Losing my motivation because of my injury - gimme some support bros.
2.5 years ago I was 25% bodyfat and 215 pounds. The stress of one of my previous relationships turned me into a total fat ass. I got fat, sweaty, my health went to ****.
Gradually over the next year and a half I got myself down to around 188 with 17% body fat, my lifts were improving, was making progress, and then I subluxated my t1-t6 vertebrae (some moreso than others) and subsequently ****ed my rotator cuff. This was all an existing injury but because I'd never exerted myself or done any sort of intense activities which would cause symptoms to emerge, I just never noticed. Since May I've been getting treatment but solving one problem just revealed another cause which needed to be treated.
4 months ago, the pain in my left anterior deltoid, pec, and bicep became so intense as a result of spinal/torso rotation, that I had to stop working my upper body completely. I've done my best to keep in shape, linear squats, deadlifts, legs, limited back work... but I'm starting to become a fatass again. Stress, exams, writing final papers, and the Christmas gorge has not helped my waistline. My physical activity (or lack thereof) hasn't been able to compensate.
8 months of treatment, feeling like a fatass, fuaaaaaaa.... last week my spine released for the first time in as long as I can remember - it felt great, then I bent over to pick something up, put the vertebrae out of place again.
Just so ****ing frustrated - it was like heavenly bliss for 2-3 days... then poof.. gone. All that hard work, effort, energy, time, sacrifice, poof.. just ****ing gone. Not to mention all the money for all the treatment.
I just want to get back to being active. So pissed off.