So, I spent a this sunday by cancelling all my plans and having sex with my gf for basically the whole day. She knows I have mental problems with indadequacy -- I'm a perfectionist to a degree it's almost a problem. I need to be the best.
Well, anyway, I was basking in the glow of being told how great I was in bed and all that good stuff, when my gf mentionned again about how she was thinking about a boob job. Of course, I told her her tits were fine -- they are. But I took this as a good opportunity to come clean with my OWN feelings of physical inadequacy and tell her about my PE'ing.
After all, I thought she should know what I've been thinking, since I never really felt small untill I was with her (I'm about 6.75 NBP, and 7.0 BP). She's this very petite 19 year old white girl (I'm white too) and she's been with four guys before me, and they've all been black. She made a comment once like: "Oh... black guys are just bigger," which made me know for sure that she's had substancially bigger than me, and also made me a bit uncomfortable about the race thing. There have been other comments of that ilk, and I don't really blame her for them, and she's not trying to be hurtful, but given my personality striving for perfection, it's made me dive head first into PE to try and get that hefty cock.
So I'm lying with her in bed, and I start to tell her about PE. She was supportive of it, and just needed some reasuring that I wasn't doing this to please other women than her, becasue she's always told me I was enough. I told her "No," and that this is something that I need to do for myself to feel better about HER past.
I have always suspected that the guy in her past with the huge schlong was her latest ex, because he was kinda ugly to be with a girl like her (not that ug's can't pull fine women if they have good game) and I always thought that perhaps he was compensating for his looks with a massive package. I made a reference to her latest ex as being the hung one, and she corrected me, and told me it was the one she lost her virginity to at 16. That guy she ended up having a pretty reasonable length relationship with (the guy was 20 by the way).
I made some remark about not caring about how big he was, just that regardless of even if he had a FOOT long cock, I just wanted some more size just so that I would be happy with MYSELF, and that PERSONALLY, I would never have to feel small -- that it didn't have to do with how big he actually was. I told her that I wasn't sure if I even wanted to know. But then she told me. She said -- "He IS a foot long."
In my mind I was like: "......fuuuuuuuuck......"
I called her out, and told her there was no way. That sometimes 8" or 9" can be mistaken for a foot. But either way, it's bothersome to me that some 20 year old guy with a "foot long" cock, took my current girl at 16. It may have been concentual, but it's still rape.
Whatever. I guess there's nothing I can really do about the past. And I do know that she thinks I'm great in bed still -- we had some more fun even after this conversation. But in all seriousness, I really need to gain an inch or two and get huge. My personality simply does not permit otherwise.
Some questions though guys... what is the actually probability that a guy is naturally 12"? 1 in 5,000? How about 10"?
Time to get huge.