not a waste at all. you've been training and that's a start. doing exercise is better than none. some struggle to get off the couch and by the sounds of it you've been motivated and stuck at it for a...
some good advise in here, listen to it. you need to manage your diet which is plainly obvious that you haven't. i don't care about your 5 meals a day bs go do some research (google) and create a meal...
Great work JR. Ignore the jealous haters they just can't stand that you're making a living out of something that you truly enjoy and love. Ironically they ignore the fact that you give plenty of FREE...