Wow brother, when it rains it pours, the Bible says it rains on the just and unjust alike. Don't be overcome with doubt, I know it is hard, the Christian life is always the harder path. You have the Enemy against you, friends doubt judge you slander you. Stay strong and pursue Christ with a vigor, Paul was beaten imprisoned judged and persecuted, but he was untouchable because of his faith and reliance on Christ. Remember to pray..so many times in the Bible God tells us just to ASK him..and he will give us the desire of our hearts, but we have to have faith that he will. Sometimes our lives crumble in an effort for us to realize how much we need Christ in our lives and how we can't do it on our own. Through your struggle you will be taught something, it will build character, and probably draw you closer to Christ. Stay strong brother