Probably the most beta thing I'll ever post: need advice on friendzone
I just turned 16 and I've been into this girl for...6 years? srs. I've liked her on and off and talked to her about it many times and she's made it clear that she only wants to be friends exc... and in 8th grade we became very close (do everything together, families close, typical friendzone s***).
The thing is I feel like I'm seriously in love with her. She has everything: looks, personality, ambitions...and I don't think of her as just someone I'd smash (though I would), she's someone I want to care for and just be with.
Anyway, life is too short for this + it's something I gotta work on but I am distracted by her.
There's this fat kunt in my neighborhood that does nothing but drinks, fails at school (I mean ranked 270 out of 300), and talks a lot of chit but seems to get all the sloots. The girl I fancy always talked about how much she hated white trash but before you know it, he started talking to her and they hooked up. It took me forever to get over that, but now everytime I see her like one of his ******** posts, my bloodpressure spikes and I just wanna punch a phucking hole in the wall because I know they're talking (it happened a few mins ago).
How do I make all this stuff not matter to me?