Going heavy to get light: My journey to self redemption

[QUOTE=mmater;998584553]Ok, so I'm just sayin', but I am probably going to lose my mind in the next couple of days. My two trainers are out of town, my friends forgot what working out means, everyone on here is enjoying the holidays, my sister just baked a sh!t ton of goodies that I can't have right now. I feel so alone. sadface.jpg.



Doesn't help I'm sitting at the EMS station and haven't done fuking thing all day. And I underate yesterday meaning my stomach is growling at every turn today even eating what I am prescrbed. And I have to go the bathroom every 10 minutes.






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Hi MMater!! I really enjoy your journal and am subbing! Very excited to follow you over the next 16 weeks!! You have come do far already!!
The holidays sure can throw a wrench in the diet plans. I still can not figure out why Christmas always=cookies!!
1 1/2 gallons of water a day! I am sure you are going a lot! I am trying to get to 1 gallon a day! It isn't easy!

[QUOTE=jjeane;998614163]Hi MMater!! I really enjoy your journal and am subbing! Very excited to follow you over the next 16 weeks!! You have come do far already!!
The holidays sure can throw a wrench in the diet plans. I still can not figure out why Christmas always=cookies!!
1 1/2 gallons of water a day! I am sure you are going a lot! I am trying to get to 1 gallon a day! It isn't easy![/QUOTE]

Thanks for following along. Yeah, 1.5 gallons is a lot. I'm good at a gallon, but it becomes quite the effort to get more than that. I really hate going all the time, it's really annoying.





Whew! Barely made it! Thought my gym closed at 6 today, but apparently it closed at 4. I got there at like 2:30. Had every intention of taking my time and being in my oasis (work was beyond nuts this morning). Luckily, I meandered out of there shortly after 4, so I didn't make the girl too late. I was wondering why I was the only one in there. haha.

Workout - Back - This is my own workout. My coach is out of town, so I haven't had a chance to discuss with her the training program she has set up for me, but I went for higher reps, but exercises I like and do well with.

Pendlay Rows
95x8
95x5
135x8 - jumped up too much too soon. Didn't like how these were feeling, probably not warmed up enough at this point. No biggie, moving on.

Lat Pulldowns
3x10x120 - toughies

Single Arm Low Cable Rows -aka lawn mowers
3x15x50 - love these!!!!

Wide/Neutral Grip seated cable rows
3x12x90

Hammer Strength Iso Row with Reverse Grip
3x15x45s(each side) - These really get the outside lats and biceps IMO

T-bar row with V-grip
3x12x50 - brutal finisher


10 minutes on bike.

Overall it was a great workout. I got winded from most of the lifts and I felt the reps were high enough. My goal is to jot this down and then progress by doing these exercises and a later date, trying to get 3x15 on all of them, and once I do move up in weight and try for 3x10 and progress to 3x12, 3x15 and repeat the cycle. Really don't want to do more than 15 reps mainly due to wear and tear on the joints.

Merry Christmas everyone! If you are bored tomorrow or want to steal a break from the fan, stop in here sometime in the afternoon and I should have a nice little surprise for everyone (fingers crossed)

Merry Christmas mma aka "Queen of the OHP"!

Great workout mmater! I like the sound of the lawn mover exercise. Will have to look it up and try it! Nice lat pull downs and Pendlay rows!
Merry Christmas!

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Merry Christmas Mater!

Thanks everyone for the Xmas wishes. I am working EMS today, but as my own way of saying thank you to all civil service, nurses, and most importantly troops overseas unable to be with their families today, I did a workout. The BEST part is that a winter storm blew in, so the run was outside, half of it straight into a blistering 40mph wind with blowing snow and slick roads. No matter, that's nothing compared to being in a war zone or getting shot at. So, thank you.

Murph

1 mile run
100 pushups
200 air squats
300 situps
1 mile run

I modified the pushups to girl pushups, but that shiz was still hard and ended up doing crunches, simply because I was doing them on concrete and didn't think my tailbone would appreciate full situps. I actually finished in 43:41. The route was a tad short of a mile, and then as I am turning the corner heading straight into the wind, about .3 miles away from the station, I hear a couple of sirens. I was already gasping, but of course I thought I missed a call, so I haul ass back to the station, all sweaty. Luckily I didn't miss our call, but the fire had been called out so I had to try and get changed in case we got called out. Took a quick french shower, and sure enough we get called out. Get en route, and then get cancelled. Go figure. lol. It just reaffirms why I use my EMS days as rest days. haha. Eventful is eventful.

Overall I am happy, and even more happy I did it. Almost talked myself out of it, but the men/women in uniform talked me back into it.

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Merry Christmas, mater. :)

WOW mmater! That is a crazy workout!! Esp with the cold front that came through! That is awesome!

[QUOTE=jjeane;999460073]WOW mmater! That is a crazy workout!! Esp with the cold front that came through! That is awesome![/QUOTE]

Yeah, this is what I had to run in. Yuck. It was soooooo cold.

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Ok, so I was somewhat looking forward to work today, simply because my partner is a bikini competitor and her husband is a bodybuilder. So we are talking and it's nice to have someone else who understands why I can't have the enchiladas that the police department is having next door. lol. That was until she wakes up from her nap, tells me she has missed two meals, eats her next meal, then tells me she is hungry. I say, well, double up on one of your missed meals. "But, I can't, that would be like 600 calories." I say, "And what's wrong with that." She then says, "Well, I can only have 30 grams of protein at a time, the rest will just turn to fat."

FACEPALM.jpg. OMG!!!! Seriously. Sad day. At leat she's a nice person.

Ew yuk weather!

Stay strong on the eats!

Face palm indeed!!

[QUOTE=mmater;999514113]Yeah, this is what I had to run in. Yuck. It was soooooo cold.

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We are getting about 6 inches today, probably have 3 right now. Can't see the damn grass. pissedface.jpg

[QUOTE=mmater;999521743]Ok, so I was somewhat looking forward to work today, simply because my partner is a bikini competitor and her husband is a bodybuilder. So we are talking and it's nice to have someone else who understands why I can't have the enchiladas that the police department is having next door. lol. That was until she wakes up from her nap, tells me she has missed two meals, eats her next meal, then tells me she is hungry. I say, well, double up on one of your missed meals. "But, I can't, that would be like 600 calories." I say, "And what's wrong with that." She then says, "Well, I can only have 30 grams of protein at a time, the rest will just turn to fat."

FACEPALM.jpg. OMG!!!! Seriously. Sad day. At leat she's a nice person.[/QUOTE]

Lulz at 30 grams at a time. I used to think the same thing.

Ew yucky weather! I don't hate the cold but I'm used to it:)
Merry Christmas!

30 GRAMS OF PROTEIN?!!! Jezuz, c'mere and watch me devour an entire rotiserrie chicken, my biceps instantly grow a quarter inch, semi-srs. 30 grams, I often get like 200 in, that'd be a crap load of meals a day, don't have that much free time.

[QUOTE=thehobbes;999996143]30 GRAMS OF PROTEIN?!!! Jezuz, c'mere and watch me devour an entire rotiserrie chicken, my biceps instantly grow a quarter inch, semi-srs. 30 grams, I often get like 200 in, that'd be a crap load of meals a day,[b] don't have that much free time[/b].[/QUOTE]

Exactly!

[QUOTE=pharty;999910463]Ew yucky weather! I don't hate the cold but I'm used to it:)
Merry Christmas![/QUOTE]

Oh, I hate everything about the cold/yucky weather. The only time it is acceptable to be snowing is if I am skiing on it, and even then it has to be about 40 when I'm out there. I hate it, hate it, hate it.

[QUOTE=llahhsoj;999878923]We are getting about 6 inches today, probably have 3 right now. Can't see the damn grass. pissedface.jpg



Lulz at 30 grams at a time. I used to think the same thing.[/QUOTE]

yeah, I used to kind of think that as well, because I read it somewhere. Then I read an article from Alan Aragon on the exact subject and it really made sense, plus he has about a bajillion research articles and tests to back it up. So there's that. This girl was something else I tell ya. I mean, I like reading the magazines as well, and often try some of the workouts out, but I don't take them as my new bible either. She did make me see though, why I have such a hard time just "doing what I'm told, and trusting the process." Because if I don't question some or a lot of these things like why my current coach won't allow shrimp or scallops and why lean pork loin is not a viable protein choice for me, then I get to go around saying "it will just turn to fat." and want to do two cardio sessions a day because it's not working fast enough (yes, she said this too). Ugh, enough to make my head hurt. I'm going nighty night.

So, today was my families Christmas, since me and my sister both had to work on Christmas. I did not use it as a cheat day, but did vary on my meals, and even had a single bite of pumpkin pie. But, overall just lots of turkey and green beans. Pretty sure I am still way under for the day. No biggie. I did get in a workout this morning, and the scale was being very nice, so I can't wait to see what it says on Sunday (official weigh-in day).

Today's workout: Chest

Bench Press
4x12x95 - that last set was tough, and damn near needed a drop on the last rep. But I goter done.

DB Incline Press
2x15x30
1x8x30 - felt my left shoulder pop a bit, and couldn't recover so I laid off. Pretty sure it just rubbed over my enlarged tendon the wrong way and aggravated it. Moved on.

Assisted Dips
3x12x90 (that's the assisted weight)

Single Arm Rope Pressdown
3x15x20 - these are Freaking hard!

DB Floor Press
3x12x35s

CArdio - 10 minutes of 45 second work/15 second rest, alternating between
Battling Rope
Jump Rope

10 minutes recumbent bike

[QUOTE=mmater;1000083273]Exactly!
current coach won't allow shrimp or scallops and why lean pork loin is not a viable protein choice for me, then I get to go around saying "it will just turn to fat." and want to do two cardio sessions a day because it's not working fast enough (yes, she said this too). Ugh, enough to make my head hurt. I'm going nighty night.[/QUOTE]

The not allowing shrimp or scallops could be a sodium issue, might be wrong on that.

Workout - Shoulders, quickie

Seat DB Press
3x20x20 (10 alternating reps, 10 together)

Face Pulls
3x15x70/80/80

Leaning Lateral Raise
3x15x10lb each arm

Head supported bent over reverse flies
3x30x10lb DB - Basically I do 10 like a Y, 10 like a T, and 10 like and upside down Y. Really burns.

Hang Cleans
45x8
65x8
95x5
115x5
135x3 half attempts. I think it was more psychological than anything else. Also, didn't feel really good with my grip.

Cardio - Row 1,000 meters, Time: 3:57

Decent workout. Best part is I forced myself to go after working all day. I really hate going to my gym after 3 p.m., but I guess since it's the "holiday" season it wasn't as busy.

Nutrition is on point. Can't wait to weigh-in on Sunday.

Nice volume on bp and nice hang cleans! Is it wrong I totally lost it at "enlarged tendon"? :p Question on the db floor press - how do you get the dbs back down when you're done? Trying to picture this and I don't understand. For bb floor press I think people do it in a rack off of the lowest safety?

[QUOTE=thehobbes;1001263103 For bb floor press I think people do it in a rack off of the lowest safety?[/QUOTE]

At the lowest safety, that is a bottom half press. Basically, movement starts from the bottom and then you reset every rep. A floor press is a top half movement because your arms can't go below parallel.

[QUOTE=thehobbes;1001263103]Nice volume on bp and nice hang cleans! Is it wrong I totally lost it at [b]"enlarged tendon"?[/b] :p Question on the db floor press - how do you get the dbs back down when you're done? Trying to picture this and I don't understand. For bb floor press I think people do it in a rack off of the lowest safety?[/QUOTE]

I think it sounds lame myself, but look up tendonopathy. It's what I have. Kind of annoying really.

[QUOTE=llahhsoj;1001278613]At the lowest safety, that is a bottom half press. Basically, movement starts from the bottom and then you reset every rep. A floor press is a top half movement because your arms can't go below parallel.[/QUOTE]

What he said. I will try and get a vid next time I do them. It really hits the triceps hard.



Workout today - Deadlift. Worked out with Chris. His hang clean weights were my deadlift weights. Yeah.

Deadlift
95x10
135x8
185x8
225x6
245x5
265x5
185x15

Bird Feeders - single leg romanian deadlifts
3x10x30s in each hand. Talk about ass cramp.

Glute-ham raises - getting better at these
3x5 - I was already toast

20 minutes on airdyne bike

Tomorrow I plan to go fora 3 mile run to see what my time is. My goal for the police academy is to pass their PT test first time up (you get three tries throughout the academy). I need to be under 30 minutes for 3 miles. I'm pretty sure I am close to that now, so we will see. Should be interesting seeing as how my lower back will be fried from today.

Um, yeah, no run today. 1-too cold. 2-too sore. My ass hurts soo bad from those deadlifts yesterday.

Did weigh-in today. 2 week results:

dropped 8 pounds
dropped 2% BF
dropped a few inches all over

All in all success. Now it's time for my well-earned pizza and then get back at it tomorrow.

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mmater that is so AWESOME!!!! 8# is fantastic. Did you take pics at the start so you can compare?
Oh,very nice DL's.

[QUOTE=jjeane;1001929653]mmater that is so AWESOME!!!! 8# is fantastic. Did you take pics at the start so you can compare?
Oh,very nice DL's.[/QUOTE]

I did take start pics, but won't be posting them until I have the after pics.


Ok, so I just had dominos pizza as my cheat meal, and while the first few bites were good, I know I am going to pay the price later. Just saying this on here: No more pizza cheat meals. Definitely not worth it. Blah.

[QUOTE=mmater;1001926113]Um, yeah, no run today. 1-too cold. 2-too sore. My ass hurts soo bad from those deadlifts yesterday.

Did weigh-in today. 2 week results:

dropped 8 pounds
dropped 2% BF
dropped a few inches all over

All in all success. Now it's time for my well-earned pizza and then get back at it tomorrow.

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Your 2 week result is awesome! Way to kick it into gear!

I love that vid! Watched it twice :)

No bueno on the pizza. Have you thought about homemade pizza as a cheat? Could work.

OMFG!!!! It is 3:30a.m. in the morning and I have been tossing and turning all night. This pizza is doing a number on me. I feel like absolute crap. It's part the pizza, but moreso how much of it I ate (I signed a nondisclosure agreement on that one. lol). I have already been up since 3a.m. and have downed some greens formula and am chugging the sh!t out of some water, hoping to get this crappy food out of my system as fast as possible. My mouth and throat are sooo dry, I feel like I have been stranded on the sahara for a week. I guess that's one way to cure a girl from pizza. lol. jjeane, yes, I have made homemade pizza before, just went this route because I didn't want to cook. Lesson learned. Ugh.

Good news is I get some quiet time this morning to contemplate and work on my goals for 2013. That's if my stomach and intestines will stop growling at me...

lol, subbed! Pizza used to be my go to cheat meal! BBQ chicken. Then one time I got a large because I thought my sister was going to share. She decided not to and I hate wasting food...lets just say I havnt touched pizza since!!
[QUOTE=mmater;1002130933]OMFG!!!! It is 3:30a.m. in the morning and I have been tossing and turning all night. This pizza is doing a number on me. I feel like absolute crap. It's part the pizza, but moreso how much of it I ate (I signed a nondisclosure agreement on that one. lol). I have already been up since 3a.m. and have downed some greens formula and am chugging the sh!t out of some water, hoping to get this crappy food out of my system as fast as possible. My mouth and throat are sooo dry, I feel like I have been stranded on the sahara for a week. I guess that's one way to cure a girl from pizza. lol. jjeane, yes, I have made homemade pizza before, just went this route because I didn't want to cook. Lesson learned. Ugh.

Good news is I get some quiet time this morning to contemplate and work on my goals for 2013. That's if my stomach and intestines will stop growling at me...[/QUOTE]