Focusing all my attention on my diet!

[top_5_percent]

I am starting a new journal as I feel like I am in a new period of my life. On Tuesday I'm going to get my boobs done. I wont be able to workout hardcore for 6 weeks. This is really frightening. I don't know what on earth I will do with myself. I never take more than 2 days off in a row. Ever.

So I am going to focus all my attention on my diet during this period. Diet has always been my biggest downfall. I have struggled with binge eating for as long as I can remember and it has ruined my progress. Every day I don't binge is a relief for me. Over the past 3 weeks though I feel more in control. Alot more in control. I think I find alot of my happiness in food. I have to find other places to find it.... not really sure where haha.

Anyway I will be having 2 and a half weeks off work. YAY! So excited about that but I think i will be bored ****less.

Anyway i can't wait to see the results. I will have my final hardcore workout tomoz.... I think I may just have to do cardio. I don't really want to work chest or anything if I am getting operated on and my legs are killing me from yesterday.

I really want to compete in figure next year..... so hopefully I can break my binge eating habit and stick to a perfect diet My goal is to lost another 5kg of fat.... I know I will be losing so muscle from me being unable to workout.... hmmm bugger oh well it will probably remotivate me. I think I will be itching to get back into the gym

Anyway diet today was;
1/2 c oats with 1 scoop whey protein
Tuna salad
1 orange with 3/4 c cottage cheese
Chicken and veggie dish

Usually I would eat more than this but yesterday I had a MASSIVE binge and god i still feel guilty now!

I did cardio and biceps today

[nextsuperhero]

Hey girl, binging can totally be overcome. Figure out what's in your life that's making you feel down & change it. Sometimes it could even be something as major as your life path, or even your physical surroundings. Get a therapist if you can't pinpoint your problem.

Good luck & enjoy your new boobies!

[twinnett]

I hope you don't get offended, but focusing solely on diet/exercise and having the "perfect" diet is probably a huge reason for your binges!

You're right in needing to find another outlet for your time and energy, but I don't think focusing on having a perfect diet is going to do it for you. I was going through some binge problems too and I found that things improved once I stopped focusing on having to do everything "perfect" and having this black and white thinking..either "perfect" or bingeing.

Use this time to get involved in other activities, go out with friends, etc. At 5' 11, you're at a pretty healthy weight!

[top_5_percent]

OK, I am 2 days post op after my breast augmentation. When they say it feels like an elephant is sitting on your chest they mean it! I have barely been able to move around the house at all. I have to sleep elevated but I must say I have never slept better in my life. I have been a severe chronic insomniac my whole life and suddenly I am sleeping. It is amazing!!!! I know its obviously the pain killers and the muscle relaxant and the fact that my body has just gone under alot of stress.

Anyway the terrible news. I jumped on the scales today to find that I am 6kg heavier than before the op! Good god I hope I am retaining alot of water. I do feel bloated, fat and disgusting and I did binge last night on a massive amount of food.... why...? Prob because I felt like **** and food always makes me feel good anyway Im trying not to dwell on the fact that I binged yesterday. Today i have controlled my eating greatly. I am barely able to move around the house at all. This is a big difference for me. Usually I am so active with work and the gym. I dont like being sedentary at all. I can't wait until I can atleast go for a walk. I'm assuming it will be about a week.

The actual surgery the surgeon said went really well. All the nurses and staff were so kind to me. I still have the drain tubes in until tomoz night. Can't wait to get them out

But omg the last thing I want is to be fat with big boobs. I would rather be skinny with no boobs. I can't wait until my water retention starts going down and I can pull a dress over my head and put a belt around my waist and look at my new body. Hopefully I will like it.

Anyway I will spend some time on goal setting whilst I have this time off work and have nothing better to do than sit on my butt all day!