Thanks everyone. The hardest part is what my wife is going through. She is a recent stage 3b cancer survivor and she is really taking this hard. We're all standing around crying yesterday and my mother-in-law starts bitching that her leg hurts and no one cares. Man that was something.
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10-25-2011, 06:03 AM #4382
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10-25-2011, 09:58 PM #4387
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Hung out with some friends tonight playing Forza and some other games on Xbox. They were drinking again... of course
One of them talked to me for like half an hour and pretty much praised what I was doing and said he wished he could do it... I think he's getting burnt out*Chefbrah Crew*
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10-26-2011, 04:24 AM #4388
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Its nice to see so many new faces in here
It only proves to me and others that WE are not alone.
Its sad to hear of struggles that we must face in our life.
But on the other hand Its good that we share those struggles with each other, rather than bottle it up inside.
I've dealt with a few struggles in my recovery and something tells me Im gonna have to deal with a few more
No one ever promised me that I would be skipping down the road to happy destiny.
But I have learned how to not get loaded over life.
not to say Im cured, just that I know what steps to take.
I used to think that Drugs and Alcohol was the do all, be all answer to everything.
But when I think about it now, What was the question?
Hope you all have a blessed day and share a smile with someone.
steveNothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude. – Thomas Jefferson
Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken. - Oscar Wilde
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10-26-2011, 10:04 AM #4389
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10-27-2011, 06:14 AM #4391
11 days in brahs
last weekend was tough, no desire to drink just a lot of opportunieties, looking forward to getting through this weekend
i described the rush i get on friday afternoons to my dr. n she said it was a rush of endorphines from being used to drinking on the weekends
said there was a med out there that blocks this feeling
any experience with this brahs?***molec crew***
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10-27-2011, 07:20 AM #4392
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10-27-2011, 08:52 AM #4393
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[QUOTE=slyguy354;772416933]11 days in brahs
Congrats on 11 days. It only gets better. The program is incredible and I'm living proof of that. I have a 14 year relationship that is ending and when I was using, I would have joined in on the recriminations and fights. Now I stand back and use the skills that the program has taught me. I have real emotions as opposed to reactions, and I own those emotions. Keep coming back.I've had enough cheese; now get me out of this trap.
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10-28-2011, 06:26 AM #4397
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I was wondering where you were and if you were alright.I have God,the people in this thread,and the big book on my mind every day.If any part of that goes missing,so does part of my recovery process.Stay strong brother.Life will work its way out if we stay clean, sober and united.Thanks for being part of my recovery.That goes for all here.I'm not counting my sober time right now,just going one day at a time and living my life according to the words in the serenity prayer.A group of strangers has been brought together because of something that tried to destroy their lives. Now we think about,care and support one another regardless of our past,gender or ethnic backgrounds.Don't tell me there's no higher power.Thanks for helping me clear my mind and move in the right direction.You know I wonder how many people out there just need someone to tell them it's o.k. to be clean and sober.That life goes on without that crutch.I say that because a lot of my friends and co-workers who drink/use look at me with understanding and a kind of respect when my sobriety comes up.I always assumed that they would give me a hard time about it.One even opened up when he saw me reading the big book in my truck one day and said he needed help.We spoke every day before that and never knew we both felt trapped and powerless.Anyway,I wish you all a happy/sober weekend.I know now that sobriety is the only way.I'm happier even when life gets rough and better prepared to handle things.Thanks again and bless all here through whatever higher power you believe in.Twineagles,thanks for showin up bud.
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10-28-2011, 07:10 AM #4398
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Sleepless night. My ex-husband, in a fit of resentment, brought up something from my past....something I am ashamed about.....something very, very painful....something that happened 8 frigging years ago when I was in bad shape. The accusation, which, by the way, is sheer speculation, is about motherhood. You want to hurt me.....go there.....cuts like a knife. He knew exactly what he was doing, and I indeed went into an emotional tailspin. I have forgiven myself, for the most part, but apparently he hasn't. Part of me buys into his shame. I need to give it back to him, but it's a process.
I am blown away today, but indeed sober. No one every promised me all days would be happy, joyous and free.
Thanks for letting me share my sorrow .
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10-28-2011, 08:36 AM #4399
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I'm sorry to hear this,but glad to hear your sober.We try so hard to move forward and let go of the negative and painful parts of our past,I only wish we could forgive and forget at the same time.I pray that things work out for you and sincerely hope that you are o.k.Keep your head up and share all you want.That's why were here.
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10-28-2011, 09:13 AM #4400
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10-29-2011, 07:10 AM #4406
We all have those buttons but unlike most others, you I'm sure have done your best to repair whatever damage you think you may have cause. Plus we know how to take pen to paper right !!!!! Haha.
You are a helpful inspiration to us all here. What could be better than helping others change their lives ? You have many more strengths than weaknesses. New day today !!!!!!!
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10-29-2011, 12:04 PM #4407
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Thanks for your support! I have managed to let go of the negativity and focus on who I am today. I think I have more than redeemed myself in my own eyes and the eyes of my children.
My ex apologized and told me that I am a good person, good mother and good friend and that he is working on letting things go. I know a good deal of his bitterness comes from me asking for the divorce, him CHOOSING to sign a quit claim deed for our marital home, and me moving on to a new relationship soon afterwards. Since the divorce, the quality of my life has continually improved, while his has spiraled deeper into dysfunction, financial problems, and general unhappiness. I know all this is painful, and he is resentful. His anger is probably more self directed, and he doesn't even know it. All I want is to see him happy......
Again, thanks for your support.
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10-29-2011, 08:20 PM #4408
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10-29-2011, 08:22 PM #4409
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The past is history.
Tomorrows a mystery.
Today is a gift, Thats why we call it the presentNothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude. – Thomas Jefferson
Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken. - Oscar Wilde
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