[QUOTE=DesertDude11;1036990193] quitting is so important to us that failure is terrifying.[/QUOTE]
It is, and I still have that feeling of guilt.
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[QUOTE=DesertDude11;1036990193] quitting is so important to us that failure is terrifying.[/QUOTE]
It is, and I still have that feeling of guilt.
[QUOTE=Blacksmith80;1037033973]It is, and I still have that feeling of guilt.[/QUOTE]
Isn't it crazy how strongly we can feel emotions in dreams???
[QUOTE=DesertDude11;1037489753]Isn't it crazy how strongly we can feel emotions in dreams???[/QUOTE]
And that feeling of relief when you wake up and realise that you are not drunk and everything is ok - priceless.
[QUOTE=209vaughn;1034485493]I celebrated 4 years yesterday!! :)[/QUOTE]
Thats my anniversary too... Exactly 4 years... Good job my man!
[QUOTE=Blacksmith80;1037506523]And that feeling of relief when you wake up and realise that you are not drunk and everything is ok - priceless.[/QUOTE]
+100
[QUOTE=BackwoodsGa;1036932233]Back again ...hope everyone is staying clean and sober.[/QUOTE]
Went to a good friends wedding Saturday, lots of booze. Lotsa loaded people. Don't usually chill out in that environment. Had to go be there for my man though. Stayed sober, had a great time. Fuk yeah.
[QUOTE=EjnarKolinkar;1038024993]Went to a good friends wedding Saturday, lots of booze. Lotsa loaded people. Don't usually chill out in that environment. Had to go be there for my man though. Stayed sober, had a great time. Fuk yeah.[/QUOTE]
Awesome!congrats on the will power.
My sponsee's mom just died. He never worked things out with her.
She died of an overdose.
[QUOTE=cowboybiker;1038614303]My sponsee's mom just died. He never worked things out with her.
She died of an overdose.[/QUOTE] Aww man ... sorry to hear that brother. Stuff like this that really brings out the reality of why we stay clean. Reguards!
[QUOTE=cowboybiker;1038614303]My sponsee's mom just died. He never worked things out with her.
She died of an overdose.[/QUOTE]
Both of you hang in there. You may have to be there for your sponcer this time man.
That's a tough one CBB
[QUOTE=Big_Sky_Guy;1038665463]That's a tough one CBB[/QUOTE]
Agreed. I hope all is "okay." The passing of a loved one is tough.
[QUOTE=cowboybiker;1038614303]My sponsee's mom just died. He never worked things out with her.
She died of an overdose.[/QUOTE]
sorry to hear that, i hope he will stay sober.
[QUOTE=cowboybiker;1038614303]My sponsee's mom just died. He never worked things out with her.
She died of an overdose.[/QUOTE]
There, but for the grace of God.
[QUOTE=cowboybiker;1038614303]My sponsee's mom just died. He never worked things out with her.
She died of an overdose.[/QUOTE]
My condolences friend.
Really been tough lately. Why is it I tend to forget the wreckage and think in my head that I am fine, just had a run of bad luck? I know that is bull****. I forget waking up with all 4 tires flat, not knowing where the fak I am. I forget trying to hold it together but knowing I was killing myself slowly. I forget the feeling of foreigner when I used to look in the mirror. The hurt and heartache I caused towards those that I love. I forget the selfish wake I left behind my boat of patheticism.......I forget these things, and many more when i allow my mind to romance any idea of picking up again...So today.. I won't. And you don't have to either.
Pass
Twenty-eight years ago on this day, 3/16/85, I walked into my first meeting and have been clean and sober since. It's been a great run and better is yet to come!
Congrats Mark!
[QUOTE=MarkS51;1040659693]Twenty-eight years ago on this day, 3/16/85, I walked into my first meeting and have been clean and sober since. It's been a great run and better is yet to come![/QUOTE]
Phenomenal feat my friend. Absolutely amazing work.
15 months sober. good luck to you guys, never stop trying.
Hello all. Wishing everyone a safe and sober St Patrick's day
I'm not sure if I would consider myself an alcoholic but I recognize that I have alcoholic tendencies. I get addicted to everything I touch. I really started taking a long hard look at my drinking when I got a DWI back in April of last year and dealing with that has truly been hell. This whole thing has taught me that I don't really need to be drinking. Before my DWI, there wasnt anything I wouldn't drink and once I start truly drinking, I'm not really gonna stop. Every day that goes by, I realize that don't need to be drinking. I've progressed now to where ill have a drink every now and then but I kinda had a creepy experience Friday. I get home from work, house to myself, and I had an urge to get wasted so badly that I was literally shaking. I'm proud that I was able to resist but I'm learning more and more that if I do drink, I must be careful.
To be completely 100% honest though, I do not wake up craving alchohol and have never been a true alcoholic. I can and do go long periods without drinking and in fine but I'm the type that if I am not careful, drinking booze could get out of control.
[QUOTE=b3rtstare;1041161513]I'm not sure if I would consider myself an alcoholic but I recognize that I have alcoholic tendencies. I get addicted to everything I touch. I really started taking a long hard look at my drinking when I got a DWI back in April of last year and dealing with that has truly been hell. This whole thing has taught me that I don't really need to be drinking. Before my DWI, there wasnt anything I wouldn't drink and once I start truly drinking, I'm not really gonna stop. Every day that goes by, I realize that don't need to be drinking. I've progressed now to where ill have a drink every now and then but I kinda had a creepy experience Friday. I get home from work, house to myself, and I had an urge to get wasted so badly that I was literally shaking. I'm proud that I was able to resist but I'm learning more and more that if I do drink, I must be careful.
To be completely 100% honest though, I do not wake up craving alchohol and have never been a true alcoholic. I can and do go long periods without drinking and in fine but I'm the type that if I am not careful, drinking booze could get out of control.[/QUOTE]Not sure what it is you're looking for.
Confirmation?
When I got into recovery I was told one very simple yet eye opening truth.
If I wasnt done drinking and using then I'm wasting good using time.
Recovery is about complete abstinence from all mind altering substances.
In other words, I will never be a social drinker just like I will never be a recreational heroin user.
So for me and countless others, its all or nothing.
I cant help you make that choice nor will I even try.
But what I will do is tell you whats worked for me.
But the decision has to come from you and you only.
Last Drink Mar 21st 1985------------28 Years one day at a Time---"What an order" and Many Many thanks to all those who have helped me along the Way------------Especially God who never Turned his back on Me
[QUOTE=thomashenry;1042986833]Last Drink Mar 21st 1985------------28 Years one day at a Time---"What an order" and Many Many thanks to all those who have helped me along the Way------------Especially God who never Turned his back on Me[/QUOTE]Thats really good to hear Tom.
[QUOTE=cowboybiker;1042989233]Thats really good to hear Tom.[/QUOTE] Thank you kindly Sir---Now back to the Movie
[QUOTE=thomashenry;1042986833]Last Drink Mar 21st 1985------------28 Years one day at a Time---"What an order" and Many Many thanks to all those who have helped me along the Way------------Especially God who never Turned his back on Me[/QUOTE]
Congrats!
[QUOTE=thomashenry;1042986833]Last Drink Mar 21st 1985------------28 Years one day at a Time---"What an order" and Many Many thanks to all those who have helped me along the Way------------Especially God who never Turned his back on Me[/QUOTE]
So cool, 28!
[QUOTE=thomashenry;1042986833]Last Drink Mar 21st 1985------------28 Years one day at a Time---"What an order" and Many Many thanks to all those who have helped me along the Way------------Especially God who never Turned his back on Me[/QUOTE]
Such awesome news and very inspirational!
[QUOTE=thomashenry;1042986833]Last Drink Mar 21st 1985------------28 Years one day at a Time---"What an order" and Many Many thanks to all those who have helped me along the Way------------Especially God who never Turned his back on Me[/QUOTE]
You are one strong person, sir and inspiration for all others who are just starting to walk down that road of sobriety (15 months sober here).