I tried making this post yesterday but it got removed for some reason but I finally have the nerve to share my story. I am 6 foot 2, 18 year old male, who currently weighs 130 pounds. When I was in elementary school, I was incredibly active and did tons of sports but was basically a twig. Everyone told me how skinny I was and how I needed to put some meat on my bones. During high school, i remained quite active with sports and what not till about grade 10. The one problem is I was always a terrible eater. Throughout my childhood, all i ever ate was junk food yet I still remained super skinny. I consumed so much bad food on a daily basis that it was not funny. I started to put on weight in grade 11 at age 16 when the sports stopped so I weighed 180 at 5 11. Everyone kept telling me I was super skinny still as I looked that way from the outside but I had no muscle and just a lot of fat. I began to get hungry all the time and stuffed myself with bad food until I was 6 foot 1 and 210 pounds getting no exercise. I realized I needed to change so I started a diet and ran every day for an hour. I went down to 150 pounds this past April and it was pretty drastic as I became compulsive in terms of running every day and not eating any junk whatsoever. But I went through binging and purging as well. Anyways, at 150 pounds, I felt skinny fat with a skinny frame and lots of fat but no muscle so I increased cardio to an hour and a half every day and cut more food out till all I was eating was one meal and sometimes it was a box of crackers that I would binge on and then I would not eat for the next couple of days. So here I am at 6 foot 2, 18 years of age and 130 pounds. I want to build muscle so I have now running an hour and 20 minutes one day and lifting weights the other. I saw a person about an eating disorder which i might have. Parents say I might be anorexic also as I am always cold and my energy levels are really low. I am on a really strict diet but am trying to consume lots of protein. Nutritionist says I shouldn't exercise at all because I might risk my heart failing or something but I want to stay active and get bigger. I would appreciate all possible advice or skinny fat success stories. Be completely honest and don't hold back anything as this is a really tough time for me so I appreciate any words of wisdom on what I should be doing here. I feel really self conscious about my body and I feel my belly probably about 20 times a day to make sure I don't gain any more belly fat as I feel I have too much. If you could look at these pics (sorry for the bad quality) and assess what you think my body fat percentage is (I think it is dangerously high) and also tell me what I should do. What kind of weight training and cardio do I require. Heavy weights with low reps is what I hear works best. I want to know mainly what you guys think of my skinny fat body and how it can be fixed.
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12-05-2012, 12:09 PM #1
Eating Disorder but want to exercise still
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12-05-2012, 12:44 PM #2
You see something way different than others see. You are definitely anorexic and you're putting your life at risk with your condition, especially running over an hour everyday. DO NOT run like that anymore, you will literally drop dead id you keep that up. Food is GOOD brah, it helps your body, it doesn't make you fat.
Watch Pete's inspirational video, he was in a VERY similar situation as you it seems:
youtube.com/watch?v=XvILb8psZpM
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12-05-2012, 12:48 PM #3
This, and everything else in this post is very worrying.
There is nothing that will benefit you more right now than going to a psychiatrist that specializes in eating disorders, and also urgent medical care at a hospital.
Please get professional help from a psychiatrist and a hospital as soon as possible. You are literally putting your own life at risk right now.
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12-05-2012, 01:02 PM #4
hey bud
your post is really worrying and if you are at a college or university i'd encourage you to seek help through their counseling system, the only thing you should be worrying about is getting stronger and healthier as you are dangerously underweight and emaciated right now. go look at some of the logs in here and look at how much better guys look and feel after they start eating properly and getting stronger. best of luck, post in the ED support thread if you have more questionsJohns Hopkins '16
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12-05-2012, 01:06 PM #5
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12-05-2012, 01:41 PM #9
I'm not crying, this kid is obviously experiencing extreme body dysmorphia and being a massive d ick to him isn't doing him any good and just makes you look like you don't know what you're talking about, which unless you have experienced a similar ED or BDD (I have, both of them) you don't
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12-05-2012, 01:43 PM #10
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12-05-2012, 01:47 PM #11
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This thread is too serious for nonsense.
The OP has a serious medical condition; one that could be life threatening if not treated.
OP: When you look in the mirror, you see excessive body fat. But that's not true. How you perceive what you see is a symptom of your disease. What is true is that you have acutely deficient levels of body fat and of lean body mass.
You need to seek treatment and you need to do it immediately. You're young and can have a wonderful, healthy life if you take the steps necessary to recover from your disorder. Be courageous and do the right thing. Make an appointment immediately to meet with a psychiatrist that specializes in eating disorders.
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12-05-2012, 01:57 PM #12
I've to say. I'm really happy with my LBM gains after my bulk and I'll look solid after my cut. Gaining LBM is definitely easy, so is cutting fat. It's all pretty easy actually.
Has to be them noobie gains. But still, OP, you can manipulate your body so easily, stop stressing brah, just chill out and be smart about it.
Step 1:
Build a frame
Step 2:
Sculpt the frame (strip the fat)
You skipped step 1 brah.... OP. So get to it. Think long-term, you're young. And enjoy yourself no matter what you look like, just know you're working at improving yourself and that's a good thing.
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12-05-2012, 02:00 PM #13
Moore's starting reps: 3607
Seriously though brah... You're in the wrong on this one. It's not going to be as simple as "just eat" and there isn't much advice we can give that is going to make sense. The OP needs professional help with a specialist. As WonderPug said the OP's condition could be life threatening.
To the OP: You are sick, but there is a cure. You have already taken the first step, which is to come here and share your story and your photos with us. That's incredibly courageous! The second step, as previously posted, is to make an appointment with a specialist immediately.US Coast Guard ~ SEMPER PARATUS
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12-05-2012, 02:08 PM #14
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12-05-2012, 02:08 PM #15
Well he's probably obsessive about the tiny tiny tiny amount of fat (the CRITICAL amount of fat that any human being NEEDS to survive, btw, if you're reading this OP) he does have and is blowing it out of proportion. Which is understandable, people tend to blow things out of proportion a lot.
For instance, someone pressured by their parents to do well in school may start freaking out when getting a B or C instead of an A. When it's really not bad.
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12-05-2012, 02:11 PM #16
Don't rage. He needs support. To be honest he needs the support of the other people on this board that have suffered from an eating disorder. I don't think you understand what it is. I can't say that I fully comprehend what having one is like, but I've lurked in the eating disorder thread.
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12-05-2012, 02:11 PM #17
Exactly what happens with these kinds of disorders. Do you think a rationally thinking person would look at that body and see high BF?
OP: Please get professional help, very few people here know what you are going through, I know I don't. You need to see a specialist who can relate.R.I.P urukhai29, sentinel3, AncientYouth.
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12-05-2012, 02:12 PM #18
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12-05-2012, 02:13 PM #19
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It's pretty difficult to understand if you have never experienced this before. Tough love is NOT the answer here. If you do not have any experience with eating disorders and know nothing about the psychology of them (which is clearly the case), you're the last person who should be offering advice. Common sense should tell you that. It's considered a disease for a reason.
I had / have BDD too...I saw myself as fat and ugly when I was skinny. I was so used to thinking of myself that way that I literally saw that in the mirror. All I could see was the excess fat on my body. Thought people were being nice when they commented on how thin I was or crazy when they warned I was getting too skinny. You can not fully understand unless it has happened to you.
I love you Moore...but you're wrong. srs
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12-05-2012, 02:14 PM #20
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12-05-2012, 02:21 PM #23
cognitive neuroscience major here at the best pre med school in the country
I can confirm that his brain does not fire differently but rather his psyche perceives things differently than someone without an eating disorder or body dismorphia. He can obviously create rational thought because he strung together his original post.
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thanks for deleting mooreLast edited by texicus; 12-05-2012 at 02:29 PM.
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12-05-2012, 02:22 PM #24
Bro first of all phuck what everyone says about you man. Don't listen to those fukin **** heads that make fun of you for being too skinny or fat. They can go fuk themselves. That being said...
....you need to start eating man. Just start off with pasta, chicken, potatoes, hamburger, anything to get your weight where it needs to be. Anything with high amounts of calories or carbs but keep it healthy. You need to stop running at that weight before you pass out on the street one day and seriously hurt yourself. I wouldn't worry about lifting any weights at all until you have your diet under control and your weight up at least 20 lbs. Just eat bro that's all you have to tell yourself for now and don't listen to any fukin ******* that tries to put you down.
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12-05-2012, 02:26 PM #25
It's pretty obvious that anorexia is a mental illness too, being extremely harsh isn't just going to just make him snap out of it. Anorexia is an extreme form of anxiety and what you're saying could make his situation worse and put him into a deeper state of anxiety.
You clearly don't think with logic and reason.
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12-05-2012, 02:27 PM #26
I'm deleting all of my posts, not because I think I'm wrong, but I'm just wasting my time with something that has very little or nothing to do with my life.
I will leave this however. Perhaps you should try to look at your body in shapes instead of how fat you are. Look at your rib cage, how big your hands are in comparison to your arms, how squared off your shoulders are, etc. Then look at someone with a lot of meat on their bones. Note the differences and make it your goal to achieve that.
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12-05-2012, 02:29 PM #27
I'd say it's about time to bulk...
On a serious note, chances are you are doing permanent damage to your brain, heart, HPTA etc. You could end up on hormone treatments for life. There are easier and healthier ways to control your weight. You could probably still get out of that situation with no permanent damage if you take action. You will find that it wont be as easy to gain weight as you thought it would.
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12-05-2012, 02:29 PM #28
I disagree, picking up a few weights while giving his body the nutrition it needs to recover and gain weight won't hurt. Maybe do it under supervision/ with guidance of a professional to make sure you don't overdo it and your heart can handle it. Slowly build upto it. He needs to gain quality mass, not just fat, because that's not what he wants. If he doesn't mind, then ok. But I think he'd feel better adding quality LBM.
Agreed, when you're starving, your body starts using your brain, heart, organs etc. as fuel..... That's not what you want OP.
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