CarolinaGurl
08-24-2006, 08:22 PM
Well tomorrow is the last day before the comp and I am okay but as always I am a bit freaked out and shakey on the inside. I know that I am going in leaner than at Southern Isles but I somewhat wonder if I am looking as swole as I could be. I know my measurements say that I haven't shrunk but I can't help but feel like I have.
There is no question in my mind that I am way better prepared for this comp both physically, posing and routine wise. Bet there are those little nasty "what ifs" running around in my head that won't let me rest. Does everyone deal with this kind of nerves before a comp or am I weird? Maybe its time for a little xanex and some sleepy sleep *lol*
The real bit*h about this is that once you drop below a certain % of bodyfat I think you totally lose your self perception I haven't a clue how I look now even though I spend 45 minutes a day posing and looking at myself in the mirror. Then I see people I haven't seen in a couple weeks or a month (mostly my hair clients) and they immediately give me a reality check on my leaness and usually they're not to happy about me being so lean (god I love these women!) they think I look tired or too skinny.
I had a woman in a friends salon ask if I ate three meals a day and I said "no" and before I could finish my answer she said "I knew it! you young girls are always starving yourselves" to which I responded "no ma'am I eat 6 times a day not three and that is why I am so lean, not because I don't eat" her mouth hung open and then said "really? so its true? many more smaller meals really does work?" I just nodded my head giggled and walked off.
I have become living proof of everything we read about working it just takes the #1 thing that 99.1% of the population doesn't have.... self control and discipline. And in all honesty mine is beginning to waiver *one piece of chocolate is okay right?* I cannot wait to get on that cruise ship in two weeks and just be a person and eat normally just with more discipline than my former self.
Honestly, lately I have begun to wonder if I will be able to go back to eating bigger meals without being so focused on my form. Will I be able to keep the food/mind relationship in check as not to form any bad habits concerning nutrition after the competition season? I think I will but the test will be when I put back on the last five pounds since Southern Isles.
I have really appreciated seeing my abs so clearly but I also realize that it just isn't healthy to stay this lean just to show them off as they are now. I sometimes think we are set up by magazines thinking that if we just did a little more and ate a little less we would all look like Maggie D in our ever day life and that is just unrealistic.
Do any of you ever worry that you could develop an unhealthy relationship with your food?
Yes, I am taking workout gear on the ship with me, I would feel like s**t if I didn't do anything for a week straight. I am going to do cardio everyday at the very least. Heck, I picked the ship I did because of the gym *lol* man are we a sick breed of people or what? *grin*
~Tyra
There is no question in my mind that I am way better prepared for this comp both physically, posing and routine wise. Bet there are those little nasty "what ifs" running around in my head that won't let me rest. Does everyone deal with this kind of nerves before a comp or am I weird? Maybe its time for a little xanex and some sleepy sleep *lol*
The real bit*h about this is that once you drop below a certain % of bodyfat I think you totally lose your self perception I haven't a clue how I look now even though I spend 45 minutes a day posing and looking at myself in the mirror. Then I see people I haven't seen in a couple weeks or a month (mostly my hair clients) and they immediately give me a reality check on my leaness and usually they're not to happy about me being so lean (god I love these women!) they think I look tired or too skinny.
I had a woman in a friends salon ask if I ate three meals a day and I said "no" and before I could finish my answer she said "I knew it! you young girls are always starving yourselves" to which I responded "no ma'am I eat 6 times a day not three and that is why I am so lean, not because I don't eat" her mouth hung open and then said "really? so its true? many more smaller meals really does work?" I just nodded my head giggled and walked off.
I have become living proof of everything we read about working it just takes the #1 thing that 99.1% of the population doesn't have.... self control and discipline. And in all honesty mine is beginning to waiver *one piece of chocolate is okay right?* I cannot wait to get on that cruise ship in two weeks and just be a person and eat normally just with more discipline than my former self.
Honestly, lately I have begun to wonder if I will be able to go back to eating bigger meals without being so focused on my form. Will I be able to keep the food/mind relationship in check as not to form any bad habits concerning nutrition after the competition season? I think I will but the test will be when I put back on the last five pounds since Southern Isles.
I have really appreciated seeing my abs so clearly but I also realize that it just isn't healthy to stay this lean just to show them off as they are now. I sometimes think we are set up by magazines thinking that if we just did a little more and ate a little less we would all look like Maggie D in our ever day life and that is just unrealistic.
Do any of you ever worry that you could develop an unhealthy relationship with your food?
Yes, I am taking workout gear on the ship with me, I would feel like s**t if I didn't do anything for a week straight. I am going to do cardio everyday at the very least. Heck, I picked the ship I did because of the gym *lol* man are we a sick breed of people or what? *grin*
~Tyra