Just watched a home movie of my 10th birthday where my loving grandparents (now dead) gave me clothes and I complained about it because I wanted toys. I've never been more ashamed of my stupid selfish bull****
deep **** brah
right am not living life full enough, will regret later
future looks good, will take over fathers business
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For a people who are free, and who mean to remain so, a well-organized and armed militia is their best security. - Thomas Jefferson
I predict future happiness for Americans if they can prevent the government from wasting the labors of the people under the pretense of taking care of them. - Thomas Jefferson
negative
struggling hooking up with girls in college
hating the schoolwork, not doing well
positive
having a great time drinking every weekend
performing well in the weightroom and on the baseball field
if those are your negatives, then you have a pretty good life.
considering how many more people have ****ed up lives than I do, i can't really complain about mine. I get bogged down with work/school/gym a lot, but at least I'm not slaving in some third world country working ridiculous hours and getting paid **** all. So yeah, i'm good.
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about to withdraw from the Private University iam at... go to CC for a semester, and hopefully transfer up to NY to play some D3 Football...
Honestly, i miss football soo much, and i wish i would went straight to playing it after HS...
ive got a trip with my brothers to go to Poland, Amsterdam, Berling, Paris, and ROme next summer for 2 weeks
1. Diabetic
2. Kidneys leaking protein will be on dialasys (sp) eventually
3. GI problems, yeast and bacteria over growth, mom spent 3k trying to help me get better i told her she should have just got a gun in the begining and i would have killed myself.
4. Still not working because of health problems, hoping to be able to work soon.
5. Totally 100% jaded towards love, I will never be able to trust a woman again with my heart after my x fiance and all the stuff i read daily on the misc (GOOD JOB GUIZE!! jk)
6. I basically sit home and play everquest all day.
7. Bad back and neck pain.
8. Have issues where i cant fall for a girl unless she is broken and i think I can fix her.
Pros
Im gonna try to get back on a diet and lift again. Hopefully find a part time job atleast.
I was the happiest guy up until junior yr in college, then for a 3 and half yr period things took a 180 degree turn.
I may not have the hot girl friend nemore or go to tons of parties and chill with friends, but I work hard at my job and train even harder at the gym.
Took me awhile but Im starting to understand what really matters most in life. Karma has weird way of working things out in life, however you cant always appreciate the sweet as much until you've tasted the sour.
"If you are distressed by anything external, the pain is not due to the thing itself, but to your estimate of it; and this you have the power to revoke at any moment" ~Marcus Aurelius
at least everyone's not whining about life getting worse as you get older
HEEEEEEEELLLLLL NO!!!!!!
you know who whines about "old" people? young people... sure make jokes about us wearing socks and sandals and headbands in the gym...
but how many "old" people are whining in this thread? ill bet none...
your level of fun changes as you get older, but life also gets better around you... im financially stable, i got a hot wife, a job i love (im my own boss and make good coin) and i can afford all the toys i want... i got my cbr1000, a few quads, a snowmobile, a summer/winter house...
feels good man...
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I may never win the war against gravity, but every week I win a battle by raising a few more pounds than the week before.
For a people who are free, and who mean to remain so, a well-organized and armed militia is their best security. - Thomas Jefferson
I predict future happiness for Americans if they can prevent the government from wasting the labors of the people under the pretense of taking care of them. - Thomas Jefferson
you know who whines about "old" people? young people... sure make jokes about us wearing socks and sandals and headbands in the gym...
but how many "old" people are whining in this thread? ill bet none...
your level of fun changes as you get older, but life also gets better around you... im financially stable, i got a hot wife, a job i love (im my own boss and make good coin) and i can afford all the toys i want... i got my cbr1000, a few quads, a snowmobile, a summer/winter house...
My life kinda ****ty right now, just slightly depressed about my situation but i know it will be over soon and I got myself into this mess. Wrecked my car and now all I have is the misc, and a part time job at Quiznos. My only social life is partying on some fridays or saturdays.
Main problem is my life for the last 4 years has been a steady stream of **** ups. Kinda resembling stair steps leading downwards. Getting too into pot to realize I was throwing alot of stuff away came first. Not taking college seriously and failing out, which my parents were paying for. Quitting website building which I was really good at and could have made serious money. Never sticking with lifting for more than 1-2 months at a time, not enough to make solid gains. Still doing drugs to the point I got sent to rehab last year. Got back into them anyways 6 months later. Still have not found a solid full time job since dropping out of college. Lost decent job I did have now only make 100-140 a week part time. Wrecked car and now can't do much besides misc and work. Can't afford food to make good BB gains or gym membership. Also really have only gotten laid with 3 different chicks which for a guy whos at least average looking and can talk to girls easily it really sucks. As far as the girls though I hardly care at this point, I have way to much other **** to deal with.
The main point of all this is, the **** ive done is all little stuff but after a while of constant **** ups and dealing with the consequences then another **** up, it starts to wear you down and you feel like you missed out on so many good oppurtunities. I could easily be getting paid 14+ an hour to misc and do school work, while being in school and having a much better social life, and be less than 2 years from graduating college with a degree in something im good at and that pays good, all from some really small decisions. Instead I have jack ****.
I am always thinking positivley though, all I want is to get myself out of this hole I dug, and start making progress for a better life. Im so used to just sitting home doing ****all that I honestly don't care. But its time to grow up and do something. Just sucks trying to save for a car when making so little money, any other place I work I have to be within walking distance of.
I like this thread, im glad to know im not alone. I guess im lucky that I have an attitute where not much bothers me, I hardly feel the emotions a normal person should feel, and that helps and hurts me at the same time.
Cliffs -
- Im a ****up and dealing with the consequences.
- Not in school
- Wrecked car, gotta save up for new one
- Broke, got tickets to pay still
- No social life can barely do **** with no car
- No girls
- Low paying part time job
- Can't diet or lift properly
FUUUUUUUU
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Last edited by Skinydudegetbig; 11-08-2009 at 08:30 PM.
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"I feel as I always have, that the earth is the home and the only home of man, and I am convinced that whatever he is to get out of his existence he must get while he is here."
-Clarence Darrow
you know who whines about "old" people? young people... sure make jokes about us wearing socks and sandals and headbands in the gym...
but how many "old" people are whining in this thread? ill bet none...
your level of fun changes as you get older, but life also gets better around you... im financially stable, i got a hot wife, a job i love (im my own boss and make good coin) and i can afford all the toys i want... i got my cbr1000, a few quads, a snowmobile, a summer/winter house...
feels good man...
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♦ Central California Crew (Hella-Alpha) ♦
"I feel as I always have, that the earth is the home and the only home of man, and I am convinced that whatever he is to get out of his existence he must get while he is here."
-Clarence Darrow
For a people who are free, and who mean to remain so, a well-organized and armed militia is their best security. - Thomas Jefferson
I predict future happiness for Americans if they can prevent the government from wasting the labors of the people under the pretense of taking care of them. - Thomas Jefferson
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