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i know i cant use his tortue as an excuse, and it shouldnt be one.
i really have to stop this.

so i shouldnt even "touch" any junk food/"dirty food" since it always triggers me?

my mom came...

iv tried telling him countless times and iv told my mom probably a thousand times [confronting my father runs the risk of being "disrespectful" in his eyes or he gets irritated]

iv also told my...

its not a problem at school, i dont even think about food there.
but whenever i come home, i binge no matter what. i cant really eat with the family and the binges usually occur after meals [when...

most of you know about my anorexic past, down to 110 lbs at 5'9, etc.

but now iv started binge eating and i really need to stop.

iv gone from 130 lbs to 145 lbs in a little more than a week....

different things work for different people [for me, bb.com wasn't so great], and i understand how cutting could boost your self esteem [lower bf, look "better" etc].
at the same time, you should be...

no need to rep. thats my "temp" account anyway. [ i banned myself to get away from nutrition to recover, but needed help along the way so i created bigman550-->long story]

my situation was/is a...

Okay, your right, and im sorry for complaining so much about small things. heh, i must be the most annoying/frustrating kid on this thread.

not stressing and just eating when i felt hungry (yes...

i know, but i didnt always go back for food every meal, there were a lot of meals where i was just focused on other things so id have two sandwiches and do homework, not caring about food. it was...

but the big reason iv been eating more normally/having a lot less food thoughts has been because i havent stressed about small things, eg whether to worry that eating a couple extra sandwhiches after...

thanks man, over the summer (and actually up until this week) i would always try to make my meals as long as possible, simply because food is/was all i had. After i finished eating id always feel as...

the thing is that this week at least, it felt as though i wasnt thinking about food that much at all. i was so busy with schoolwork on the weekdays, that id have like quick 5 minute meals (except for...

so i should stop after 1-2 servings, even if i still feel hungry? damn, lol, part of the reason why i embraced not counting and **** was to be able to eat as much as possible lol. But its probably...

Hey guys, havent posted for a bit, but iv made some changes (positive i hope) since school started.

Im going to a completely new high school this year (junior) and iv been in school around 1...

Hey Josh, really glad to see your out and enjoying life man. Can only imagine how huge you are, lol.

Nothing much for me to say as it all goes without saying (or everybody else has said it...

i understand the benefits of "taking it slow".

for me though, iv been under 130 lbs for 12 months +, and the whole "one step at a time" method is partly whats been messing with me. --> Iv been...

im still working to change my mindset (know how "easy" that may sound to some) and im hoping that may change as the school year gets going.

until then, itd probably be inappropriate to ask for...

know iv said this before, but sorry to go in circles with you guys so much, i piss myself off so i cant imagine how frustrating it must be to try to help an idiot, heh



i know this sounds...

im not trying to blame others at all, actually the opposite, blaming myself for continueing to create a limit as a delaying tactic.

im not the blaming type, especially not to those here, you guys...

yeah, especially given how he's now the Head of the department at Boston Children's Hospital (one of largest hospitals in US) i know, its the whole mindset thing, eg "you've eaten 3700 today, again,...

im not exactly "afraid to eat. i feel as though i am constantly starving/even after GIANT Meals (1.2k+). but because iv been told that XXXX calories is adequate (after i asked for advice), i restrict...