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Confused on what to do (long)
Well I've known this girl Lesley for a good 4 years. She was my friend that turned into something more. I met her through my friend Jake who was dating her at the time. But then they broke up and he was seeing another girl. Jake looked so in love that I figured why would he care if I mess with Lesley. Well we all start hanging alot. Me, Lesley, Jake, and his gf Susan...It was a nice group and we seemed to have fun together. I wasn't dating Lesley, we were just starting to realize the we liked each other more than friends and were about to take it to the next level.
Then this one girl, Julie hangs out with us one night. She calls me the next day asking to hang out and if i want a BJ lol. I'm like nah I like Lesley and I'm pretty happy. After this I call Jake and tell him what she said cause I thought it was funny. Well then he tells Lesley that he thinks I like Julie. And through another a friend I find out other lies hes telling her seemly for her to hate me.
So now Lesley is really distant from me because she believes Jakes BS. They all start hanging out without me (Jake, Susan and Lesley). I email Lesley telling her how I think Jake is making up lies about me and how I think hes going after her. Later on she says she never got that email but I wonder. So now I feel like such ****. The girl I've grown to love dont trust me cause of some BS Jake tells her.
A little time goes by and I hear Susan is pregnant and needs to get an abortion. Her dad lives in Ohio (we're in Cali) so she has to go there to get her dad to pay for it or something like that. Anyways while she is there in Ohio I start hearing from my friend that Jake and Lesley are starting to look like a couple since my friend was hanging out with them. I blow it off like no way, Jake loves Susan and wouldn't do that to her. Well boy was I wrong. I then hear how he calls Susan in Ohio and tells them they are done. So now Jake and Lesley are a couple. I feel bad about it but I take it like a man and accept it and try to move on. I don't get mad at either of them. All three of us start hanging out and they play a trick on me which I later find out was Jakes idea. Jake says they are getting married. They wanted to see how Id react.
I was gullible and didn't really do much. However I did tell my roommate about how it was messed up and we were both dissin them. Well that stupid roommate tells Jake how I was saying all that stuff. Doesnt even mention she said the exact same ****. So I look like the bad mouther. So this sets Jake off. He calls me cussin me out then hanging up. Wouldnt even let me say anything. So im like ok ill just stay away from him. So I come home from work one day and there is my 2 roommates, Jake, and Lesley sitting at the table playing cards. First thing Jake says to me is, say one word and im going to cut you, shows me his knife. I don't say anything and go into the other room and get my switchblade just in case I need to use it to defend myself. I go to the fridge to get soemthing to eat and I ask my roommate if he knows where some ziplock bags are and Jake blurts out something vulgar like "not for you *******." So I say what is your problem man. He says some stuff and i say something back and he pulls out his knife and comes towards me is like what are you going to do now. I pull out my knife and he rushes. We fight a little and it gets broken up by roommate who tells him he needs to leave. Well he leaves and as he does this, he keys my car. He keys all of the front and the sides. So i call the cops and this stupid cop is tellin me how it would be my word verse his in court. And i talk to my parents and they are like the best thing is just to cut off contact with him and forget bout it. So thats what I do.
He even msgs me tormenting me online. So a year goes by and Lesley calls me how Jake is blackmailing her and she really wants out of the relationship and she doesn't know what to do. So I go meet up with her and we end up kissing and cuddling on the beach. As I'm driving her home she says how we should go out and caught up in the moment I agree. Shes saying how she doesnt really like Jake and that he keeps threatening suicide if she leaves him. I tell her you got to get away from this guy and shes like yeah I'm going end it. So the next day she calls and shes like "I cant be with you" and I ask why and she says its complicated. So i say you got back with Jake and shes crying and says yes. I then get an email how she'll explain everythign when she calls me. Well she called but I wasnt around my cell so I missed the call. 2 months go by and she tells my friend how shes sorry she wasnt really able to explain to me what happened and mentions how she is movin out of the state.
Well this scares me cause I want to see her again so one night while im on the influence of an illegal substance I call Jake and apologize bout going after Lesley since it was his ex and i said how i thought he really liked Susan and wouldnt mind if i got with Lesley. I did this just so I could at least hang out and see Lesley since I thought she was moving out of the state in a year. So he accepts this apology even though he shoulda apologized but we end up hanging out chillen and the night was pretty good. Then Lesley msgs me online and asks why i apologized and I told her how I heard she was moving out of the state. Well turns out she just said she wanted to move out of the state but wasnt really. We talked alot and caught up on stuff. She told me how she loved me and wanted to be with me but Jake kept threatening suicide and she didnt want to feel guilty if something happened to him. She says shes going to try and end it soon because she just cant take it anymore and she really wants to be with me. I tell her how I'm movin to another city for college soon and how it was a hard choice for me to make. She sounded really sincere in how we should talk again and that she thinks about me all the time.
Anyways part of me wants to stay in the city and wait for this girl to break up with Jake cause I really feel a bond with her and I've never been happier than I was with her. However another part of me is telling me this girl is trouble and I should not get involved with her. I know it sounds like I'm desperate but I just love this girl so much. What should I do? Sorry this was so long but I had to get it out. God I wish I could be with her but alas I feel everyone is going to tell me "your ****ing crazy, get away from her!" I guess when your in love you think a whole lot differently. Any insight would be great.
Last edited by Raid192; 08-01-2006 at 01:12 PM.
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