Cravings? Cheating? You LOVE food?...

[Adam444]

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Today is Wednesday, August 17th, 2005. I cheated 5 times in the past 10 days. I consumed 20 days worth of calories in 10 days. I'm hungry. I eat, feel satisfied, then reality kicks in.
I hate being bloated. I've come so far, yet I give up to these small cravings. I dont know why, I wish I could control like I used to. Today, I woke up at 2am, ate 2 bowls of cereal, then a cake, then went to sleep. Woke up, went to the gym and did 2.5 hours of cardio. How retarded. 5 mins of eating and 2.5 hours of punishment. I was sick the rest of the day, not from eating but from flu. I didn't really eat anything except some nuts and chicken. Diet was going pretty good... until I came home. I wasn't hungry, but I wasn't full. I wanted to be full. I ate, and I ate. 2,000 calories later, I was "full". From 2AM until now, I consumed 5k calories. I sit and type this now, this is my way of saying "I'm sorry for what I did, I wish I hadn't ate so much" Why do I promote healthy eating to everyone I know but eat a lot of myself? What's wrong with me?

Will I fall like the others and be fat again? I have 10 pounds of water weight on me. I hate it. It's like taking 10 steps backwards. I hate all the skinny people that consume 5-6k calories a day and not gain an inch. I wish I could do that. Why not me? Why am I so hungry? Does my body think I'm starving?

Just today, after 2.5 hours of cardio, in the sauna room, I promised myself I wasn't going to cheat again. I let myself down. This is not acceptable. College will start soon, and I want to change. I hate this... I hate where this is going to... I'm going to stop it.

Maybe I will...

Maybe I will give up and fall like rest of the others.

I love food.

Maybe I was meant to be fat, what's wrong with doing what you LOVE doing? Eating makes me feel good. I love food.

Now, I'm sick, bloated, hate this feeling... tomorrow I get my classes, friday I'll go out with my friends one last time and say good-bye to them. Monday, college starts...

I will update this EVERYDAY, no more ****ing slacking. **** this, I'm ****ing tired of complaining and whining about what I've done that I shouldn't have done. It's my fault, and nobody gives a ****. Either straighten up or be a fat ****ing slob again..."""

[Ibballard]

This sounds a bit like an eating disorder, binging on large amounts of food compulsively and then overexercising in order to purge, you might want to watch out for those tendencies. Other than that, best of luck with everything!

[mudy]

Foods -certain ones- are addictive and you have to detox yourself so you won't have cravings andymore.
The detox for me took 2 weeks with no cheating at all, it was not easy but after the 2 weeks I didn't want to binge, I didnt want to eat cookies, pizza or other stuff..

[Cristina78]

Well hello there, twin. Kind of weird, but happy there is someone else out there that loves food as much as me. But, at the same time, sad that there is someone out there who feels like me.

You can message me anytime.

I went through all this too, still do. Do NOT restrict yourself from foods, because that is what makes you feel this guilty feeling. I will tell you things that worked for me. First, Read "YOU: on a diet. Waist management" No. I am not fat, I am skinny fat and working on it. Once you read this book and have all the You-reka moments, you will be fine. Youwill start eating the same things everyday and you will learn to like it. And you will no longer crave all the fatty junk foods that you are eating.

My favorite meal was a burrito from Chipotle. And 1,100 calorie burrito. And I could eat the whole thing and still be hungry. I can now drive by one and not even bat an eye. I don't want it anymore. I refuse donuts at work. I mailed all my boxes of Girl Scout cookies to other people. I don't even drink alcohol anymore!

When you cheat, don't beat yourself up over it. Just take a deep breath and make a U-turn (start again). Everyone makes mistakes and it's ok. Just make a U-turn.

[Moulson]

It's funny how you whole opinion/taste on food changes after you have spent a few months eating clean.

The other day I cheated and had a slice of double cheeseburger pizza from Pizza Pizza and a caesar salad covered in creamy sauce, garlic croutons and bacon bits.

It was DISGUSTING. The Pizza was horrible and the salad drenched in fatty sauce.

I ate it all because once I start I can't stop but all I was thinking about was a chicken breast and mountain iof Broccoli with hot sauce.