Makin' Me Over : A Girl on Keto

[swtpsblty]

*smile* Hey all.

Today I've hung my hat as a lurker who, btw, reads these threads as if my life depends on it and decided to introduce myself. This keto community is such a rich resource of support and knowledge.. and that's great because for someone who has been trying really hard, I was - in all ways possible - a ketard. <3

That being said, there really aren't many females posting about keto right now. The few wonderful gals that do have been like a beacon of light to me. Seriously because I have accepted that the whole "regular" diet thing just isn't working out for me ( more about that later ) and I needed proof that women were out there and that it worked for them too.

So here I am, adding to the pool of XX's in Keto Land.

So..intro to me -

Wordy Snapshot:
5'3, over 200 lbs and not happy about it.

Currently:
*205 lbs as of the morning of March 11, 2009. This is Week 2, day 10 of doing Keto - correctly that is (more about that later as well, haha)

Diet:
1500 cals - broken up into 65/30/5 - that is -

Fat: 108 g
Protein: 112 g
Carbs: 18 g

These numbers are my basic guideline although - hmm - I've read that I'm supposed to match grams of protein to my lbs of lean body mass...

Workouts: (general)
Cardio: 6 days a week
Strength Training: 4 days a week

I also instruct Kickboxing for 1 hr, Abs for 1 hr, and Bootcamp for 1 hr once a week on Tuesday and Wednesdays nights at my University. Don't scoff, I'm actually pretty good :-P



Truth of the matter is I love working out. I love the fitness world and all that. In fact, my goals don't only include Losing Weight. I want to become really fit and train people for a living (1 of my 2 BIG goals. It's that and get accepted into medical school).
I read this stuff a lot and want to stop being on the outside looking in. My reasons are plenty, my motivation is back to *very* high, and I am staying away from Cold Stone's Creamery whose ice cream will be the death of me.. or @ least my keto experience.

I used to be pretty active on BB.com last year and in between drowning in classes and sucking at life, I pulled away from the site. But trying on my own hasn't brought my weight down. Sure I do more in the gym but something was just wrong.

My diet of course.

To my horror, not only did I somehow end up over 200, I was stuck between 208 and 210 no matter what I did. Dehydrated, I'd be at 206.5. Without fail. 206.5. I stopped being happy seeing 206.5 about 2 months ago now. I would just mentally grunt and think.. "I'm thirsty". *frown*

To see 205 today may not be a big deal at face value but its *huge* to me. 205 came with the strict change I made 1.5 weeks ago. I thought I was doing Keto correctly starting in Jan. LOL and by correctly, I mean avoid carbs, eat whatever was free game however often I'd like. Except one, my calorie count was kind of ridiculous and two, atkins bar are not FREE GAME. Its depressing to feel like you're just stuck no matter what you do.

A week and a half ago, I revamped my routine, wrote out the diet as simply as possible (noticing my notable past errors) and spent a small fortune in the supermarket grabbing

Eggs, Beef, Tuna, Chicken (Tyson Natural..that don't skimp on fat)
Salad, Broccoli
Skippy's Natural Peanut Butter, regular butter
Mayo
EAS Carb Control Protein Shakes
Crystal Light Packets and Lots. of Water.


There is this app on the iPod Touch (or iPhone) called Lose It. It's free and its super handy in helping me count the macros I want and logging my workouts.. so no I don't have Fit Day but I'm watching carefully anyway.

Oh and before my workouts I usually down Hydroxycut Max and a bottle of water because its the only supp that I've taken that not only boosts my energy (or so I think - I really like the ads. Thats right. Marketing totally works on me). I don't feel on edge or like I need to birth my small intestine every time I take it like a few others I've tried. Yeah I said it.



So that's me. I'll go into my workouts and my Keep It Super Simple diet pretty soon. I welcome your inputs and all because I have my heart set on transforming this body of mine.

Thx for reading <3

[jecristragedy]

lol, marketing totally gets me too. about to start p90x
used to take hydroxycut hardcore it actually worked really well for me. it raised my temp a LOT and kinda gave me jitters, but i liked it cause i knew it was working.

anyway, looking good. congratulations on breaking your evil number of 206.5! i know its a lot trust me, when i hit 149 a year or so ago i wanted to throw a party. it was 1lb lighter than id been in several years but it felt like 20lbs.

oh, BTW-- for what its worth, you do NOT look anywhere near your weight for bein 5'3" you hide it very well cause if i had to guess id put you like 40lbs lighter lol

[anniesbay]

Hey there! Welcome. We're really starting to increase the estrogen around these parts. Good cuz women have different needs and experiences and we need to know that our progress (or lack there of sometimes) is normal.

You teach some great classes so it sounds like you are fairly fit. I bet you have more muscle than you realize.

I also think it's going to be an asset for you to conquer this thing and then become a doctor and trainer. You will really be able to relate to your patients/clients. I get annoyed by all the people in the industry who have been athletes all their lives, never had a weight problem or a motivation problem because they've always had coaches, trainers, parents to drive them to their meets/games, etc.

Look forward to reading your log. You should definitely take pictures and share them, they really help you see your progress (even if you can't see, other people can and will tell you).

[swtpsblty]

Originally Posted by jecristragedy

oh, BTW-- for what its worth, you do NOT look anywhere near your weight for bein 5'3" you hide it very well cause if i had to guess id put you like 40lbs lighter lol

What a *nice* thing to say! LOL reminds me of this guy - he's a trainer and he was guessing my weight (always a good thing to try with women *scoffs*) and he guessed 40 lbs lighter as well. NATURALLY I wasnt about to beat him over the head with the facts. *polishes her halo*

and yes - my evil number..its so great that you understand. I thought that my scale had some kind of hex or something

btw - hydroxycut hardcore? Alot of women commented on it making them super jittery .. I had tried the Max primarily and was happy about it so I stuck with that. It's just nice to know that I'm not the only one swayed by pretty pictures and bold print *smile*


thanks for the welcome and the reply - its great to meet ya!

[swtpsblty]

Originally Posted by anniesbay

Hey there! Welcome. We're really starting to increase the estrogen around these parts. Good cuz women have different needs and experiences and we need to know that our progress (or lack there of sometimes) is normal.

You teach some great classes so it sounds like you are fairly fit. I bet you have more muscle than you realize.

I also think it's going to be an asset for you to conquer this thing and then become a doctor and trainer. You will really be able to relate to your patients/clients. I get annoyed by all the people in the industry who have been athletes all their lives, never had a weight problem or a motivation problem because they've always had coaches, trainers, parents to drive them to their meets/games, etc.

Look forward to reading your log. You should definitely take pictures and share them, they really help you see your progress (even if you can't see, other people can and will tell you).

Hey Annie - I completely agree with you on so much of this.. Women do work differently and no matter how much I read about the guys and their progress, I needed the women's input. Different issues, different thresholds, just.. different.
And LOL - I know alot of the people who have never had the weight issues. Ever. For me it's been a life long struggle. Sometimes it feels like if I SMELL a food, I gain five lbs. So yes - I feel I can really relate to certain people..

I'll be taking pictures soon..when I'm ready, I'll post. Scouts honor. I'm just not there yet - I'm taking them though!

And about muscle - I believe I should have some muscle mass by now because if not, that'd just be crazy. The work I do in those classes are pretty taxing. For some reason, I'm in love with intensity so I push hard in and out of the weight room.

The generous coating of fat isn't doing me any favors though :-T

Its great to meet ya - looking forward to progressing with you guys!

[swtpsblty]

It's early in the AM and I haven't hit the gym yet. I'm looking at my abysmal schedule for today and I figure it's one of those days I just need to get through.

Anyway, yesterday's diet looked pretty much like every day's diet for me as of late.

Breakfast- 3 hard boiled eggs + 1 tablespoon o' mayo
Lunch - 3 servings of Tyson's all natural wings
Post Workout Protein Shake
Dinner - Tuna Salad
Snacks - 1 serving (2 tablespoons of Peanut Butter)

That works out to 105 grams of fat, 10 grams of Carbs, and 126 grams of Protein.

:-T I know... I need to get some greens in there. It is my goal to have some salad with my lunch and broccoli with my dinner *polishes halo*

Yesterday was insanely busy so my workout consisted of the Boot Camp class I instructed for an hour and some kickboxing drills which lasted about 20 minutes.

This is good but conscience nags me because I'm scheduled for an AM elliptical on Wednesday mornings which is always within 45 min/500 cals. I should let it go but I can't because the whole point in writing down everything in simple terms, logging, using my techie gadget stuff is to induce the progress that I so long for.

That being said, today I'm scheduled for upper body + abs + elliptical.

I also have a Bio Test tonight at 8:30 so most likely this workout will happen tonight after the exam. I'll return with updates then!

Have a great day everyone!

[triptizine]

subbed.. u go girl

Good to see more girls about!

[thesilent1]

hey chick; all the best and keep trucking.

[gardens]

I don't even follow the keto diet (being a vegan, it would be hard) but I think that the keto logs are some of the most interesting and consistent training diaries on these forums. I really wish you the best on every one of your fitness endeavors. You seem to have the right attitude and I think you will achieve amazing results. <3

[boorsey]

Good luck! I subbed, so I'll be pulling for you!

[thesilent1]

Originally Posted by gardens

I don't even follow the keto diet (being a vegan, it would be hard) but I think that the keto logs are some of the most interesting and consistent training diaries on these forums. I really wish you the best on every one of your fitness endeavors. You seem to have the right attitude and I think you will achieve amazing results. <3

That's probably cos we are fatter than the rest of the forum............. LOL

[TikiCabales]

Originally Posted by swtpsblty

Anyway, yesterday's diet looked pretty much like every day's diet for me as of late.

Breakfast- 3 hard boiled eggs + 1 tablespoon o' mayo
Lunch - 3 servings of Tyson's all natural wings
Post Workout Protein Shake
Dinner - Tuna Salad
Snacks - 1 serving (2 tablespoons of Peanut Butter)

That works out to 105 grams of fat, 10 grams of Carbs, and 126 grams of Protein.

Hey Girlie, I hope all is well.

Try getting in 25-30g of protein "per meal" (including snacks) which will bring your protein to 125-150g for the day. And rather than eating 2tbs of NPB in a single sitting, split it up. Example of what you could do is: add Two Protein Shakes to your day (Protein shake w/ 1tbs NPB); one post workout and another for your evening snack.

I'm Here To Cheer You On!

[swtpsblty]

It's friday night and even typing this right now is taking will power. Last night's exam didn't go so well and by not "well" I mean it drop kicked my morale and I'm on my 2nd day of feeling very very low.

On the grand scheme of things its just one test but in order to be competitive, I need to have grades that swell the hearts of admissions committees everywhere. Or at least not send me to the automatic reject pile.

Why does that matter? Last night was an unofficial off day. I didn't go to the gym .. I came home, buried my face into a pillow and ignored my ringing cell phone.

Today, I DID go to the gym.
Here's what I did.

*Accelerated Weight Training
(Picked this up from Muscle and Fitness HERS. Basically you do a set and instead of resting in between, you do some form of cardio and keep your HR up. I wear a HR monitor/watch to keep an eye on my progress)

these * notate my commentary
these [brackets] notate the cardio i did btwn each set.


Pushups (knees) - 3 sets of 8
[2-steps high run for 30 seconds]

DB Chest Press - 4 sets. weights: 10/15/15/20 reps: 12/8/8/8
[step run]

DB Fly - 3 sets. weights: 10 lbs reps 8
[step run]
*oh snap.. champ face. Enough with the step runs, I feel like throwing up.

DB Shoulder Press - 3 sets. weights: 10 lbs reps: 8
*getting stronger here.. these are usually tougher
[side kicks/12 each side]

DB Tri. Extension- 3 sets. weights: 10 lbs reps: 8
* totally felt up my arms on this bc this is now a piece of cake and my arms feel strong. tee hee
[side kicks]

Low Row (machine) weights: 40/50/*60 reps: 8
* 60 lbs was my sweet spot. Not too much but a challenge. felt great
[side kicks]

Lat Pulldown (machine)- weights: 40/50/60 reps: 12/8/8
[side kicks]

Pushups (regular) - 3 sets of 8
[step run]


then

Elliptical - 43 min, 500 cals

For the record, that whole cardio between sets thing is a great concept and everything but it's *really* tough
It requires you to really focus and not just drop and die
Breathing is critical because if you don't watch it, you compromise form.
:-/

Tonight was tough and usually I'm happy about that but I had to fight my distraction about what I was gunna do about that test grade



Nutrition wasn't too hot either

Yesterday- 2,725 cals. 210 g of fat, 25 g carbs, 151 g of protein. *blinks*

- 3 hardboiled eggs + 1 tablespoon o' Mayo

didn't eat again til I escaped the library @ 7 pm-ish right before my test
to grab a

- diet orange sunkist, 4 atkins bars, and 2 little packages of beef snack bites. those little packages ended up being about 1000 calories. I have choice words but I'll watch my lingo.
(I know..not the greatest combo at all but it was either that or ice cream.)

I came home, devastated, and went to sleep.


Today - 1113 cals, 70 g fat, 5 g carbs, 102 g protein.
Still upset, I forgot I was boiling eggs till that tell tale pop of burning eggs snapped me out of it.

- Lunch - 1 can of tuna, mayo. 1 bowl of Salad and a delightful tablespoon of dressing. <3

- Pre workout Protein Shake

- Dinner - 3 servings Tyson Natural Chicken Wings, Salad + dressing.



Voila.

:-/ meh.

[anniesbay]

Originally Posted by swtpsblty

It's friday night and even typing this right now is taking will power. Last night's exam didn't go so well and by not "well" I mean it drop kicked my morale and I'm on my 2nd day of feeling very very low.

On the grand scheme of things its just one test but in order to be competitive, I need to have grades that swell the hearts of admissions committees everywhere. Or at least not send me to the automatic reject pile.

Why does that matter? Last night was an unofficial off day. I didn't go to the gym .. I came home, buried my face into a pillow and ignored my ringing cell phone.

I'm sorry to hear about your exam but take a tip from top athletes, coaches, etc. Take a moment to feel bad, think about how you can do better next time and MOVE ON. Tell yourself you're not allowed to dwell on it. Think about all the games that would just stall and be lost if the athlete sat down and wallowed in the misery of missing a shot at the goal? Ok, so don't ask me if I practice what I preach but....

Originally Posted by swtpsblty

Today, I DID go to the gym.
Here's what I did.

*Accelerated Weight Training
(Picked this up from Muscle and Fitness HERS. Basically you do a set and instead of resting in between, you do some form of cardio and keep your HR up. I wear a HR monitor/watch to keep an eye on my progress)

these * notate my commentary
these [brackets] notate the cardio i did btwn each set.


Pushups (knees) - 3 sets of 8
[2-steps high run for 30 seconds]

DB Chest Press - 4 sets. weights: 10/15/15/20 reps: 12/8/8/8
[step run]

DB Fly - 3 sets. weights: 10 lbs reps 8
[step run]
*oh snap.. champ face. Enough with the step runs, I feel like throwing up.

DB Shoulder Press - 3 sets. weights: 10 lbs reps: 8
*getting stronger here.. these are usually tougher
[side kicks/12 each side]

DB Tri. Extension- 3 sets. weights: 10 lbs reps: 8
* totally felt up my arms on this bc this is now a piece of cake and my arms feel strong. tee hee
[side kicks]

Low Row (machine) weights: 40/50/*60 reps: 8
* 60 lbs was my sweet spot. Not too much but a challenge. felt great
[side kicks]

Lat Pulldown (machine)- weights: 40/50/60 reps: 12/8/8
[side kicks]

Pushups (regular) - 3 sets of 8
[step run]


then

Elliptical - 43 min, 500 cals

For the record, that whole cardio between sets thing is a great concept and everything but it's *really* tough
It requires you to really focus and not just drop and die
Breathing is critical because if you don't watch it, you compromise form.
:-/

That sounds like a fun, kickass workout. That had to help you feel a little better right?

Originally Posted by swtpsblty

Tonight was tough and usually I'm happy about that but I had to fight my distraction about what I was gunna do about that test grade



Nutrition wasn't too hot either

Yesterday- 2,725 cals. 210 g of fat, 25 g carbs, 151 g of protein. *blinks*

- 3 hardboiled eggs + 1 tablespoon o' Mayo

didn't eat again til I escaped the library @ 7 pm-ish right before my test
to grab a

- diet orange sunkist, 4 atkins bars, and 2 little packages of beef snack bites. those little packages ended up being about 1000 calories. I have choice words but I'll watch my lingo.
(I know..not the greatest combo at all but it was either that or ice cream.)

I came home, devastated, and went to sleep.

Again, don't dwell on it. I used to have one of these days once a week, and of course they involved lots more carbs. Now I have one of these every two weeks. They don't impact you as badly anymore now that you are on the diet and doing the workouts. Feel good about that!

Originally Posted by swtpsblty

Today - 1113 cals, 70 g fat, 5 g carbs, 102 g protein.
Still upset, I forgot I was boiling eggs till that tell tale pop of burning eggs snapped me out of it.

- Lunch - 1 can of tuna, mayo. 1 bowl of Salad and a delightful tablespoon of dressing. <3

- Pre workout Protein Shake

- Dinner - 3 servings Tyson Natural Chicken Wings, Salad + dressing.

Ahaha, yes, I've done that with eggs too. But I don't realize until Fritz yells at me: "G--D--n it Heather, you did it again! Stop reading the d--n keto forum and clean up this mess!"

You balanced out your binge at least. I'm sure others would tell you this isn't what you should do either but I do it. or I try. Ok, so I expect you to be smiling and studying.



Voila.

:-/ meh.[/QUOTE]

[swtpsblty]

well well well.

It is the "morning after" so to speak after a horrendous day of excruciating pain and nausea. Such pain, delivered with chills scared me so badly, I hobbled into my car and drove myself into the emergency room last night. Notable because I never do that. I was sick from 4 am yesterday morning. An entire day passed and I didn't improve
I cried, not because I hurt but because I was alone. I was paranoid after throwing up for the 2nd time and finding no actual relief. Last but not least, I was plain scared.

However, throughout that entire ordeal, I had a few "look back and at least chuckle" moments. I don't feel as bad as I did yesterday but I still don't feel well.

I have some highlights.

- *thought process* I don't want to throw up. It is vile and scary. Last time I threw up, I wore patent leather mary janes and pig tails. wtf is this feeling? oh god. Those poor cancer patients..is this how they feel on treatment? what if that happens to me? What about pregnancy? some people do that on purpose! ... oh em gee. octomom!!!!

- Google: pepto bismol
*remembers the new Cherry commercials*
Does that actually work? I strongly believed my DON'T MOVE mantra helped. CVS is literally right there from my apt.
I drove.
Deep breathing and lots of self help tips helped me do it.

- Swigs a shot of pepto in the car. Turns box around to find out if that sweetness was coming from High Fructose Corn Syrup. Secretly satisfied that it was sucralose. Thats right, I wanted to know if in the midst of my agony if Cherry Pepto was going to kick me out of ketosis.

- 15 minutes later, the NEW Cherry Pepto tastes exactly the same coming back up.

- *thought process* I need to get to a hospital. If I call an ambulance, that'll be way too much drama. This is bad but..no..I'd have to clean up before they get here. I can't.. *moms voice nagging from when I was a kid - "clean socks and underwear! what if you need to be brought to the hospital!!! CLEAN SOCKS AND UNDERWEAR!!!!"*

- Standing up straight was very hard work.
I got my clean socks and underwear anyway. More deep breathing helped me brush my hair and fix myself up a bit so I would look somewhat presentable. Sick or not, hospital is swarming with med students and doctors I might harrass for guidance a few weeks down the line when I volunteer.

Who am I kidding. Some are hot. You never know where you meet your future husband.

- Right lane, drive slowly, breathe deeply, don't die. Repeat all the way there.

- 3.5 hours later in the waiting room, I am allowed in. *wipe a tear* ... ooh he's hot. *wipe more tears* so is he.. is that my dr? Cheap thrills.. I'll take em.

- Lots of waiting between tests and treatment. Between being horrified, in extreme pain with those hour lapses when they would go "quickly get something" I think of my keto log. I think of the pain I feel during intense exercise and highly prefer that. I wonder if these pretzels and bread and bananas nurses kept mentioning is actually necessary. Flat ginger ale? Same difference if its diet? just a question.

- Spent the night in the ER. That morphine stuff seems to be magic. Slowly walk to the garage to see some idiot's hazard lights blinking. Poor person. Thats gunna suck when they get to their car and.. it.doesn't...

it's my car.


- *blink*
must of left them on in my delirium from pain. don't know how. eff.


- Security guard who made no secret of hitting on me is the one that gets campus police to come and gimme a jump.
He must be able to tell I clean up nice bc by this point, I was a mess, greatful for oversized sweats and sneakers.



All this to say..did I exercise yesterday? no. And my cals? Not a bite.

But the day before I DID run two miles and an hour of calisthenics.

Since my face is turning green again, I'll stop here..
I want to get back into my routine so that I can be unreasonably hot and coyly flip my hair in that same ER a few months from now.. just as a volunteer..NOT on a gurney.


ah. priorities.

[anniesbay]

Wow, what an experience. Is it bad that I had fun reading that???

So, what was/is wrong with you? I love how keto is running through your mind as you may be dying. Most people would welcome the chance for doughnuts...oh god, i hope that didn't make you gag.

[queloque]

Wow.

Have you thought of writing a 1st person novel? That was a good read.

Hope you get better.

[swtpsblty]

Originally Posted by anniesbay

Wow, what an experience. Is it bad that I had fun reading that???

So, what was/is wrong with you? I love how keto is running through your mind as you may be dying. Most people would welcome the chance for doughnuts...oh god, i hope that didn't make you gag.

lol nah it's not bad. I know that I can be quite ridiculous even in situations like that.

The (2nd) doctor that I saw today told me I got some kind of inflammation in my tummy due to a virus. I thought it was food borne but it actually isn't. So yeah reading donut didn't make me whoop for joy :-P

My appetite left entirely and he says thats common and to take eating again slowly. I told him I was low carbing and he said jsut make sure I take it easy or I will most likely throw up. Funny enough fatty and spicy things being on top of the list..

I started sipping soup tonight.. mostly chicken broth and soft veggies. I jsut wonder if I can workout ..even if it isn't as intense because I have a problem with falling off the wagon. I tend to fall off and take forever to get back on.

Originally Posted by queloque

Wow.

Have you thought of writing a 1st person novel? That was a good read.

Hope you get better.

lol a book..sometimes. A novel - I never gave that a real thought but I'm glad you enjoyed reading it. At least my 'adventures' were not all for naught *smile* thank you for the well wishes <3

[anniesbay]

hi I'm just checking in with you to make sure you're ok??? I know we laughed at your post but you sound quite sick. check in soon please.

[swtpsblty]

Originally Posted by anniesbay

hi I'm just checking in with you to make sure you're ok??? I know we laughed at your post but you sound quite sick. check in soon please.

*weak wave*

Hi there yes I'm alive and kicking. sort of.
I'm still not feeling great but I'm loads better from last week. I just got home from classes and teaching two fitness classes in which I had to feign strength bc the reality is I feel very weak and willing nausea away isn't very motivating.
Nevertheless kickboxing (1 hr) and abs (1 hr) was amazing. I put my mind into it and they felt it lol

I suppose I haven't been on keto because I was living on soup for the past few days. Although the carb count wasn't incredibly high, it was there. A few days off in the gym.. I went back on Saturday for a 2 mile run, Sunday was an 1.5 hrs of plyo/calisthenics. Yesterday (monday) was off and today I did the same exact upper body workout I did last time (too tired to list it right now) except I used my weighted jumprope between each and every set. I swear sheer will pulled me through all that activity today.

Some guy at the gym was like "you're jumping too fast".

sue me. :-P

anyway I missed my keto peeps. I'm gunna grab some dinner and start perusing through your logs to see what you've been up to.

Also, I have been doing some reading on Lyle McDonald's webpage. Thats some quality info - I only just realized why people have to eat so much to build muscle. But then I guess that means I need to focus on fat loss as much as possible before worrying about cals needed for building muscle.
But then..does that mean lifting weights the way I do is a waste of time?

I hope not.. I don't intend to stop. I feel badass lifting weights lol

Alright.. thats all for now. I need food.

[swtpsblty]

So it's Thursday in the AM and I just wanted to quickly share what I've been up to.

Yesterday for exercise I instructed (and fully participated) in a high amp boot camp workout which lasted 1 hr. To eat

B- 3 hard boiled eggs
L- 2 servings spicy chicken wings, 1 medium bowl of salad with reg. dressing
D- 2 burger patties which.. actually needed fat.
S- 1 serving natural peanut butter (i was jonesin' for sweetness and this is the closest I allowed myself


Today - I'm boiled my eggs now for an egg salad
just came in from my AM workout which was 500 cals on the elliptical in 45 min.
I plan to pump some iron tonight.


__________________________________________________ __________

and what thoughts would I like to share today (can you tell I'm wordy in real life? haha)

- this morning, a woman asked me for help in the weight room. People don't know they make my day asking me this stuff bc 1. why ask me specifically? this happens alot.. I must have an "I know what I'm doing" face on. 2. I love talking fitness and 3. hands on pt training *smile*

- last night in class a few girls who have noticeably less body fat than I do came up to me, gasping for dear life and exclaiming something about me being fit. I understood what they meant of course (my being able to do those exercises without toppling over AND with pep+smile lol) but the part of me who is still kicking herself for the excess bf% and recurring failures couldn't help but be bewildered.

- people that I don't recognize, recognize me from the classes I teach. It's crazy because usually people smile and are friendly which works bc I am that way myself. But last night by the elevator these 2 girls were talking and eyeing me to the point that I was uncomfortable (do I stink post workout and don't know it or something? I'm super careful about things like that..) and finally spoke up "hey ... are you that girl who teaches the classes?"
"yes"
and in came a burst of questions that were to be answered before we hit the 2nd floor.

last but not least

- In my abnormal psych class, we were going through eating disorders and were watching clips from this HBO documentary. It was really eye opening and heart breaking to see the emotional and physical pain people go through. Maybe I just have a soft spot for those suffering with body image bc I know what it's like to feel very bad about what I look like

but these 2 girls next to me couldn't put a lid on their fits of giggles. The harder the girl on the screen cried, the more they crooned in amusement. They didn't try to hide a bit of the mockery either. You could feel the tension amongst the students around the area who saw nothing funny about it.
Insensitivity? Immaturity? Whatevs.. I was just surprised about how annoyed I became..so quickly at that. I'm usually very laid back about most things..

I know I wasn't the only one who wouldn't mind if someone wanted to punch 'em.

I guess I just don't see anything funny about someone being on her death bed due to self inflicted emaciation and devastation bc she's convinced she's still fat. Perhaps as I'm growing up and learning more about the mind- even if I don't relate to the disorder, I understand that the mind is either your biggest ally, or biggest enemy. You can weigh 75 lbs - if you're convinced you're a whale, people telling you otherwise is a whole lot of lip service.

:-(

/rant

this is why I "train" my brain. There were times last year that I was sincerely convinced diet and exercise couldn't possibly work for me bc even with the law of thermodynamics and what not, seeing little change was 'evidence' that I was supposedly different. I'm not. Weak morale is detrimental to progress. What you think has everything to do with your success. Support helps reinforce the positive things you know..helps you see what you can't see .. all stuff to do with your mind.

This is why writing stuff down rocks. If I didn't, I wouldn't notice all the things I am able to do now that I couldn't do in the past. Want to talk about evidence
- much lower and wonderfully consistent blood pressure for me - a girl whose parents and grandparents are all hypertensive (and 2 grandparents are diabetic). This matters bc at some point my dr was letting me know I better get ready for life on meds bc I was getting there..
- running, jumping, bringing it in the weight room.. significant progress in performance means obviously I'm not 'broken' physiologically. I clearly remember the time when I would try and was so weak, I wondered if I ever could really do it.



Anyway..I have to get to breakfast and practice piano before class

Here's to all of you
Especially those who read these essays of mine. haha

Talk soon
;-)

[kremost]

Hey there! Another woman on keto here. How are you hanging in there?

As someone who's trying to lose weight as well, I'm wondering if maybe you're not eating enough? There's a method to calculate your required caloric intake somewhere, maybe you should try going by that. I ask because you say that you have difficulty losing weight, and I used to have the same problem. I used to eat like ...as little as I could without going hungry, and I used to avoid fat like it was a curse (this was before I started keto). However, I didn't lose any weight at all that way. When I started keto I learned not to fear the fat (60/35/5 fat/protein/carbs is my guideline now), and it took me a while to sort of correctly balance my meals, but when I did the weight really started coming off. It's strange but eating more actually enables you to lose weight!

Best of luck to you!

[swtpsblty]

Hey kremost - I appreciate your reading my mind! I suspect you are exactly correct

which is funny bc I came on here to post my little experiment for this week

I was thinking back to the last time I successfully lost weight. It was a significant amount.. between 30 and 40 lbs. I was a whole lot less knowledgable then about this .. I had done Atkins

I remember not having much money for heavy duty shopping so I didnt my best with buying cheaper, fattier pieces of steak and stuff like that. After work every day I would go to the gym and do 30-45 min on the elliptical (thats LISS..am I right?) and I did hit the weight room about 3 times a week.
Before i knew it, I was losing weight.

I dont remember paying attention to the scale much enough to know when the lbs started dropping

but anyway I am doing alot of activity and I think I'm going to adjust - just for this week. I'll hit the elliptical daily in the AM and up my fat and protein intake some. I'm going to cut the little nuances like Crystal Light and peanut butter for this week. Oh and I'm gunna trick myself into getting in more greens

I truly suspect this will make the scale tip for me. I don't feel I'm at a low enough weight at all for me to not see numbers drop. From what I know, that tends to happen for me around 160ish.

For the longest time, I was eating too much protein, just about no fat..
Now that I'm feeling better from last week's nasty bug and eating right, my energy has picked way up

So lets see, if I'm a good girl this week, what happens.

I can't help but be excited. but anyway
we'll see

Kremost thanks a million and a bunch for your input.

Stay tuned everyone

[thesilent1]

Hey chick, Hope you have a great week ahead!

[swtpsblty]

Originally Posted by thesilent1

Hey chick, Hope you have a great week ahead!

Thank you! I do suspect that I will have one :-D
I hope you do too!

[swtpsblty]

so...when did I go good shopping and tweak my intake a bit? .. what was that, Thursday night?

Its Sunday

I ate more fat and now I'm down to 204?

1 lb down from the cursed 205
though last I checked it was 206.5

... Even if it's water or whatever
I'm ecstatic.

Seriously.. the scale has not budged for months and now it's inching down.. this is so wonderful for morale. No seriously, it just wasn't happening unless it was gagging at a higher number

Last time I saw 204, I had just started tipping over 200.. in horror. It was one of my inching UP numbers. I remember it all starting at 170 and me saying "at least I'm not 180" all the way up to "at least I'm not 200"

Then one fateful day I was 204

THAT was a very bad day.

THIS, on the other hand, is the start of a great one.

Funny how context changes things.

I'm headed to the gym. I've got lbs to burn.

tee hee!

[boorsey]

Originally Posted by swtpsblty

so...when did I go good shopping and tweak my intake a bit? .. what was that, Thursday night?

Its Sunday

I ate more fat and now I'm down to 204?

1 lb down from the cursed 205
though last I checked it was 206.5

... Even if it's water or whatever
I'm ecstatic.

Seriously.. the scale has not budged for months and now it's inching down.. this is so wonderful for morale. No seriously, it just wasn't happening unless it was gagging at a higher number

Last time I saw 204, I had just started tipping over 200.. in horror. It was one of my inching UP numbers. I remember it all starting at 170 and me saying "at least I'm not 180" all the way up to "at least I'm not 200"

Then one fateful day I was 204

THAT was a very bad day.

THIS, on the other hand, is the start of a great one.

Funny how context changes things.

I'm headed to the gym. I've got lbs to burn.

tee hee!

Congrats! Keep it up!

[swtpsblty]

so I'll write a real post tomorrow bc I am currently attempting the academic stunt of spending the night up and reviewing notes for tomorrow's exam. Judge me not, I've been working so hard on so many things at once.

I just came to express my extreme pleasure at the loss of another lb which I just don't understand is finally really happening after trying for so long.

I'll go into it a lot more tomorrow
sitting pretty at 203 lol.. adios another 3500 excess cals! I won't miss ya!

onward!

[Sky22]

How many calories are you eating? Your first post said around 1500. This seems a little low. Maybe i missed you posting it somewhere else but i'd recheck some of the fitness calculators on the front page.

[thesilent1]

Originally Posted by swtpsblty

so I'll write a real post tomorrow bc I am currently attempting the academic stunt of spending the night up and reviewing notes for tomorrow's exam. Judge me not, I've been working so hard on so many things at once.

I just came to express my extreme pleasure at the loss of another lb which I just don't understand is finally really happening after trying for so long.

I'll go into it a lot more tomorrow
sitting pretty at 203 lol.. adios another 3500 excess cals! I won't miss ya!

onward!

its all good and in the right direction girl!