The Count Down Begins - 38 days left - Page 2

Angela R · 08-06-2007, 12:52 PM

Happy Birthday!!!!

JackHIT · 08-07-2007, 06:29 AM

I would say you are both well organized and ready to finish this quest off. Keep it up. I look forward to seeing the finished product.

thenewchamp · 08-07-2007, 09:48 AM

I feel good today. The physical response to cutting hasn't hit me as hard yet...my friends say that I'll probably become nice because there is no way that I can get any crankier...that hurts (sort of).

Glad the birthday is over...its always sad when you don't get a chance to observe what should be a national holiday; but I will make up for it next month. I'll throw a big bash to celebrate my trophy and turning 28...you all are invited, I'll let you know when and where.

I've decided that I will no longer run on the treadmill. Well, not while I have to wear this trashbag...yesterday, I put on the sauna suit underneath my workout clothes and as I was running, the sweat started slinging from my sleeves; dripping down into my shoes and onto the belt...when I think about this, I visualize a Quentin Tarintino anime. A cartoon character with big eyes slipping on her own sweat as water pours from her arms; she loses balances and the next thing you see is me ... face down on the belt while its still turning. I can't get that out of my head and since I'm a natural clutz, I will stick with the precor or bike just to be safe.

This morning was cardio, tonight will be chest and back...I'm planning on killin it today; then another hour of cardio before I meet with Coach! I hope to go and pick out my suit this weekend...they don't know I'm broke yet. I am pursuing some sponsorship. I've talked to a couple people but nothing looks promising yet. But we will see...I might have to quit my job at the gym and go to another one who will support me (and I'm not just talking financial support).

Till tomorrow!!!!

**TheSheepdog** · 08-07-2007, 10:13 AM

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Originally Posted by thenewchamp

I feel good today. The physical response to cutting hasn't hit me as hard yet...my friends say that I'll probably become nice because there is no way that I can get any crankier...that hurts (sort of).

Glad the birthday is over...its always sad when you don't get a chance to observe what should be a national holiday; but I will make up for it next month. I'll throw a big bash to celebrate my trophy and turning 28...you all are invited, I'll let you know when and where.

I've decided that I will no longer run on the treadmill. Well, not while I have to wear this trashbag...yesterday, I put on the sauna suit underneath my workout clothes and as I was running, the sweat started slinging from my sleeves; dripping down into my shoes and onto the belt...when I think about this, I visualize a Quentin Tarintino anime. A cartoon character with big eyes slipping on her own sweat as water pours from her arms; she loses balances and the next thing you see is me ... face down on the belt while its still turning. I can't get that out of my head and since I'm a natural clutz, I will stick with the precor or bike just to be safe.

This morning was cardio, tonight will be chest and back...I'm planning on killin it today; then another hour of cardio before I meet with Coach! I hope to go and pick out my suit this weekend...they don't know I'm broke yet. I am pursuing some sponsorship. I've talked to a couple people but nothing looks promising yet. But we will see...I might have to quit my job at the gym and go to another one who will support me (and I'm not just talking financial support).

Till tomorrow!!!!

a sauna suit???...ok
boy i wish you was my client

Angela R · 08-08-2007, 07:40 AM

30 days lady!!!

Did you decide on a suit color yet? I've got to check out your blog too =)

Hope you are having a fantastic day.

thenewchamp · 08-08-2007, 12:11 PM

Whew!!! In exactly one month I will be at my show (we're still keeping our fingers crossed). I have sent out some requests for Sponsorship and one of the owners that I talked to said that he couldn't get me a sponsor but would be glad to donate a couple dollars..anything helps and I will take whatever I can get at this point.

Last night was the last time that coach and I would have time to work on his routine. He is carb-loading today and will make the trip to Texas tomorrow...I'm excited for him and told him that he had better do the dance right and give lots of attitude or he will definitely get a ton of it from me. LOL!!

This morning was upper-body and I can definitely feel the impact of giving up my fruit sugar! Goodness, I struggled and I have 30 days left of this? But, this is part of the race so I will 'man up'!

So far, the highlight of my day is that one of my company's VPs asked to see the link for my bodyspace...I had shown a couple of the girls around here and the word is spreading. I was nervous to send it seeing its my boss...and he already looks at me twisted (all in good fun, of course) and I didn't want to get grief from somebody else.
Do you recall my 'How Dare You..." blog? Well, I now have a whole new level of respect for him. Instead of a negative reaction he sends me this email

Holy cow!!!! You look awesome in the pics?.I would say ?hot?, but you still work for me
I?ve spent the last 45 minutes reading through your postings, and I have to say?I think it?s great what you?re doing. And don?t listen to ANYONE who gives you any flack about it. They?re all just haters. But you?re definitely getting cut, whether you can see it or not (as shown in the I Week 8 ?back? photo).
I was a competitive gymnast for 4 years in high school, and between that and a ton of weight training I pushed myself beyond my physical limits on a weekly basis back then ? probably did some permanent damage. But I miss those days, of actually having at least one ounce personal motivation, since I certainly don?t have any now a days ? but I was actually inspired by your writing.
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First, I didn't know he knew the word hater!!
Second, I knew that he once was a competitor but didn't know he pushed it like that!!
All I could do was smile and say 'Thank you'! Glad that I work for someone who gets it!

bluey2u · 08-08-2007, 12:41 PM

Girl, great journal. 30 days - WoW - I'll be following closely. I'm so excited for you.

Best of luck, Train hard, you are almost at the summit.

thenewchamp · 08-09-2007, 08:09 AM

Oh my God, I was literally crawling up the steps to my bedroom this morning. It was a leg day and then 20 minutes of cardio.

Okay, I have two very important questions for you guys today so hit me back with some answers:

1. I'm supposed to start tanning this week...Uh, I've never had to or needed to do this before so I need some advice. Do I put tanning lotion all over my body including my face? What's up with Aloe? How does this effect my exfoliation ritual?

2. The other day I sent out some requests for Sponsorship and so far the only person who has responded is a guy who owns one of the local record labels. I've dealt with his partner before and did not like him; nor do I like the crap that they attempt to pass as music. He offered about $200 which would be great!! But, last night, during conversation he crossed the professional line. He didn't do anything but the questions that he asked me and some of the things that he indicated was non of his business and made me very uncomfortable. I sat there and listened to him because I thought 'will I have to deal with BS just to get what I need?' But as I was headed home I thought, I don't want to deal with him because he is the type of guy who will hang this over my head and try to get me to do things that I'm not all about.

So, I'm stuck...I need to figure out a way to tell this guy to back off without burning bridges. He buys up business around here I don't want to leave an ungreatful impression that could effect relationships with other people that he might come into contact.

**TheSheepdog** · 08-09-2007, 08:09 AM

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Originally Posted by thenewchamp

Whew!!! In exactly one month I will be at my show (we're still keeping our fingers crossed). I have sent out some requests for Sponsorship and one of the owners that I talked to said that he couldn't get me a sponsor but would be glad to donate a couple dollars..anything helps and I will take whatever I can get at this point.

Last night was the last time that coach and I would have time to work on his routine. He is carb-loading today and will make the trip to Texas tomorrow...I'm excited for him and told him that he had better do the dance right and give lots of attitude or he will definitely get a ton of it from me. LOL!!

This morning was upper-body and I can definitely feel the impact of giving up my fruit sugar! Goodness, I struggled and I have 30 days left of this? But, this is part of the race so I will 'man up'!

So far, the highlight of my day is that one of my company's VPs asked to see the link for my bodyspace...I had shown a couple of the girls around here and the word is spreading. I was nervous to send it seeing its my boss...and he already looks at me twisted (all in good fun, of course) and I didn't want to get grief from somebody else.
Do you recall my 'How Dare You..." blog? Well, I now have a whole new level of respect for him. Instead of a negative reaction he sends me this email

Holy cow!!!! You look awesome in the pics?.I would say ?hot?, but you still work for me
I?ve spent the last 45 minutes reading through your postings, and I have to say?I think it?s great what you?re doing. And don?t listen to ANYONE who gives you any flack about it. They?re all just haters. But you?re definitely getting cut, whether you can see it or not (as shown in the I Week 8 ?back? photo).
I was a competitive gymnast for 4 years in high school, and between that and a ton of weight training I pushed myself beyond my physical limits on a weekly basis back then ? probably did some permanent damage. But I miss those days, of actually having at least one ounce personal motivation, since I certainly don?t have any now a days ? but I was actually inspired by your writing.
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First, I didn't know he knew the word hater!!
Second, I knew that he once was a competitor but didn't know he pushed it like that!!
All I could do was smile and say 'Thank you'! Glad that I work for someone who gets it!

lol...cool

**TheSheepdog** · 08-09-2007, 08:20 AM

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Originally Posted by thenewchamp

Oh my God, I was literally crawling up the steps to my bedroom this morning. It was a leg day and then 20 minutes of cardio. Okay, I have two very important questions for you guys today so hit me back with some answers:

1. I'm supposed to start tanning this week...Uh, I've never had to or needed to do this before so I need some advice. Do I put tanning lotion all over my body including my face? What's up with Aloe? How does this effect my exfoliation ritual?

2. The other day I sent out some requests for Sponsorship and so far the only person who has responded is a guy who owns one of the local record labels. I've dealt with his partner before and did not like him; nor do I like the crap that they attempt to pass as music. He offered about $200 which would be great!! But, last night, during conversation he crossed the professional line. He didn't do anything but the questions that he asked me and some of the things that he indicated was not only non of his business, but made me very uncomfortable. I sat there and listened to him because I thought 'will I have to deal with BS just to get what I need?' But as I was headed home I thought, I don't want to deal with him because he is the type of guy who will hang this over my head and try to get me to do things that I'm not all about.

sht, i'm getting to get a little upset. You pretty much answered your own question in this post, listen to your conscience, if its telling you no, then its no, cause you know whats going to happen...try all the gyms in the area, small sports stores, mom and pop stores that sell specific clothing for fitness and take a picture of yourself with the clothes on, try atlanta there's numerous spots out there, i know for a fact the gym you work at does sponsorships cause i asked them to sponsor me as a natural bodybuilder.
Its easy for me to say what you shouldnt do, cause im not in your shoes right now, but God will make a way.

thenewchamp · 08-09-2007, 08:22 AM

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Originally Posted by armymuscle01

sht, i'm getting to get a little upset. You pretty much answered your own question in this post, listen to your conscience, if its telling you no, then its no, cause you know whats going to happen...try all the gyms in the area, small sports stores, mom and pop stores that sell specific clothing for fitness and take a picture of yourself with the clothes on, try atlanta there's numerous spots out there, i know for a fact the gym you work at does sponsorships cause i asked them to sponsor me as a natural bodybuilder.
Its easy for me to say what you shouldnt do, cause im not in your shoes right now, but God will make a way.

I know that I'm not going to accept his help but I don't know how to be tactful about it...I pretty much want to tell him that he's disgusting, he crossed the line, and I don't want his money...but that would be a waste of energy.

**TheSheepdog** · 08-09-2007, 08:24 AM

well dont say a word, i think that would answer his question or tell him what you think and why you think it....be careful cause there's some dirties out there in columbus

thenewchamp · 08-09-2007, 08:27 AM

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Originally Posted by armymuscle01

well dont say a word, i think that would answer his question or tell him what you think and why you think it....be careful cause there's some dirties out there in columbus

He wants me to get him a letter and he'll cut a check from his 'Accountant' I see him at the gym all the time since I'm in there so late at night. Yes, we have wanna-be-thugs around here who think they have city-street smarts but have been watching to much TV.

**TheSheepdog** · 08-09-2007, 08:28 AM

oh well, its up to u, just dont sell yourself now, to someone you might regret later

thenewchamp · 08-10-2007, 02:19 PM

I hate the weekends...it messes with my schedule and I have more time to sit and think about what I can't eat.

http://blog.bodybuilding.com/thenewc...tion/#comments

This morning's cardio was really good and tonight will be chest and back...Yay!! I just hope that I have the energy to get it done. All week I've been so weak that my body aches and I've had headaches...not sure if this is normal but my coach is in TX for his show so I can't ask him. I'm a bit worried because I'm prone to migraines and having a headache almost all day is wearing me out!

Tomorrow, I will make the drive to ATL to look at and hopefully pick out my suits...it would be nice if they have 2 suits on clearance that just happen to be the perfect size and color and all I'd have to do is come back in 2 weeks for any alterations due to a drop in size. LOL!!

Also, I'm back at square one with sponsorship! I'm not accepting any money from the creepy fat man and my gym won't sponsor me. I got the phone call today...because I'm an instructor at the gym they can't sponsor me because then they would have to sponsor all the employee's in their endeavors. They will, however, give me an advance on my pay up to $250...which will mean that I would be teaching the next 13 classes for free. If I have to, I'll take it and use my Continued Education allowance...don't want to do that but will if necessary. I'm still sending out letters to local Sports stores as well as competition gyms...We'll see.

I'll take pictures of the suit colors tomorrow and post them. HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!! Oh, can someone eat some chocolate cake for me? Thanks.

thenewchamp · 08-13-2007, 08:49 AM

Well, for the last 3 weeks I've been stressing myself out hoping to find a way to get the money to finish this crazy race...but it has all come to a head. I'm not throwing in the towel, although I entertained that thought...I'm changing my game plan.

When you do the research to compete...they never tell you exactly how much it will cost...even looking for suits online is different then the final price thrown at you when you get fitted. As planned, I went to ATL...I had a blast at my fitting. I tried on at least 20 suits...picked the colors, the styles, the fabrics and thought 'this was worth the 2 hour drive'. Then, I started asking questions...how long would it take to guarentee arrival, what do I do when I receive the suit and need changes...how much will it cost and when do you need the payment?

I about hit the floor after she completed her calculations...Over $700 for two suits! Uh, yeah...I know I looked like a bugs bunny character when my eyes popped out of my head. I didn't want her to feel she had wasted her time on me and I was still thinking that I would get help so I told her that I would need to take some swatches home and let my coach look them over before I made a final decision. She said that would be fine but to guarentee the fabric choice and all, I will need to call her today (monday) with confirmation of the order and my credit card information.

I cried all the way home...I'm going to go bankrupt trying to compete. My original calculation of how much this entire task would cost was off by um...over $1,000. My gym will not sponsor me because I'm an employee, local stores won't even entertain a request letter becuase I'm a big 'nobody' ...'come back after you've had your first competition and we'll see what we can do'.

I thought that I had bitten off more than I could chew and that this was just crazy...I have bills to pay that, to be completely honest, are not getting paid because I'm trying to hold out just in case I suddenly get a Sugar Daddy who will pay my way through this Comp. LOL!

Coach and I talked about it this morning and we decided that I will continue to diet and train on my own until I call him with a date. This will just give me the opportunity to get tighter and be more prepared...the Figure World isn't ready for me yet anyway! LOL!!!

Angela R · 08-13-2007, 09:04 AM

What a hard decision to have to make. Competing is very expensive, and you are right no one really tells you how broke you will go doing one. Take the money you have saved up for the comp and go and get some professional pictures taken instead. Those are your real trophies. Havin' those kick ass pics of tight abs and rockin' shoulders ;-)

Keep up the good attitude and don't loose focus. There is a lot more to bodybuilding then just competing.

Have a fantastic day.

thenewchamp · 08-13-2007, 09:13 AM

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Originally Posted by Angela R

What a hard decision to have to make. Competing is very expensive, and you are right no one really tells you how broke you will go doing one. Take the money you have saved up for the comp and go and get some professional pictures taken instead. Those are your real trophies. Havin' those kick ass pics of tight abs and rockin' shoulders ;-)

Keep up the good attitude and don't loose focus. There is a lot more to bodybuilding then just competing.

Have a fantastic day.

Thank you!! I still want to compete although I might get pics done just for fun. My confidence level is up and I've always thought it would be a good time...

I appreciate that you understand...I haven't said much to anyone at work becuase when they find out they'll just say stuff to upset me because they don't get it.

**TheSheepdog** · 08-13-2007, 10:19 AM

i really do feel sad for you, but you know how i feel and i told you to look at the bright side of all of this.

1.Your physique then and now
2.your knowledge then and now
3.the friends you made doing this
4.the inner strength you showed to yourself and others, when you trained for this show
5.making it this far, truly and honestly when i first told you to compete i didnt think you could do it, not because of money, but because of dedication...lol, i was soooooo wrong
6.your a bodybuilding.com member
7.you know who supports and is on your team and who's not now.
8.There's more show's, more preparation, this just mean now you be ahead when it comes time to prepare for another show
Someone in Savannah saw something in a woman thats makes him want to compete even more now...thank you

bluey2u · 08-13-2007, 11:56 AM

WoW that's pricey.

The other's are right positive thinking and look at what you have accomplished in such a short period of time.

Keep up the good work, you have made excellent progress.

bull.dogz · 08-16-2007, 01:02 PM

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Originally Posted by armymuscle01

i really do feel sad for you, but you know how i feel and i told you to look at the bright side of all of this.

1.Your physique then and now
2.your knowledge then and now
3.the friends you made doing this
4.the inner strength you showed to yourself and others, when you trained for this show
5.making it this far, truly and honestly when i first told you to compete i didnt think you could do it, not because of money, but because of dedication...lol, i was soooooo wrong
6.your a bodybuilding.com member
7.you know who supports and is on your team and who's not now.
8.There's more show's, more preparation, this just mean now you be ahead when it comes time to prepare for another show
Someone in Savannah saw something in a woman thats makes him want to compete even more now...thank you

They're right, you've worked very hard be proud. I can't believe the price of the suits. Ouch! Can you find a place that maybe sells used ones? Maybe blog and ask. I know I've seen a site before but I don't remember what it is. Will it help if I eat more rice crispies for you? Put in your order, I'll do it this weekend. lol Hang in there!

thenewchamp · 08-16-2007, 02:58 PM

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Originally Posted by bluey2u

WoW that's pricey. The other's are right positive thinking and look at what you have accomplished in such a short period of time.

Keep up the good work, you have made excellent progress.

Thank you!! That price is the cheapest that I've found locally for what they offer! That is crazy!!!

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Originally Posted by bull.dogz

They're right, you've worked very hard be proud. I can't believe the price of the suits. Ouch! Can you find a place that maybe sells used ones? Maybe blog and ask. I know I've seen a site before but I don't remember what it is. Will it help if I eat more rice crispies for you? Put in your order, I'll do it this weekend. lol Hang in there!

LOL!! Thanks! I'm okay for the sweets right now. I'm not sure how comfortable I am about using someone else bikini....first, its nasty; second, my dimensions are different and it would still need custom work. I have some leads and some new information that I'm working on and will have an update tomorrow...so check back!!

thenewchamp · 08-20-2007, 02:55 PM

Last week was really really tough for me. I had talked to my coach on Monday to let him know that I can't afford to do this and I broke down in his office...He explained to me that this is part of the business. As an Amateur, competing is not easy because this is such an expensive sport. He encouraged me to keep training and not to lose my focus becuase he knows that I would do really well in this and if I lose my focus, I won't ever come back. Well, as strong as I pretend to be...I gave up.

I had my 'to hell with it' moment and ate. The entire day I tried to remember why I liked all of this junk food...all it did was make me sick. I felt a little bit better to have carbs in me but then the guilt set in and it came with a vengance. I was so depressed and discouraged that the only workout I did was teach my class. The entire week I was un-motivated but I went back to my diet. I felt like the eating from the previous day completely un-did everything my coach and I worked to accomplish.

I have a renewed love for people in my life...I don't realize that people actually give a @#$# about me until I'm in desperate need and they come out of the woodwork to help. Someone from my job read my journal thread and sent me an email:
****So I was just catching up on your blog online and I see that funding for your up coming competition may be a problem. You?ve worked so hard and you?re going after your dream so I would like to contribute 100 towards this goal. This is not a loan and there are no strings attached just remember us little people (or in my case fat people) when you?re famous and appearing on magazine covers.
I know that you like people to think that you?re a tough girl but I truly do see a wonderful person inside of you and just watching you go through everything for this competition is inspiring (No I?m still not ready to start working out). Keep moving forward *****

I cried the entire time I read it. They also attached a quote from a Rocky Movie that I'll add in a blog. The same day, I received another email from a fellow competitor with tips on how to acquire suits and fix them to save msyelf about $500. Coach says that if you really want this...people will see it and support you. I guess its true.

I don't have all the money that I need yet but I can't quit. I'll always wonder 'what if' and I absolutely hate that! So I started my research. Is there a local show that I can go for?

The Bodybuilding/Fitness/Figure/Model Championship hosted by SNBF is on October 6. I meet back with my coach on Wednesday. I'll have to take on an extra job or two but that's the price you pay for fame. LOL!!!

Thank you all for your support and I will keep you posted.

bull.dogz · 08-20-2007, 03:14 PM

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Originally Posted by thenewchamp

Last week was really really tough for me. I had talked to my coach on Monday to let him know that I can't afford to do this and I broke down in his office...He explained to me that this is part of the business. As an Amateur, competing is not easy because this is such an expensive sport. He encouraged me to keep training and not to lose my focus becuase he knows that I would do really well in this and if I lose my focus, I won't ever come back. Well, as strong as I pretend to be...I gave up.

I had my 'to hell with it' moment and ate. The entire day I tried to remember why I liked all of this junk food...all it did was make me sick. I felt a little bit better to have carbs in me but then the guilt set in and it came with a vengance. I was so depressed and discouraged that the only workout I did was teach my class. The entire week I was un-motivated but I went back to my diet. I felt like the eating from the previous day completely un-did everything my coach and I worked to accomplish.

I have a renewed love for people in my life...I don't realize that people actually give a @#$# about me until I'm in desperate need and they come out of the woodwork to help. Someone from my job read my journal thread and sent me an email:
****So I was just catching up on your blog online and I see that funding for your up coming competition may be a problem. You?ve worked so hard and you?re going after your dream so I would like to contribute 100 towards this goal. This is not a loan and there are no strings attached just remember us little people (or in my case fat people) when you?re famous and appearing on magazine covers.
I know that you like people to think that you?re a tough girl but I truly do see a wonderful person inside of you and just watching you go through everything for this competition is inspiring (No I?m still not ready to start working out). Keep moving forward *****

I cried the entire time I read it. They also attached a quote from a Rocky Movie that I'll add in a blog. The same day, I received another email from a fellow competitor with tips on how to acquire suits and fix them to save msyelf about $500. Coach says that if you really want this...people will see it and support you. I guess its true.

I don't have all the money that I need yet but I can't quit. I'll always wonder 'what if' and I absolutely hate that! So I started my research. Is there a local show that I can go for?

The Bodybuilding/Fitness/Figure/Model Championship hosted by SNBF is on October 6. I meet back with my coach on Wednesday. I'll have to take on an extra job or two but that's the price you pay for fame. LOL!!!

Thank you all for your support and I will keep you posted.

Things always has it's own way of working out! Your smart and dedicated! You'll see this to the end!

hbk442000 · 08-20-2007, 03:42 PM

Hey it sounds like your doing amazing with your training. Keep it going..your almost to your goals.

ac

twinnett · 08-20-2007, 04:11 PM

I'm so glad that you're not giving up!!! It's so hard...I'm competing this spring and don't know how I'll afford, but we've got to follow our dreams!

thenewchamp · 08-21-2007, 12:26 PM

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Originally Posted by hbk442000

Hey it sounds like your doing amazing with your training. Keep it going..your almost to your goals.

ac

Thank you!! Its going...slowly sometmes.

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Originally Posted by twinnett

I'm so glad that you're not giving up!!! It's so hard...I'm competing this spring and don't know how I'll afford, but we've got to follow our dreams!

Do you know which show and Organization you want to go with? Definitely keep me posted. I've been giving some money saving tips and if they work, I'll share for a small fee..LOL!!

thenewchamp · 08-21-2007, 12:38 PM

I haven't begun my new countdown because things are not set in stone yet.

This morning started out terribly!!! Why did my eyes open before 4am? Its some type of self-hatred...I couldn't go back to sleep but I knew that if I got up too early I would be no good for the rest of the day. what happened? I went ahead and got up (like an idiot) to do my morning cardio session.

My eating today has been lax!! I ate some of my first meal and some of my second meal...I'm now trying to choke down my third meal and am not in the mood for this. I just asked a co-worker to go and get a turtle brownie and describe it to me...she said no. My co-workers suck! (LOL)

I'm feeling a little discouraged. Its been over a week since I've seen my coach and I miss him (weird, huh?) He's like a father to me and always pumps me up when I'm down about this...Plus, he's about to do another show in about 30 days so he still feels my pain. I meet with him tomorrow and I'm nervous. Even though I've been good and kept up my training...I don't see any improvement. Actually, I feel worse and think I should be farther along. I have this fear that he'll look at me in the morning and be like, 'what the blip have you been doing?'

He might not...I can see that I'm tighter than I was last week and my cardio is doing better because I split my workouts to three times. But, my abs still look gross to me; and If I was still going to do the com p in Sept I would not have been ready.

Well, keep your fingers crossed that I don't get tore out da frame tomorrow by Coach! I really hope that I get to compete in October. Right now its hard to stay motivated when you don't see the finish line.

bull.dogz · 08-21-2007, 01:23 PM

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Originally Posted by thenewchamp

I haven't begun my new countdown because things are not set in stone yet.

This morning started out terribly!!! Why did my eyes open before 4am? Its some type of self-hatred...I couldn't go back to sleep but I knew that if I got up too early I would be no good for the rest of the day. what happened? I went ahead and got up (like an idiot) to do my morning cardio session.

My eating today has been lax!! I ate some of my first meal and some of my second meal...I'm now trying to choke down my third meal and am not in the mood for this. I just asked a co-worker to go and get a turtle brownie and describe it to me...she said no. My co-workers suck! (LOL)

I'm feeling a little discouraged. Its been over a week since I've seen my coach and I miss him (weird, huh?) He's like a father to me and always pumps me up when I'm down about this...Plus, he's about to do another show in about 30 days so he still feels my pain. I meet with him tomorrow and I'm nervous. Even though I've been good and kept up my training...I don't see any improvement. Actually, I feel worse and think I should be farther along. I have this fear that he'll look at me in the morning and be like, 'what the blip have you been doing?'

He might not...I can see that I'm tighter than I was last week and my cardio is doing better because I split my workouts to three times. But, my abs still look gross to me; and If I was still going to do the com p in Sept I would not have been ready.

Well, keep your fingers crossed that I don't get tore out da frame tomorrow by Coach! I really hope that I get to compete in October. Right now its hard to stay motivated when you don't see the finish line.

We are our own worst enemies! You look fantastic and though you may not be where you want to be right now you have worked damn hard! Don't be so hard on yourself. We look at ourselves and only see flaws but that's what motivates us to work harder. Chin up girl! There are women out there who would love to look as "bad" as you do. That's it! This weekend I'll eat that turtle brownie for you. What kind of co-workers are they?

Back2zero · 08-21-2007, 01:33 PM

Hey, this is terrific news about the funding and the support. You are truly lucky, and I hope you do very well in your remaining month!