinny I was, freaked out and started eating as much as I could without actually throwing up, despite a naturally low appetite and small stomach. Over the past two years, i've gotten very used to eating when i'm not hungry, since I only feel like eating about maybe once a day. People's comments about me being underweight would always really get to me, so i'd force myself to eat out of sheer depression and determination, basically. It's two years later and I currently weigh 140 lbs, but it's getting really exhausting and frustrating because there's nothing wrong with me; My mother and father were both very skinny people well into their 30s. . . i'm just genetically skinny, and I don't WANT to be 20 lbs underweight for the rest of my life; I want to start working out so that I don't have to feel like total crap when I take my shirt off. I want biceps and triceps, since I have stick-figure arms: 12" around, fully-flexed.
To maintain my weight, I need 2,000 calories a day, and to gain I need 2,500-3,000. The problem? I simply don't feel like eating more than maybe 1,500 a day, even if I eat the most fattening foods I can; I'm just not as interested in eating as other people seem to be. I do not smoke, I don't have diabetes or any other disease that I know of. I KNOW I need a lot of healthy fats, carbs, proteins, etc. I KNOW I need weight gain powder, etc. . .but I don't FEEL like eating unless I force myself to! After more than two years of this without making any real progress, i've become incredibly frustrated, because my stomach has definitely stretched, but i'm STILL not able to eat enough to keep up with my metabolism AND bulk up enough to seriously work out.
My questions: Has any other ectomorph who may be reading this ever struggled with a low appetite? Are there any SAFE, LEGAL and AFFORDABLE supplements I can take, or techniques I can use to get myself to want to eat 5 or 6 times a day?
I'm tired of being told "Just keep eating"; It'd be nice to be able to just concentrate on hitting the weights, and my progress with that rather than trying to force myself to take another bite of food.