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11-04-2009, 08:25 PM
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I OD'ed last week. Here's brief recount (depression)(srs)
Depression caught up with me. I accidentally OD'ed last week. Yes, it was actually an accident. I'm against suicide for religious reasons. No cliffs. Just read. EDIT to clarify: I DO NOT REMEMBER TAKING THE HUGE DRUG COCKTAIL... I just remember taking my usual sleep pill plus 2benadryls.
Last Wednesday night, I started the night with my usual Ambien, but I also took two Benadryls. Turns out that's a bad mix. I didn't go to sleep, rather I stayed awake and started feelings super loopy. I got creative and started drawing some wild stuff on cardboard from boxes I cut up with a knife. I don't remember doing it, but I took a messload of other pills I am legally prescribed for. I don't know what I took or if the paramedics may have swiped some of the pills, but here's the list of what pills were missing [close estimates]:
20 Ambiens [10mg]
10 Xanaxs [1mg]
15 Zoloft [300mg]
36 Benadryl [25mg]
I barely remember anything that happened that night, but here's what I recount along with what I was told. I was drawing around midnight, maybe 1am. Next memory I saw the clock at 6:30am. I was told both my parents had called and I was talking to them, I was talking to other people in the room [who weren't there]. 1:45pm Apartment manager and maintenance open my door after I wouldn't let them in. My parents called them to check on me. Slightly later police and paramedics show up. I remember them asking what I took. I told them yet at the same time didn't realize I was completely delusional. I voluntarily took an ambulance to the hospital and was admitted at 2:15pm. Delusion: I spoke to a nurse who wasn't really there and discussed that I was to have an exploratory surgery. I agreed to it so long as they could find out what's wrong with my head. Delusion: Two girls, one named Jennifer, were having a conversation behind, yet I'm in a hospital bed strapped down so no one can be behind me. My parents arrive and I'm asking if they can here the awesome Pink Floyd song playing... it's not really there. I was released at 7:30pm still delusional. My parents brought me back to the apartment and I went to my truck looking for this black cat that had crawled through my truck's bedliner [not possible, hallucination]. In the apartment I saw thousands of ants crawling all over the carpet. My parents love me enough to stomp the floor and wipe the ants away even though they're not really there. My eyes were dilated and I had dizzy spells for the next several days.
Brb to answer thread.
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11-04-2009, 08:27 PM
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cool story bro...
i know its a srs thread, but wtf do you expect people to say? don't be so stupid in the future, thats not much of an "accident".
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11-04-2009, 08:28 PM
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Are you going to see a doctor/Physiatrists
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11-04-2009, 08:29 PM
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brah, you need to thank god you're still alive.
Are those estimated pill amounts serious?? Thats an insane amount man, get help
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11-04-2009, 08:29 PM
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Abraham Biggs #2
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11-04-2009, 08:29 PM
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your still delusional bra you havent written anything!!
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11-04-2009, 08:29 PM
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how are you now?
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11-04-2009, 08:30 PM
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Quote:
Originally Posted by SkinnyFatPhil
cool story bro...
i know its a srs thread, but wtf do you expect people to say? don't be so stupid in the future, thats not much of an "accident".
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thats beyond "being stupid" thats the acts of someone that has a serious mental disease(no flame)
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11-04-2009, 08:32 PM
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ambien is a helluva a drug... i used to do it when i was dry on bud, and i don't anymore...
i always end up thinking inanimate objects are alive and i have chats with them, i don't get any visuals but i freak out and feel drunk...
its nothing special really, it just gives you quality sleep unless you dose up a little extra and stay awake..
Edit: just read all that text, it confirms that ambien does make you talk to **** that isn't there, i spoke to my shower head once, and another time i spoke to piles of clothes..
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11-04-2009, 08:33 PM
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Ambien, Zoloft, and Xanax....all prescribed..........that is one retarted doctor right there.
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11-04-2009, 08:33 PM
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wow that's scary. Seriously fked up delusions..
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11-04-2009, 08:33 PM
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Alright back. After years of needing it, I finally got on Zoloft antidepressant, and I think that actually made things worse. Again, I didn't mean to overdose. I don't remember even doing it, but it happened and I was delusional for the next many days. My usual doctor has got me on a different antidepressant now, Effexor, and I'm seeing a psychiatrist sometime soon, although it's unlikely to help. This is hereditary... mother, brother, 3 aunts, and a grandmother have all been on antidepressants and anxiety medication. I'm just posting this as a final deal to those that remember some of my recent threads on the topic. Things are feeling a bit better now though. I'm also moving back home soon. I'm finding the city isn't my place... time to get back out to the small city, big pastures.
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11-04-2009, 08:35 PM
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cliffs:
OP is a loser
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11-04-2009, 08:35 PM
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You don't believe in suicide for religious reasons but you will take a cocktail of drugs. Seems stupid to me.
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11-04-2009, 08:35 PM
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I feel you OP
I really do......
we are glad your alive
WHY DO YOU DO THIS??
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11-04-2009, 08:36 PM
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Holy **** you took alot of pills. Glad you are ok. So you took the pills at midnight and didn't get to the hospital till 2pm the next day and survived? You crazy motherfocker.
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11-04-2009, 08:37 PM
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How the hell do you accidentally all those pills>?
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11-04-2009, 08:37 PM
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dude are you still delusional? you didn't post pics of your mum
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11-04-2009, 08:38 PM
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i took 3 vicodins in 24 horus and felt guilty... lol
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11-04-2009, 08:38 PM
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benadryl is a deleriant, yes it will make you have imaginary friends
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11-04-2009, 08:39 PM
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Quote:
Originally Posted by The_Albatross
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you're just an angry guy that will die cold and alone, there are people born with organic mental diseases
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11-04-2009, 08:39 PM
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Quote:
Originally Posted by gekkoboy14
benadryl is a deleriant, yes it will make you have imaginary friends
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Yea, my doctor later told me that the Ambien isn't what screwed me... it has a short half life anyways, but that it was the benadryl.
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11-04-2009, 08:40 PM
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OP's sig reads:
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11-04-2009, 08:41 PM
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Quote:
Originally Posted by GermanBB
In the apartment I saw thousands of ants crawling all over the carpet. My parents love me enough to stomp the floor and wipe the ants away even though they're not really there. My eyes were dilated and I had dizzy spells for the next several days.
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rofl ahahahahahahahahaha, my mom would have beat my ass, despite me being 23, my dad would probably be saying someting like "LOOK THEIR ARE MORE ANTS THERE YOU STUPID ASS"
THAT'S love, lol @ your parents stomping fake ants for your delusional depressed ass... you need a reality check and a swift kick to the nuts
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11-04-2009, 08:42 PM
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OP did you get in trouble for ODing? like did the cops give you tickets or anything and did you have to get mandatory psychiatric help? (unaware)
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11-04-2009, 08:42 PM
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u mirin' quadriceps brah?
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glad you're alive op. you always seemed like a chill poster.
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11-04-2009, 08:42 PM
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Quote:
Originally Posted by Mises
rofl ahahahahahahahahaha, my mom would have beat my ass, despite me being 23, my dad would probably be saying someting like "LOOK THEIR ARE MORE ANTS THERE YOU STUPID ASS"
THAT'S love, lol @ your parents stomping fake ants for your delusional depressed ass... you need a reality check and a swift kick to the nuts
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my parents wouldn't have gave 2 ****s
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11-04-2009, 08:43 PM
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Quote:
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benadryl is a deleriant, yes it will make you have imaginary friends
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brb buying benedryl to get some imaginary friends
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11-04-2009, 08:43 PM
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Have you ever thought about getting off antidepressants completely brah?
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11-04-2009, 08:45 PM
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Quote:
Originally Posted by GermanBB
20 Ambiens [10mg]
10 Xanaxs [1mg]
15 Zoloft [300mg]
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This is why I am against Big Pharma. No one person should be prescribed all of these drugs IMO. There are people who are in need of these drugs, and maybe in some extreme circumstances all of them. But instead of doctors wanting to deal with underlying problems, they decide to drug the patient and hopefully it will make them feel better. A lot of times it is a temporary fix for a permanent problem. OP, I hope you are going to get help, and it sounds like you are making a good decision by moving back home.
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