In unrelated news... I just checked the last people who viewed my bodyspace. I must say, I found it quite interesting. Seeing the thread usuals in there is normal and expected. What was odd/scary/somewhat disturbing is seeing people that don't post in this thread, are twice my age, and say they have families (wife/children) in their profile.
I guess I used to surf through profiles before I started posting here. However, considering this is the only thread that links back to my profile, I find the situation interesting...
Well, to get my mind off it, I'm just going to make myself believe that my stats and AV are inspiring to them...
Yeah, I get views and don't have an avatar...I can only assume its people checking out this thread. I've had a couple of weird PM's but nothing outside of the normal 'weird' messages...if that makes any sense
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A guy from atl on BM suggested that I should go to this pool party. Anyone been before? Daryll27? He sent me this youtube vid b/c I had never heard of it..check it out.
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In unrelated news... I just checked the last people who viewed my bodyspace. I must say, I found it quite interesting. Seeing the thread usuals in there is normal and expected. What was odd/scary/somewhat disturbing is seeing people that don't post in this thread, are twice my age, and say they have families (wife/children) in their profile.
I guess I used to surf through profiles before I started posting here. However, considering this is the only thread that links back to my profile, I find the situation interesting...
Well, to get my mind off it, I'm just going to make myself believe that my stats and AV are inspiring to them...
I lived closeted for most of my life, married with 4 children for 26 years, and I am still married. I came out to my family last fall and at bbing.com in January. At the time I thought I was the only married gay guy on the forum. Wow was I in for a surprise.
You would be amazed at the number of guys at bb.com who are married, with with children and very much in the closet. These guys never post here and many have never even told anyone they are gay. My story prompted them to make their situations known to me.
To me it isn't something scary it is something very sad. It just shows how much work there is to do in changing society so that gay guys aren't afraid to be themselves. It would be scary if you were 12 but you are 26 so take it as a compliment.
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I lived closeted for most of my life, married with 4 children for 26 years, and I am still married. I came out to my family last fall and at bbing.com in January. At the time I thought I was the only married gay guy on the forum. Wow was I in for a surprise.
You would be amazed at the number of guys at bb.com who are married, with with children and very much in the closet. These guys never post here and many have never even told anyone they are gay. My story prompted them to make their situations known to me.
To me it isn't something scary it is something very sad. It just shows how much work there is to do in changing society so that gay guys aren't afraid to be themselves. It would be scary if you were 12 but you are 26 so take it as a compliment.
Point taken. I apologize to all the readers that fit the above mentioned profile.
mntbikedude, thank you!
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A guy from atl on BM suggested that I should go to this pool party. Anyone been before? Daryll27? He sent me this youtube vid b/c I had never heard of it..check it out.
I've never been to the party, but I was walking in the park with my partner last year (or the year previous) when this party was happening. I'm assuming it was this party...lots and lots of really buff guys at the pool. We made an extra lap around the park to check out the guys a second time. Based on what I saw, I'd say go and have a good time.
I don't party at all any more. I honestly can't remember the last time I went to a gay club. I frequented a gay neighborhood dive bar until it was closed (an under cover cop busted a couple guys for having oral sex at the bar, LOL), but neighborhood bars are much different from dance clubs, IMHO.
This brings up a dilemma I'm having...it shouldn't be a dilemma at all except that I'm so intrigued. I was chatting earlier this week with an old acquaintance that I haven't seen in about 12 years. He invited me to Eros sometime this weekend. I thought it was a bar/club, but it's a sex club. I didn't know such places existed. He explained how it is different from a bath house. I've never been to one of those either. Anyway...my partner will be working (evenings) this weekend, and he definitely wouldn't approve of me going. I'm so intrigued about this place that I'm considering going without telling him. One, I'd be sneaking around, two, even if I went with the intention of being an observer, I'm afraid I couldn't help myself. Well, I'm 99.8% sure I won't go, but that other .2% isn't so sure. I think 1.8Tsunami should go and tell me/us all about it.
A guy from atl on BM suggested that I should go to this pool party. Anyone been before? Daryll27? He sent me this youtube vid b/c I had never heard of it..check it out.
A bodybuilding bud of mine goes to this every year. He absolutely loves it, and it supports an HIV charities in ATL.
Note that this number was given out from one of the foam parties I went to... the last being several months ago.
Weird thing right... I got another text from someone else later yesterday from a club I went to about 4 weeks ago. Why are people suddenly starting to text me now out of the blue!!?!?
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I lived closeted for most of my life, married with 4 children for 26 years, and I am still married. I came out to my family last fall and at bbing.com in January. At the time I thought I was the only married gay guy on the forum. Wow was I in for a surprise.
You would be amazed at the number of guys at bb.com who are married, with with children and very much in the closet. These guys never post here and many have never even told anyone they are gay. My story prompted them to make their situations known to me.
To me it isn't something scary it is something very sad. It just shows how much work there is to do in changing society so that gay guys aren't afraid to be themselves. It would be scary if you were 12 but you are 26 so take it as a compliment.
It was nice to hear Obama address the NAACP and say that people should not be discriminated against for who they love. He mentioned discrimination still existing against gays explicitly. It was nice to hear the president come out and call it as it is. So there is hope for future generations...
This brings up a dilemma I'm having...it shouldn't be a dilemma at all except that I'm so intrigued. I was chatting earlier this week with an old acquaintance that I haven't seen in about 12 years. He invited me to Eros sometime this weekend. I thought it was a bar/club, but it's a sex club. I didn't know such places existed. He explained how it is different from a bath house. I've never been to one of those either. Anyway...my partner will be working (evenings) this weekend, and he definitely wouldn't approve of me going. I'm so intrigued about this place that I'm considering going without telling him. One, I'd be sneaking around, two, even if I went with the intention of being an observer, I'm afraid I couldn't help myself. Well, I'm 99.8% sure I won't go, but that other .2% isn't so sure. I think 1.8Tsunami should go and tell me/us all about it.
In my opinion, wait until your partner can make it and try to convince him to come along with you.
I could be wrong, but i think it won't be a big orgy thing. I think you'll just be watching people have sex on a stage...
Once again, if I were you, I would go with my partner. I think it would be a great experience to share together if you really want to go.
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so tell me more about your friend I might make it there but I'm trying to keep the spontaneous trips to a minimun.
Ron . . . 41, 6'2", and 240 when he is not competing, single, just on the back end of a cut (is at the NPC Teen, Collegiate, and Masters Nationals this weekend), a chest that is God's gift to gay men everywhere . . . ;-) , total sweetheart. And . . . I have a standing invitation when I am there to workout and have dinner, so hands off :-D, LOL.
A guy from atl on BM suggested that I should go to this pool party. Anyone been before? Daryll27? He sent me this youtube vid b/c I had never heard of it..check it out.
I've been. It's fun but absolutely nothing you should waste a plane ticket on. IMHO, Atlanta's gay scene is now but a mere shadow of its former glory days. Backstreet was my "coming out" bar.
Note to self: Make sure your first experience is not an "underwear & flashlights night". Woops!
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It was nice to hear Obama address the NAACP and say that people should not be discriminated against for who they love. He mentioned discrimination still existing against gays explicitly. It was nice to hear the president come out and call it as it is. So there is hope for future generations...
LR3? Are you back from China?
What are you doing the weekend of Aug. 21?
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TWILOMIKE, thank you for being such a sweet friend. I'll never forget you. Glitter kisses, angel.
This brings up a dilemma I'm having...it shouldn't be a dilemma at all except that I'm so intrigued. I was chatting earlier this week with an old acquaintance that I haven't seen in about 12 years. He invited me to Eros sometime this weekend. I thought it was a bar/club, but it's a sex club. I didn't know such places existed. He explained how it is different from a bath house. I've never been to one of those either. Anyway...my partner will be working (evenings) this weekend, and he definitely wouldn't approve of me going. I'm so intrigued about this place that I'm considering going without telling him. One, I'd be sneaking around, two, even if I went with the intention of being an observer, I'm afraid I couldn't help myself. Well, I'm 99.8% sure I won't go, but that other .2% isn't so sure. I think 1.8Tsunami should go and tell me/us all about it.
NO, NO, NO....don't do it. I'm a voyeur as well, but there are other, safer and more discreet ways to "scratch that itch".
Hell, just come to my gym on a Saturday afternoon. The wet areas are so cruisy that it is offcially noted in the Damron guide. *shakes head with disapproval*
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TWILOMIKE, thank you for being such a sweet friend. I'll never forget you. Glitter kisses, angel.
NO, NO, NO....don't do it. I'm a voyeur as well, but there are other, safer and more discreet ways to "scratch that itch".
Hell, just come to my gym on a Saturday afternoon. The wet areas are so cruisy that it is offcially noted in the Damron guide. *shakes head with disapproval*
Ok then, it's settled...I'm keeping my azz at home and out of trouble!
Atlanta has an Eagle bar (leather/bear bar). When I was younger I loved watching the displays with guys strapped to the wooden cross getting flogged and the boot licking in the dark corners. It's all so silly, but erotic at the same time.
Ok then, it's settled...I'm keeping my azz at home and out of trouble!
Atlanta has an Eagle bar (leather/bear bar). When I was younger I loved watching the displays with guys strapped to the wooden cross getting flogged and the boot licking in the dark corners. It's all so silly, but erotic at the same time.
Hahaha wise decision!
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Subject line says it all. B and I are done. Last night we had one of those "Where is this relationship going?" talks, and I found out that he does not love me. He doesn't even like me. He thinks I'm "disturbing", especially my accent. Apparently he knows a lot of people who know me, some of whom I have approached about my shows, and they think I'm a flake. They told him that he shouldn't be friends with me for this reason.
He would look past that but he also said that because we're so much alike and I'm at the same place in my life as he is in his, it's depressing him. He admitted to avoiding me, including his attempt to run off to Chicago Pride even though he knew I wanted to go. He said he was "embarassed" by me and would be uncomfortable if I met his friends. Another problem he has is my dubious taste in clothes. News to me that black shoes (my only pair) don't go with white socks, *especially* in the summer. He compared it to wearing black shoes and a brown purse. Also has a problem with every shirt he's seen me in - either old, or faded, or the hem is destroyed - really trite sh*t like that. And he never made an attempt to show me how to dress appropriately.
He also says he does not like me. He tried, but my accent, though well-developed for MY benefit, is too disturbing. Disturbing because I made an effort to acquire it, as if to impress people. When you're from another country, people expect you to have that accent; his friends know it's fake and they laugh about it. He even admitted to describing me in the most unflattering of terms to his friends. So I told him that his lack of structure and lack of respect was unacceptable, and that I deserved a better friend.
So our relationship has ended. I was getting the distinct impression that he was avoiding me, and it turns out I was right. But I told him I was very happy to have known him and if he feels that he went too far by telling me all this and wants to apologise, I would listen. I tried to save face, but once we said goodbye, I let the tears flow. I haven't cried like that since Bobby and I split up. Eventually I figured out that Brian is not someone I want for a friend. I cleaned my face a little, looked in the mirror and said "Scott, not one more tear. He does not deserve a unique guy like you." Still, I can't help but feel a little regret over the loss. He was my closest gay friend.
How does that Robert Frost poem go? "And when from the heart of man was it any less of a treason/ To bow and accept the end of a love or of a season." Something like that. How ironic that I thought of it yesterday morning.
I really needed to talk about that. Obviously I can't go back to the poof bar since, according to Brian, they are laughing at me and my shoes and my accent, and I'm only making an ass of myself. How will I come out now without someone nearby to help me through it?
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Ummm....so what's the story with your accent? What kind of accent is it?
Bottom line: Brian's loss.
You seem a bit eccentric or just plain bizarre, but at least you're an original. Time to invest in friendships and career. Get a job in Chicago and move out of that horrible place. There will be a million gay boys and you can leave high school back in Rockford. You're weird, which I always like, but you just need to find your niche and it's not going to be that hicktown.
PS: Next time why not let a dude pursue you for a change.
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TWILOMIKE, thank you for being such a sweet friend. I'll never forget you. Glitter kisses, angel.
In unrelated news... I just checked the last people who viewed my bodyspace. I must say, I found it quite interesting. Seeing the thread usuals in there is normal and expected. What was odd/scary/somewhat disturbing is seeing people that don't post in this thread, are twice my age, and say they have families (wife/children) in their profile.
I guess I used to surf through profiles before I started posting here. However, considering this is the only thread that links back to my profile, I find the situation interesting...
Well, to get my mind off it, I'm just going to make myself believe that my stats and AV are inspiring to them...
Ummm....so what's the story with your accent? What kind of accent?
It's an English accent. Story is that I was born in Liverpool to American parents and raised in the US. Dissatisfied with the redneck accent of Rockford and its unattractive qualities, combined with my birthplace, I chose to adopt that accent. I preferred it. And I practiced it and studied it until I had it. Now it's second nature. It's not just a put-on, something I can use as I deem fit. It is unnatural but it's part of who I am. If you meet a guy born in Mexico, you expect him to know Spanish, yes? I just conformed to what people expect.
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You seem a bit eccentric or just plain bizarre, but at least you're an original. Time to invest in friendships and career. Get a job in Chicago and move out of that horrible place. There will be a million gay boys and you can leave high school back in Rockford. You're weird, which I always like, but you just need to find your niche and it's not going to be that hicktown.
PS: Next time why not let a dude persue you for a change.
Haha, that would be nice. But the dudes who have pursued me are not people that I like. I try to be friendly but they each had traits that were major turnoffs. Don't care to list them, but I decided that my going after others was a little more ... active. Before that I never played an active part in the relationship and if I don't make things happen, nothing will happen.
I would love to get away, if only I didn't have a reputation in the theatres of Chicago. Brian can sod off - it really is his loss, no matter how unusual I may be. He really mishandled that.
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Based on what I saw, I'd say go and have a good time.
so tell me more about your friend 
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