Dont really see the point of life anymore(srs)
*I don't want to be conscious anymore. I don't want to put up with this overpopulated world and the crap within it. I don't want to do school or work i am extremely lazy and unmotivated and i question life constantly. Sleeping is my escape from reality as well. I don't understand the point of this life and i'm too lazy to live it and make all the efforts. I hate making friends. I rather live far from society where there are no expectations or requirements or regulations except for a select few. Being conscious is an interesting experience but i don't want to put up with it anymore it's too difficult. I don't like people. Everyone is too selfish and insane and untruthful and manipulative, most people intimidate me and i have horrible social anxiety i'm scared to get to know someone and i don't know how to. THIS MAY NOT MAKE SENSE, but i just spilled my thoughts. I feel miserable. Not a bad person - I have a great heart, i care a lot, its hard to say no, i feel bad for every living thing can't even hurt a bug. Been lifting for a long time and look like absolute ****. Can't get girls. Best friend won't talk to me. Have no job. Family looks at me everyday like a freak like I disappointed them. What do I do