This is just a rant...

[Dalamara]

But I'm so ****ing discouraged and ****ing pissed off right now.

I know, I'm drunk, and the rest of this is going to seem pretty petty to the majority of you, but I have to get it out before I ****ing explode.

So, right now, 2 of my 3 roommates have really ****ing hot girls in their rooms, and I'm left here alone wondering what the **** is wrong that I've been alone these last ****ing months.

The rational part of my brain realizes that, girls come and go, and that it's not because of my character or who I am that I've hit a dry spell these past months.

But still, don't I work so much ****ing harder to achieve this body then them? Don't I ****ing work so much harder to achieve everything else in life? And yet they have these perfect ****ing girls just land in their ****ing laps.

Yes, I know, it's not that simple and they've all suffered just like me, but listening to them right now it is driving me ****ING INSANE.

Life's not fair. Get over it. I know. ****ing A I just had to write this before I destroyed something.

****. ****. FUUUUUUUCK!!! What the ****. Why do I have to be an Asian guy growing up in the ****ing Midwest. Why do all the white girls have an aversion to ****ing Asian guy. Why is the ****ing asian population here 2.5%. Why the **** aren't any other races attracted to ****ing asian guys. I'm just at a ****ing loss right now. I don't know what more I can do. I mean ****ing hell, I've put on 45 pounds of muscle, I'm dressing nicer, I've read up on all that ****, but **** it's all bull**** when 9/10 girls in the surrounding area have NEVER INTERACTED WITH AN ASIAN MAN BEFORE AND THEY BUY INTO ALL THE GODDAMNED STEREOTYPES PERPETUATED BY THE MEDIA!!!

****!!!

I AM SO. ****ING. SICK. OF. THIS. BULL****.

And to top it all off, all the cute asian girls who are used to being around asian guys and don't automatically assume that all we're good for is ****ing calculations are taken by white guys! I mean ****.

Sorry, I may seem like a whiney little bitch, but until you've experienced what it's like to be an Asian man in Missouri... then... FUCCCCCKPKKKKKK I AM SO ****ING PISSED.

/endrant

God this is going to be embarassing to read in the morning but I don't care right now.

[striker543]

who needs girls when you have the misc. section.

[xDevianTx]

remember that.

wait till ur buds find out they have headcases or something, the grass isnt always greener, it just seems that way.

Not so bad being asian, your drunk, your mad, U MAD?,j/k **** happens chalk it up and get out and try to meet some girls. dont focus on it too much, do what your doing at just keep working at it bro, chicks are fun sure and good company at times, but once you have one you might end up having more problems like if shes a clingy bitch or headcase etc... everything comes with a cost, and sure we all LOVE pussy, but dont put the pussy on a pedestal, ur pretty damn ripped(no homo), work on ur game etc... keep at it!

dont let your being asian mind **** yourself, get that **** out of your head.

[Dalamara]

Originally Posted by striker543

who needs girls when you have the misc. section.

Amen to that.

Christ sometimes I just want to say **** it all and give up. But I guess everyone goes through those times. Oh well, I'll just suck it up and keep going.

[a_new_g]

Originally Posted by striker543

who needs girls when you have the misc. section.

lol

[Dalamara]

Originally Posted by dwilson3k

remember that.

wait till ur buds find out they have headcases or something, the grass isnt always greener, it just seems that way.

Not so bad being asian, your drunk, your mad, U MAD?,j/k **** happens chalk it up and get out and try to meet some girls. dont focus on it too much, do what your doing at just keep working at it bro, chicks are fun sure and good company at times, but once you have one you might end up having more problems like if shes a clingy bitch or headcase etc... everything comes with a cost, and sure we all LOVE pussy, but dont put the pussy on a pedestal, ur pretty damn ripped(no homo), work on ur game etc... keep at it!

dont let your being asian mind **** yourself, get that **** out of your head.

Yeah I think a lot of it has been just the past 21 years of crap. For 21 years really white girls have never paid any attention to me, and the only girlfriends I've ever had were Asian. So I guess that really teaches me that "only asian girls want you."

I've got to break out of that mentality. I find I don't even really try around girls of other races anymore because of that mentality that I'll automatically get shot down. That's probably my biggest problem right now, I just don't try because I have failure in my head.

Thanks man.

[Dalamara]

What really keeps me going everyday is Hope.

I guess when I get really drunk and stupid I lose sight of hope haha, I've sobered up a bit now and rememberd the reasons to be happy.

1) I'm only 21
2) I've almost reached my dream body
3) There's a whole host of new freshmen to meet
4) There is always hope

Just in a temporary moment of extreme stupidity and shortsightedness I lost sight of all that hope... and all that was left was anger, resentment, and depression.

You guys know what I'm talking about?

[the_mac_attack]

Hey mate

I know what you're talking about. Don't worry about ANYONE else. You gotta try and make yourself happy and feel complete, on your own. Having hot girls won't improve your quality of life, they should just be a bonus, you don't need them.

I used to feel the same way, but now I've realised that all I need to be happy is myself, and what I think of myself..

keep on truckin buddy

[Dalamara]

Originally Posted by the_mac_attack

Hey mate

I know what you're talking about. Don't worry about ANYONE else. You gotta try and make yourself happy and feel complete, on your own. Having hot girls won't improve your quality of life, they should just be a bonus, you don't need them.

I used to feel the same way, but now I've realised that all I need to be happy is myself, and what I think of myself..

keep on truckin buddy

Thanks man,

Yeah I actually wrote up a whole thread about how you should be happy with just yourself and no relationships... but sometimes, damn, it's just so hard to not get down on yourself. Especially when everyone around you is in a wonderful ****ing relationship, and you can't see what they have that you don't.

[the_mac_attack]

Originally Posted by Dalamara

Thanks man,

Yeah I actually wrote up a whole thread about how you should be happy with just yourself and no relationships... but sometimes, damn, it's just so hard to not get down on yourself. Especially when everyone around you is in a wonderful ****ing relationship, and you can't see what they have that you don't.

Yeah, exactly

I know alcoholics, losers, etc. that get more girls than me

Sometimes I wonder what the girls see in them. I'm not jealous, but I just wonder what makes them more attractive than me.

But I just keep on at it. Sure, if a girl comes along it would be nice, but I'm happy enough as I am now. Things can only get better I guess

[xDevianTx]

Off topic
That Virginia Tech shooting **** messed with my head, I felt bad for the kid, who happen to be asian that kid was crying out basically and was just left to his self and hate just grew within him, he musta had some really bad **** happen or really messed up in the head eg: depression or something.

he did express how he felt left out and society can be a bitch and judgemental, just wish that kid would have seen the light at the end of the tunnel, hell all ppl that are depressed or in a bad situation, things take time to work out, really sux that VT **** happen It affected so many ppl, hope its the last, live n learn.

But you seem alright just a lil drunk and mad, keep trucking bro, were all fam.

[DXX]

learn karate and become a cool bad ass asian like jackie chan. If it's that much of a problem move somewhere with more asians. You're 6'0" and 200. Analyse your personality and see what's holding you back, because it sure isn't your body.

[GermanBarbarian]

Originally Posted by Dalamara

Thanks man,

Yeah I actually wrote up a whole thread about how you should be happy with just yourself and no relationships... but sometimes, damn, it's just so hard to not get down on yourself. Especially when everyone around you is in a wonderful ****ing relationship, and you can't see what they have that you don't.

roughly 50% of marriages (aka 'permenant' relationships) end in divorce... your only seeing when they are together... imagine the break up. keep your head up

[Dalamara]

Thanks for the encouraging words guys... I feel fine now, god alcohol does some bad things to you.

[ApatoJay]

Originally Posted by Dalamara

Amen to that.

Christ sometimes I just want to say **** it all and give up. But I guess everyone goes through those times. Oh well, I'll just suck it up and keep going.

lol everyday just sayin

[pumpasaur]

chin up mate. im in a massive rut myself at the moment, the whole year has sucked. just tell yourself that there will be better times ahead. because without hope we're all ****ed lol

[dazzlepecs]

a few months is nothing

[dog20]

i'm white and white girls don't pay attention to me. maybe if i looked like they would want me.

[knappstaman]

Originally Posted by Dalamara

Amen to that.

Christ sometimes I just want to say **** it all and give up. But I guess everyone goes through those times. Oh well, I'll just suck it up and keep going.

yeah ive felt like that a lot lately.

[user89489489438943]

Originally Posted by Dalamara

But I'm so ****ing discouraged and ****ing pissed off right now.

I know, I'm drunk, and the rest of this is going to seem pretty petty to the majority of you, but I have to get it out before I ****ing explode.

So, right now, 2 of my 3 roommates have really ****ing hot girls in their rooms, and I'm left here alone wondering what the **** is wrong that I've been alone these last ****ing months.

The rational part of my brain realizes that, girls come and go, and that it's not because of my character or who I am that I've hit a dry spell these past months.

But still, don't I work so much ****ing harder to achieve this body then them? Don't I ****ing work so much harder to achieve everything else in life? And yet they have these perfect ****ing girls just land in their ****ing laps.

Yes, I know, it's not that simple and they've all suffered just like me, but listening to them right now it is driving me ****ING INSANE.

Life's not fair. Get over it. I know. ****ing A I just had to write this before I destroyed something.

****. ****. FUUUUUUUCK!!! What the ****. Why do I have to be an Asian guy growing up in the ****ing Midwest. Why do all the white girls have an aversion to ****ing Asian guy. Why is the ****ing asian population here 2.5%. Why the **** aren't any other races attracted to ****ing asian guys. I'm just at a ****ing loss right now. I don't know what more I can do. I mean ****ing hell, I've put on 45 pounds of muscle, I'm dressing nicer, I've read up on all that ****, but **** it's all bull**** when 9/10 girls in the surrounding area have NEVER INTERACTED WITH AN ASIAN MAN BEFORE AND THEY BUY INTO ALL THE GODDAMNED STEREOTYPES PERPETUATED BY THE MEDIA!!!

****!!!

I AM SO. ****ING. SICK. OF. THIS. BULL****.

And to top it all off, all the cute asian girls who are used to being around asian guys and don't automatically assume that all we're good for is ****ing calculations are taken by white guys! I mean ****.

Sorry, I may seem like a whiney little bitch, but until you've experienced what it's like to be an Asian man in Missouri... then... FUCCCCCKPKKKKKK I AM SO ****ING PISSED.

/endrant

God this is going to be embarassing to read in the morning but I don't care right now.

u mad?

jk.

on a serious note:

i know how it is dude.. i dont think ive ever seen an asian dude with a chick thats not asian. well maybe once or twice but itd be a married couple.

so ur at a major disadvantage cause there arent many asian chicks where you are.

my only advice to u is:

keep doing what ur doing, bring ur confidence up. the chicks will come to you

just be patiente.

gl.