kno i'm a troll but am seriously needing to vent.. (serious)

Miscogeny · 11-21-2009, 12:50 AM

okay sorry if this is a little stream of conscious or whatever but i've spent the last i don know how long drinkin brandy and taking excedrin (yes mayb pussy i dont care right now, im crying a lot because i dont wanna be a bad guy)

girlfriend says i am verbally abusive and that at times i've been a monster. i dnt wanna be that kinda guy i'm so sad about this.. she wants to be together still but i just cant after knowing the kind of person ive been to her, i love her so much.

yes breaking up with her is a pussy way out and it hurts me more than anything but its what i chose, even though she's trying to get me back.

its just hard to live with being some kind of monster.. i cant believe i was so hurtful to her.. i know i could change but i feel like the damage is done.. to hear her say that really broke my heart more than anything else ever could...

im not looking for feedback or anything i just need to get that out.

miketheblade · 11-21-2009, 12:51 AM

read it all,

only you can change who you are man, take that step respect the girlfriend (no white knight)

me. · 11-21-2009, 12:52 AM

exactly how abusive and for what reason?

KidSwole. · 11-21-2009, 12:52 AM

you pussy

TheGallows · 11-21-2009, 12:53 AM

not to be a dick but..

relationship section.

xXDeadmanXx · 11-21-2009, 12:54 AM

I read that whole thing.

Miscogeny · 11-21-2009, 12:55 AM

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Originally Posted by me.

exactly how abusive and for what reason?

she jst says i've been mean a lot and yelled over her being so busy all the time..

yes frustrated with the chaos that has been going on lately but to say i've been a monster for a year....

i dnt care if its pussy to get so bent out of shape over this i just dnt wanna accept ive been such a bad guy to her, she is really someone that i hav a deep connection with, to kno ive been a dick and to hear it from her is just... im ashamed of myself in a way.

Miscogeny · 11-21-2009, 12:55 AM

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Originally Posted by TheGallows

not to be a dick but..

relationship section.

yeah i thought about it after, thanks for pointing that out. i kno misc is the inappropriate section, then again now that i think about it i dnt want people getting too serious... i just needed to get it out.

bvincentd · 11-21-2009, 12:56 AM

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Originally Posted by me.

exactly how abusive and for what reason?

probably misogyny

buckfuck · 11-21-2009, 12:57 AM

10 years from now when you look back on this moment when you posted this **** on bb.com.. how are you going to feel?

Miscogeny · 11-21-2009, 12:58 AM

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Originally Posted by bvincentd

probably misogyny

thanks actually some humor could cheer me up right now, i liked this.

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Originally Posted by buck****

10 years from now when you look back on this moment when you posted this **** on bb.com.. how are you going to feel?

i probably wnt care since it is anonymous.

beauonly · 11-21-2009, 01:02 AM

Cliffs:

GF mad u stylin on her
GF afraid of possible Alpha tendancies in BF
OP confused as he thought Alpha = Profit
???

This ones on me:

Don't mistake my mercy for kindness! kthnxbai

Excellentswag · 11-21-2009, 01:02 AM

me. · 11-21-2009, 01:04 AM

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Originally Posted by Miscogeny

she jst says i've been mean a lot and yelled over her being so busy all the time..

yes frustrated with the chaos that has been going on lately but to say i've been a monster for a year....

i dnt care if its pussy to get so bent out of shape over this i just dnt wanna accept ive been such a bad guy to her, she is really someone that i hav a deep connection with, to kno ive been a dick and to hear it from her is just... im ashamed of myself in a way.

only thing you can do now is tell her how much you care about her and try to work on your temper. its not something you snap out of it because it's probably your personality, but it definitely something you can change if you really want to.

ProjectCG · 11-21-2009, 01:04 AM

If youve been that bad for a year then why did she stay with you? Sounds like some typical girl BS dramatizing the situation to take all the blame off of her. Girls love playing the victim of things. If you really are verbally abusive figure out how to manage your anger better than that.

Haterade~ · 11-21-2009, 01:06 AM

Just don't try making any decisions now if you have been drinking + taking pills... Wait til the morning before thinking about all of this imo

Miscogeny · 11-21-2009, 01:06 AM

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Originally Posted by ProjectCG

If youve been that bad for a year then why did she stay with you? Sounds like some typical girl BS dramatizing the situation to take all the blame off of her. Girls love playing the victim of things. If you really are verbally abusive figure out how to manage your anger better than that.

i dnt even kno man, she isnt the kind of person to manipulate so when she came out with this it really did hurt me becuz i dont see myself like that and i dont wanna be that kind of person, you know? shes so trustworthy and so amazing inside that it hurts to think ive treated her bad.

Miscogeny · 11-21-2009, 01:07 AM

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Originally Posted by Haterade~

Just don't try making any decisions now if you have been drinking + taking pills... Wait til the morning before thinking about all of this imo

thanks for the advice, i figure i should just try to get some laughs, mayb watch a movie and get some sleep. i have UP and i hear its really heartwarming so mayb that can lift me up some.

me. · 11-21-2009, 01:08 AM

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Originally Posted by ProjectCG

If youve been that bad for a year then why did she stay with you? Sounds like some typical girl BS dramatizing the situation to take all the blame off of her. Girls love playing the victim of things. If you really are verbally abusive figure out how to manage your anger better than that.

oh and also good point. she can def be over reacting. take a look back and see how you acted and be the judge. or just see how things go from now on and pay attention lol

ProjectCG · 11-21-2009, 01:09 AM

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Originally Posted by Miscogeny

i dnt even kno man, she isnt the kind of person to manipulate so when she came out with this it really did hurt me becuz i dont see myself like that and i dont wanna be that kind of person, you know? shes so trustworthy and so amazing inside that it hurts to think ive treated her bad.

So maybe shes not manipulating. But people over react in times of stress. Hell look what you are doing right? If she still wants you and you want her then leaving doesnt really seem like the smartest option. Maybe try and work on how you treat her if you actually think this is a legitimate problem.