Wedding Ready

[bucketsh2o]

So I have three months until my wedding, and although I am not in horrible shape, I would very much like to be in kick butt shape, to have all our friends and relatives envy the body I am working so hard to obtain! This is also a jumpstart for me, and although it has gone pretty well up unitl now. I find myself a little unmotivated this week, and falling off the wagon. I was a competitive elite swimmer all through college, and my first two years in college battled with an eating disorder. I believe I am still batteling through that, as my relationship with food is pretty screwed up! I am someone who is fortunate enough to be very athletic, and able to build muscle relatively easily, I enjoy most exercise, and have no problem in that area, my area is my diet, and that is what is going to get me to where I would like to be. However, I have come to the conclusion that I am an emotional eater, and would very much like to get that under control not only to obtain my goal for my wedding, but get my life back. It is very much like being a prisoner to food, whether my day is going to be good or bad depends on if I am restricting my foods, I am a happier person when I look good and am eating right, but also find myself caving to those bad food habits because I feel like I deserve it. The reality is no one deserves to put themselves through this journey, and if I can face my reality, get back on track and deal with what I am going through I would very much like to help others, because I know I am not alone, and I know that many others who were elite athletes in school or a couple years ago, have to deal with a huge transistion that can be overwhelming and very frustrating! So here it goes, my attempt to get back on and see how this week goes, I suppose that is how I should look at it, one week at a time

[Jessica29]

hey! Congrats on your wedding..those three months will go right past your eyes. My brother just got married and we had a great time! I understand your ED because I have suffered as well and although I do not have it anymore, I still find my self obsessing sometimes and it drives me crazy!! Anyways good luck, you can do it! I'll be following along

[AshDancer]

Congrats on your upcoming wedding!! Planning can be soooo stressful! You are already looking good, so being a knockout for the wedding in 12 weeks should be no problem! I look forward to following along on the countdown to the big day

[girl22]

hi girl, just wanted to say hello and congratulate you on the coming up wedding!!!!!! That is very exciting ...... you still have enough time to totally get the body you want!!!!!

[TauruSmith]

Congrats on your upcoming wedding! Definitely will follow your journey

[vanillabn]

Congrats on your wedding!! I'm getting married in 3 months too, so it'll be awesome to have someone in the same situation to follow along with!!

[twinnett]

Congrats on the wedding!! Enjoy it...it passes so quickly!! I love your avi pic..I have a black lab too, as you can see in my avi!