Now she asks me if I can see a future between us. This is where I would bitch slap my self hard given the opportunity. Hard. This girl is one I had wanted so bad for so long. Never have I felt like this with another girl. Sure me and the previous girlfriend had a lot of special stuff, but this girl made me feel an amazing feeling. So my answer to the question "Well, I just got out of a year long relationship." Wow. I guess my initial reaction was to go back to my player days. Yes, the answer was the wrong one.
She didn't say anything about it. But I know that's where I ****ed up. She left not too long after that (she had to anyway) and I thought I was going to have to wait until the following weekend to see her.
The next night she came over to hang out for like 20 minutes.. but that was the last I saw her for months. She moved. I've seen her a few times since then and one time I almost screwed her but we got cockblocked. Not a lot of action at all. Once she said she could "easily have those same feelings again". I think she was just playing with my feelings then the way she thought I did with hers.
After the big weekend I developed some really bad oneitis for her. It's worthy to note I think other factors in my life were depressing me.. and the love situation was something secure I could count on. Then when I let go of the girlfriend for the girl I really had these huge feelings for... this girl lets me go because of what I said. I assume it's due to her seeing I probably just used her, and was just a player still like I was before. Writing this insanely huge ass post brings up those past feelings slightly, as I've yet to find those feelings again. I'm fine though.
The odd thing is that I've been with plenty of girls since then, but I still want that one. Oh well.
Cliffs:
-I had a girlfriend, and took a break.
-I met another girl during this break and got close.
-Me and the girlfriend got back together, and I lost contact with the other- due to losing her number (didn't put that in the story.. I forgot that detail).
- ~6 months later I add a hot girl on myspace, not knowing who she is.
-It is the girl I met during the break.
-We start messaging for like a day.
-The next day I am outside working on my tan and there she is, living in my apartment complex.
-We hang out, and have a great time.
-My girlfriend gets pissed.
-Over the span of a month me and the other girl are texting but eventually must stop so I can keep my relationship with the girl I think is the one.
-Several months go by and I keep getting reminded of the other girl because I keep hoping to see her outside. My feelings grow for her, and I miss her.
-We see each other again and she texts me.
-We start texting again keeping it secret, and she tells me she misses me.
-We decide to hang out, after midnight, at my apt. I tell her I don't want anything to happen between us more than friends.
-Over the course of the night my feelings for her grow a **** load. They were already nearly overwhelming, but I was holding them back.
-We hung out outside for a while and it was really cold and I kept her warm.
-Back inside we cuddled under a blanket on my couch holding hands.
-After we laid down together, it was only a matter of time.
-We start making out on "accident". It seriously just happened. It was a feeling I have never felt before, or after.
-The next day we hang out again and fool around, but not screw cause I still am with the girlfriend.
-I break up with my girlfriend, it's emotional.
-The girl feels horrible, but I comfort her and we start making out again and fooling around.
-Then we stop (she had to leave soon) and have a serious discussion about us.
-She asks if I see a future between us, and my dumbass reply is "I just got out of a year long relationship."
-She thinks I just want to be a player, I'm assuming, and the next night (for 20 minutes or so) was the last I saw her for months.
-We have seen each other a few times since, almost screwed once then got cockblocked (just a knock on the door.. nothing big worth talking about).
-Developed oneitis for this girl pretty bad.
-Nothing else happened between us (except once she did say she could easily see herself feeling the way she did before... which did not happen. I think she was trying to play with my feelings the way I did her, unintentionally).
-Epic Fail
Cliffs of cliffs:
-Yo dawg I heard you liked to read so we put cliffs in yo cliffs so you could summarize while you summarize.
-Epic Fail. For me at least.
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