post competition loss of motivation / goals
(history) competed NPC figure-- did 6 shows w/in 12 month time period....did well, always placed anywhere from 1st-4th (even @ inaugural Arnold Am.!) always stayed, listened to and followed the judges critique advice in prep. for the next show...UNTIL my last show-after they chaged "the look" for figure--into a softer look. I did pooly, and was very dissatisfied w/ not only the new look, lack of clear judging criteria but mostly my physique! I haven't competed in over a year, due to the frustration and disappoinment w/ everything--and feel totally lost and depressed since! By no means have I let my physique go-- I'm a personal trainer and group fitness instructor full time. I stay anywhere from 9%-12.5% bf year-round, but now have lost my drive to hit the gym floor. This has been in the past3months or so--I continue to teach my classes, but am finding it harder to motivate myself like I used to. I have found new "projects" to do in the yard, etc. which I enjoy--and did NOT do while competing, but something is "missing" and I'm trying to find my way back to what I know is "me"...I do watch the results, to see what they are looking for now-- with the new bikini division now added; but STILL don't see any consistency w/ judging...until then, I don't feel the urge to throw my hat in the ring (spend the $) and feel completely lost w/out that ! -- I mean not only the workouts, but I don't log my diet on a regular basis (not eating a lot of crap, but tracking protein etc) ....not sure what happened....any comments, suggestions or support is greatly appreciated :-)
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